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The Book of Revelation: The Two Witness

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...These are a Self Existing White Wizard's ramblings...
Tone 4: Self-Existing - Measure & Discipline

A reminder to myself:
White Wizard is a tool of the light, a conduit for the work of Spirit. A wise magician is spontaneous and transparent, allowing magic to come in rather than trying to control it or make it happen. A magician dances the dance of love through offering gifts of freedom to others. This is real magic. Freed from the need to use power to manipulate or control, a magician uses wisdom to manifest liberation and love.

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Born a cougar

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~ Ascending Transformations ~

Gender
Male
Age
36
Location
about me
I study
I pray
I meditate
I laugh
I cry
I listen
I learn
I share
I Am
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Ephesians 6
1 Children (chelas, disciples), obey your (inner, divine) parents in the Lord: for this is right (virtuous).

2 Honour thy (Divine) Father and (Divine) Mother (in each thought, word, and deed); which is the first commandment with promise;

3 That it may be well with thee, and thou mayest live long on the earth (physical body, which you need to advance in the Great Work).

4 And, ye fathers (spiritual leaders), provoke not your children (students) to wrath (with your ego): but bring them up in the nurture and admonition of the Lord (the Being; teach them to first serve their own Innermost).

5 Servants (of humanity), be obedient to them that are your masters according to the flesh, with fear and trembling, in singleness of your heart, as unto Christ;

6 Not with eyeservice, as menpleasers (appearing to serve, but not with your heart); but as the servants of Christ, doing the will of God from the heart;

7 With good (conscious) will doing service, as to the Lord, and not to men: (do all service as if it were for your own Innermost)

8 Knowing that whatsoever good thing any man doeth, the same shall he receive of the Lord, whether he be bond or free. (because Karma is indeed infallible)

9 And, ye masters (of Major Mysteries), do the same things (of selfless service) unto them (who follow after you), forbearing threatening (do not threaten or use fear): knowing that your (Inner) Master also is in heaven; neither is there respect of persons with him.

10 Finally, my brethren, be strong in the Lord (the revolutionary Christ), and in the power of his might (Aun).

11 Put on the whole armour of God (the Solar Bodies), that ye may be able to stand against the wiles of the devil (who is within you).

12 For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against (inner) principalities, against (our own egotistical) powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this (psychological) world, against spiritual wickedness in high places.

13 Wherefore take unto you the whole armour of God, that ye may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand.

14 Stand therefore, having your loins girt about with truth (in perfect chastity), and having on the breastplate of righteousness (with a clean and robust heart);

15 And your feet (your marriage) shod with the preparation of the gospel of peace (the Fifth Gospel, the gospel of Alchemy);

16 Above all, taking the shield of faith (direct experience), wherewith ye shall be able to quench all the fiery darts (criticisms and gossip) of the wicked.

17 And take the helmet of salvation (the illuminated pineal gland), and the sword of the Spirit (your tongue), which is the word of God (the profound teachings which you spread with your Word):

18 Praying always with all prayer and supplication in the Spirit, and (consciously) watching thereunto with all perseverance and supplication for all saints;

19 And for me, that utterance may be given unto me, that I may open my mouth boldly, to make known the mystery of the gospel (without fear, without reserve, but with great compassion for all mankind, and in accordance with the instructions given by the Christ himself),

20 For which I am an ambassador in bonds: that therein I may speak boldly, as I ought to speak.

21 But that ye also may know my affairs, and how I do, Tychicus, a beloved brother and faithful minister in the Lord, shall make known to you all things:

22 Whom I have sent unto you for the same purpose, that ye might know our affairs, and that he might comfort your hearts.

23 Peace be to the brethren, and love with faith, from God the Father and the Lord Jesus Christ.

24 Grace be with all them that love our Lord Jesus Christ (who dwells within) in sincerity. Amen.
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Amma quotes

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Rumi

Those who don't feel this LOVE pulling them like a river,
those who don't drink dawn like a cup of springwater
or take in sunset like supper,
those who don't want to change,
let them sleep.
This love
is beyond the study of theology,
that old trickery and hypocrisy.
If you want to improve your mind that way, sleep on.
I've given up on my brain, I've torn the cloth to shreds
and thrown it away. If you're not completely naked, wrap your beautiful robe of words
around you,
and sleep......

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And now Hafiz...




I AM REALLY LIKE A TAMBOURINE

Good
Poetry
Makes the universe admit a
Secret:
"I am
Really just a tambourine,
Grab hold,
Play me
Against your warm
Thigh."


THIS SKY

This
Sky
Where we live
Is no place to lose your wings
So love, love
Love.



LIKE A LIFE GIVING SUN

You could become a great horseman

And help to free yourself and this world

Though only if you and prayer become sweet Lovers.

It is a naive man who thinks we are not engaged in a
fierce battle,

For I see and hear brave foot soldiers all around me
going mad,

Falling on the ground in excruciating pain,

You could become a victorious horseman

And carry your heart through this world like a life
giving sun,

Though only if you and God become sweet Lovers.








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Paramhansa means..

One who is able to swim in the ocean of delusion, and yet be untouched by it..

The last words he spoke after a speech were, "My India": "Where Ganges, woods, Himalayan caves and men dream God--I am hollowed; my body touched that sod!" He then lifted his eyes, entered mahasamadhi and exited his earthly body.

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___Sayings of Yogananda___



A disciple who felt that he had failed in a difficult spiritual test was reviling himself. The master said:
“Do not think of yourself as a sinner. To do so is a desecration of the divine image within you. Why identify yourself with your weaknesses? Instead, affirm the truth: I am a child of god. Pray to him: ‘naughty or good, I am thine own. Reawaken my memory of thee, o heavenly father!’”


Destroy all desire; get rid of the ego--- all this sounds very negative to me, master,” a student remarked. “Abandoning so much, what shall I have left?”
“Everything, really, because you shall be wealthy in spirit, the universal substance,” the master replied. “No longer a bewildered beggar, content with a crust of bread and a few bodily comforts, you shall have regained your sublime place as a son of the infinite father. That is not a negative state!”
He added, “Banishing the ego allows the true self to shine forth. Divine realization is a state impossible to explain, because nothing else can compare to it.”


When a certain student became sick, Paramhansa advised her to see a doctor, a disciple asked:
“Master, why didn’t you heal her?”
“Those who have received from god the power of healing use it only when he so commands,” the guru replied. “the lord knows that sometimes it is necessary for his children to undergo suffering. Men who want divine healing should be ready to live in accordance with god’s laws. No permanent healing is possible if a person continues to make the same mistakes and thus invites the return of disease.
“True healing is effected only through spiritual understanding,” he went on. “Man’s ignorance of his real nature or soul is the root cause of all other evils---physical, material, and mental.”


“Master, you have taught us not to pray for things, but to desire only that god reveal himself to us, should we never ask him to supply a particular need?” a disciple inquired.
“it is not wrong to tell the lord that we want something,” Paramhansaji replied, “but it shows greater faith if we simply say: ‘Heavenly father, I know that thou dost anticipate my every need. Sustain me according to thy will.’
“If a man is eager to own a car, for instance, and prays for it with sufficient intensity, he will receive it. But possession of a car may not be the best thing for him. Sometimes he intends to bestow on us a better gift.” He added, “Trust more in God. Believe that he who created you will maintain you.”


The master said to a group of disciples:
“The lord has arranged for us this visit to earth, but most of us become undesirable guests by considering certain things here as our very own. Forgetting the temporary nature of our stay, we form various attachments: ‘my home.’ ‘my work,’ ‘my money,’ ‘my family.’
“But when our earth-visa expires, all human ties vanish. We are forced to leave behind us all we had thought we possessed. The only one who accompanies us everywhere is our eternal relative, god.
“Realize now that you are the soul and not the body, why wait for death rudely to instruct you?”

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gazing into eternity...

taken about an hour before........
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Prayer of St. Francis of Assisi



Lord make me an instrument of Thy Peace;
Where there is hatred, let me sow love;
Where there is injury, pardon;
Where there is doubt, faith;
Where there is despair, hope;
Where there is darkness, light;
Where there is sadness, joy.

O Divine Master,
Grant that I may not so much seek
To be consoled as to console;
To be understood as to understand;
To be loved as to love:
For it is in giving that we receive,
It is in pardoning that we are pardoned
And it is in dying
That we are born to Eternal Life. Amen

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Matthew 13:


10 And the disciples came, and said unto him, Why speakest thou unto them in parables?

11 He answered and said unto them, Because it is given unto you to know the mysteries of the kingdom of heaven, but to them it is not given.

12 For whosoever hath (Christ born within), to him shall be given (the mysteries), and he shall have more (development in) abundance: but whosoever hath not (Christ within), from him shall be taken away even that he hath.

13 Therefore speak I to them in parables: because they seeing see not; and hearing they hear not, neither do they understand. (because they are not awakening the consciousness)

14 And in them is fulfilled the prophecy of Esaias, which saith, By hearing ye shall hear, and shall not understand; and seeing ye shall see, and shall not perceive:

15 For this people's heart is waxed gross, and their ears are dull of hearing, and their eyes they have closed; lest at any time they should see with their eyes and hear with their ears, and should understand with their heart, and should be converted, and I should heal them.

16 But blessed are your eyes, for they see: and your ears, for they hear. (for you are performing the teachings I the Christ have given, thus I the Christ am being born in you, and give you eyes to see and ears to hear what the Spirit saith unto the Churches)

17 For verily I say unto you, That many prophets and righteous men have desired to see those things which ye see, and have not seen them; and to hear those things which ye hear, and have not heard them.

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peace
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Take, O Lord and receive my entire liberty,
My memory, my understanding and my whole will.
All that I am and all that I possess
You have given me:
I surrender it all to you
To be disposed of according to Your will.
Give me only Your love and Your grace;
With these I will be rich enough,
And will desire nothing more.

( St. Ignatius )

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The hebrew letter LAMED

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The Caduceus of Mercury: Symbolizes the dorsal spine and its two “nadis” or channels: Ida and Pingala, through which the soul of the mercury rises. The latter ascends, after it’s fecundated by the Fire of the Holy Spirit (by means of Scientific Chastity)
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Albert Einstein

"A human being is a part of a whole, called by us _universe_, a part limited in time and space. He experiences himself, his thoughts and feelings as something separated from the rest... a kind of optical delusion of his consciousness. This delusion is a kind of prison for us, restricting us to our personal desires and to affection for a few persons nearest to us. Our task must be to free ourselves from this prison by widening our circle of compassion to embrace all living creatures and the whole of nature in its beauty."

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LOVE

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"Homo Nosce Te Ipsum"

Man, know yourself and you will know the universe and it's Gods.

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Ignis Natura Renovatur Integra
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I have understood this body of mine to be the product of ignorance, composed of flesh and blood and lit up by the perceptive power of consciousness. To those fortunate ones who long for emancipation it may be the great vessel by which they may procure Freedom. But to the unfortunates who only sin, it may be the guide to lower and miserable states of existence. This our life is the boundary mark whence one may take an upward or downward path. Our present time is a most precious time, wherein each of us must decide, in one way or other, for lasting good or lasting ill.
~Milarepa

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the bird of gnosis
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Gnostic Exegesis ~ come fly

The idea of water cannot save a man dying of thirst. A belief in the existence of water cannot save him.
He needs to drink the water. This is to experience it practically. This is cognizant knowledge, Gnosis.
He needs the Gnosis of the water. He needs to drink it himself.


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Major Arcana
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The Tree of Life

The Tree of Life is the spinal medulla. This Tree of Wisdom is also the ten Sephiroth, the twenty-two creative Major Arcana, letters, sounds and numbers, with which the Logos (God) created the Universe. - Samael Aun Weor, The Aquarian Message
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"Do not think that I came to bring peace on earth. I did not come to bring peace but a sword. For I have come to set a man against his father, a daughter against her mother, and a daughter-in-law against her mother-in-law; and a man's enemies will be those of his own household. He who loves father or mother more than Me is not worthy of Me. And he who loves son or daughter more than Me is not worthy of Me. And he who does not take his cross and follow after Me is not worthy of Me. He who finds his life will lose it, and he who loses his life for My sake will find it."
Matthew 10, 34-39

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Valkyrie
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“What causes wars, and what causes fighting among you? Is it not your passions that are at war in your members? You desire and do not have; so you kill. And you covet and cannot obtain; so you fight and wage war. You do not have, because you do not ask. You ask and do not receive, because you ask wrongly, to spend it on your passions.”
-James 4:1-3

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vajrasattava
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“Nothing is sweeter than love; nothing higher, nothing stronger, nothing larger, nothing more joyful, nothing fuller, nothing better in heaven or on earth; for love descends from God, and may not finally rest in anything lower than God.”
-Thomas a Kempis

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Tree of Life

And he dreamed, and behold a ladder set up on the earth, and the top of it reached to heaven: and behold the angels of God ascending (to higher realms) and descending (to lower realms) on it. - Genesis 28:12
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"The drama of Initiation is enclosed within the life of every Initiate."
"It is only among Initiates that we can understand each other correctly."
"In order to understand the Bible, one needs to be a Gnostic, because the Bible is a highly symbolic book, and if we try to read it in the Protestant style, like one who reads newspaper columns, we fall into the most terrible absurdities."
Samael Aun Weor

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I pray with Rumi:

Oh Beloved,
take me.
Liberate my soul.
Fill me with your love and
release me from the two worlds.
If I set my heart on anything but you
let fire burn me from inside.

Oh Beloved,
take away what I want.
Take away what I do.
Take away what I need.
Take away everything
that takes me from you.

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Ramana

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Man is a star bound to a body,
until in the end,
he is freed through his strife.
Only by struggle and toiling thy
utmost shall the star within thee
bloom out in new life.
He who knows the commencement of all things,
free is his star from the realm of night.



www.crystalinks.com/emerald.html

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Sadhu

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Amma

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The Lion of Bengal

Sri Yukteswar is a powerful presence. I think of him often.....
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All who wander are not lost.....



www.gnosticteachings.org/books...rimony

I would love if we could all read this and then comment on it here....

I think it is a must for all.... maybe¿

Especially for any romances out there or future ones...

Or just for the Esoteric info that is off the charts !

I have read about 15 or more of this mans works and am almost totally in agreement with him.... He gets carried away sometimes but is mostly informative...

I guess to understand ... read more
Mon, September 22, 2008 - 4:22 PM permalink - 4 comments
 
So when someone purposely falls from the path it isn´t pretty....

I can barely walk.....

My feet are infected with worms that have to be removed surgically, one doctor said, and another said it is a very bad fungus......

They look like worms under the skin and itch like crazy....

Fear of moving forward?

ha ha ha

unbelievable!

Can´t talk much now but what a trip.....

I really opened up a can of worms,......ha ha ha.....


Sat, September 20, 2008 - 10:54 AM permalink - 3 comments
 
souls that have double polarity

They are broken in 2....

I am in Mex and have really put myself through the wringer...
I have had my backpack stolen with so much of my clothes, camara, electric shaver and credit cards in it...
I have been really battling....My demons and they were winning...
I know that it is impossible to ascend without descending first, but there are different ways to descend...Many don´t agree with this and I know that I really don´t know shit, but this is true in... read more
Thu, September 18, 2008 - 9:54 AM permalink - 6 comments
 
I am not leaving until Monday so I am really studying before I go....

I posted this over at my tribe and wanted to make sure people get a chance to read it as it is very good, so here it is here too..
ha ha ha
They all are good.... I would think that this is an extremely helpful starting point~






In Greek, To Soma Heliakon.

Today we are going to talk of the symbology of the Ark of Noah, that which in Greek is called To Soma Heliakon, meaning "the solar body of the so... read more
Fri, August 29, 2008 - 10:32 AM permalink - 3 comments
 
I am off to Mexico...

A one way ticket and I don't know when I'm coming back...

I'm going down with almost no funds so if someone gets rich and wants to donate to a worthy cause than feel free to deposit into my secret swiss account....Tax deductible ~ Email me for directions ;-)....
ha ha ha ~ not joking actually....

If anyone wants to buy a paraglider for cheap~ the one at the end of my pictures folder, you can do that too....

Best offer.....and that can be picked up in M... read more
Wed, August 27, 2008 - 1:13 PM permalink - 4 comments
 
Another gnostic lecture to help us on our path....


Today we have arrived at the ninth lecture in our series on the esoteric astrology of Gnosis.

The number nine is definitive. This number indicates a very profound science related to the ninth sphere. But to understand what the ninth sphere is, we have to understand something about Kaballah.

The ninth zodiacal sign is Sagittarius and the image or the symbol utilized to represent the zodiacal influence of Sagittarius is a centau... read more
Tue, August 26, 2008 - 12:16 PM permalink - 0 comments
 


Before the dawn of the Mahamanvantara (the great cosmic day), Nothing (No-Thing/Eternal Siety) existed. All that was, was the Omeyocan (Nahuatl), the Absolute Abstract Space. It is here that the womb of the ocean of Divine Mother Space resides, waiting to be fecundated by the Eternal Cosmic Common Father in order to initiate the dawn of creation.
The womb of the Divine Mother Space is the Absolute, it is that which is the Siety, the original point of departure of everything existent.

... read more
Sat, August 2, 2008 - 4:05 PM permalink - 0 comments
 
Read this, it is wonderful~

~Bodhichitta~

Welcome to our new course, in which we will analyze and discuss the famous path of the Bodhisattva.

The teachings that we will be discussing are very ancient and find their roots in times that are long forgotten by this humanity. The term "Bodhisattva" is a Sanskrit word, which describes a certain kind of person, or a certain kind of psychology, which is far more ancient than even the Sanskrit language. So when we enter into the rec... read more
Mon, July 21, 2008 - 12:17 PM permalink - 1 comment
 
"Understanding clairvoyant perceptions is extremely subtle and requires very rigorous education, understanding, patience, sincerity. Generally speaking, it is better to not speak about what you see. It is also better to not react to what you see. You may see things that are positive or negative. Probably the majority of spiritual teachers out there now are people who have developed some degree of clairvoyance, but they misinterpret what they see. Then they begin to call themselves "masters" a... read more
Sun, July 20, 2008 - 12:06 AM permalink - 1 comment
 
Ok

Vipassana

Our minds eye looks at the pain in lets say the lower back and feels no pain in the upper back..
If our mind becomes focused and sharper then the point of view of the pain becomes just vibrations off and on, and if it becomes even more focused as it goes to the next level of sensation beneath that..
The thing is when it does this there are no new pains developing and the mind becomes focused on the smaller vibrations and when this happens it goes to a sharper point and ... read more
Sun, July 6, 2008 - 11:59 AM permalink - 8 comments
 
Hi friends and browsers, here is something I want to say before I go.....

I have learned through my own experiences,that there are two keys to remember as we go through these radical transformations and of course at any other time too:

The first is this:

"'The Lord our God, the Lord is one; and you shall love the Lord your God with all your heart, and with all your soul, and with all your mind, and with all your strength.'

The second is this:

‘You shall love your... read more
Tue, June 24, 2008 - 11:30 AM permalink - 2 comments
 

I know I know it is another long one but well worth the time..

This is something you should read all the way through without any interruptions and have some time to yourself afterwards.

After reading it you might want to meditate and be alone for a bit rather than go onto other things.

It may get pretty intense for some people, but you wont regret it.

May all beings be happy..~
cheers~





We are in this very moment experiencing great events not only in this physic... read more
Mon, June 23, 2008 - 11:36 AM permalink - 4 comments
 
First of all happy solstice everyone....

And now the news:
An all time record heat hit Shell Beach, California yesterday....
116 degrees...

Wow!
And back where my godmother lives she said some of the farmers are using boats to get around....really...! Everything is underwater...her house is ok and I know why...The elementals are helping. She is protected...

read on reader~

This is from a news article yesterday~
Summer 2008:
EXPECT HEAT, HISTORY AND 'CHANGE LIKE WE'VE NEVER... read more
Sat, June 21, 2008 - 12:23 PM permalink - 3 comments