foss journal

Howler my Friend

   Tue, July 14, 2009 - 10:52 PM
I started using tribe a few years years ago, about the time I met Howler. I see the connections between us all the way through his tribe profile and mine. After i met him at the intention retreat and was greatly impressed by his work to draw people together and share out of each one's truth, I looked through his tribe profile and recognized a friend's back yard in a picture on the album and went and stalked him. We got to be very close friends, even lovers for a while. He wrote comments on my blogs and photos and i on his.

I am aligned and resonant with Howler's expressed intentions and last year, in response to his callout on tribe, we worked on two projects together, a communication board game and a sacred dance floor. We were both really sensitive and, well, ended up angry at each other, also aware of deep love on both sides.

Howler has now moved on to the afterlife. I and hundreds of others are deeply heartbroken by his sudden departure. He was a wounded healer. His influence on my life is enormous.

Friend, our closeness is this:
Anywhere you put your foot, feel me
in the firmness under you.

How is it with this love,
I see your world and not you?

~~Jalaladdin Rumi



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Wed, July 15, 2009 - 9:00 AM
I believe his enormous power as a healer and transformer has only just begun.
Wed, July 15, 2009 - 11:40 AM
i didn't know him very well, but my heart goes out to you and all of his friends and family.

*hugs*
Wed, July 15, 2009 - 3:36 PM
I am...
And he is not...

I looked up to him...
and he wont be anymore

I am real pissed at that fool.

L
Sun, July 19, 2009 - 4:45 PM
suffering
Yeah, I'll be back when I am back, like life, this trip doesnt come with a return ticket.

Maybe I see you in September October or whatever...

We say our goodbyes when we have them... experiences like this impress upon us the fragile nature of our existences and encourages more awareness.

When was the last time we saw each other Foss? I remember the last with Howler, must have been a particular workless party... he was pretty busy at the time... before that another costume party, or maybe his Halloween party... or it could have been a street meeting. It was so good to have a friend like him in the area, I am sure all would agree. He did so much for so many!

What happened!

L
Wed, July 29, 2009 - 10:13 PM
Foss, I am so sorry for your loss.
Fri, August 7, 2009 - 9:30 PM
what happened?
i dont totally understand what happened to howler

his mental health challenges were a major cause of his death
they were also something he managed as energies to channel love and beauty

there had always been a dark cloud behind the rainbow