And it goes on and on...
My children are my source of youth and sanity. Even when things are stressful to the point of wanting to give up... all I have to do is look at even one of them and remember just how precious living life really is. To know there is nothing better than to live rather than to just exist, priceless.
the weddingTyping this while very sleepy. I am gathered here to day to celebrate the fact that I have found a place where I don't have to make sense. Do I take this page to be my blog spot? I do... and Do I, again, take this page to have and type in CAPS whenever I want? I do. Now, With the power vested in me by my own free will and delerious stupor, I now pronounce this, page of mine and mine. I may sleep outside.
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Got issues with self destruction, want to keep going. I'd like to remove all of the drama from my life and for the most part am. Right now, I am searching for my own meaning in life. Trying so hard to get everyone elses opinions out of there and focus on what is true and real for me. I love my little ones, all three of them and I love a very wonderful man. Wishful thinking is what I am all about and can't wait for those wishes and dreams to become reality. Won't be long now, you know... I'm bangin' on the door of an angel, the end of fear is where we begin. And so... I'm letting go of a lot of fear and coming to grips with the fact that things can only get better. :-)
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I've spent some time away from Tribe. I went over to myspace and met some cool people, as well as staying in touch with one friend from here, and ended up going out to Florida to visit her recently.
Thu, November 13, 2008 - 10:25 PM
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My life was up in the air for a long time. I'm twenty nine now, almost thirty and I kinda just woke up one day a couple months ago and decided that I didn't want to be a crackhead. On Sunday it will have been sixty days since I pretty much re-dedicated my life to the Lord and came to believe t... read more
It has been ages since I was last here. I am so tired now but feel the need to blog. My other place is available for the public now, easier to access.
Sun, October 21, 2007 - 11:15 PM
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In the time passed- I have gone crazy, off the deepend. After that, I woke up and saw some sort of light... not sure what that was. I spent some time in rehab, then some more in a half-way house. I have lived a few places since then, now with my parents. I am really sad about the way my life has turned out. I cry a lot now, feel reall... read more
Emmanuel turned two today. We are preparing for the party now, thought I would take a break and post real quick. Just waiting for a friend to show up... eating corned beef and cabbage 'cause it is also St. Patrick's day. Oh my goodness... I am actually in a good mood and ready to have fun. I am, though, kinda sad because Emmanuel isn't a baby anymore. I miss holding the little ones. Lucky me, my niece and my friend are pregnant, so I'll be able to hold their little babies AND, I'll be a...
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Sat, March 17, 2007 - 3:58 PM
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My daughter is out of school for her first spring break. At the moment, both of my girls are at my mother's house and not ready to come home. I am a mess, missing them like crazy. Things are getting back to normal for the most part in my life. I still think about things from the distant and recent past, but it's getting better I think. It is great to finally respect myself enough to stand up and not take crap from people.
Thu, March 15, 2007 - 1:23 AM
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Another day of WTF? I can't believe that time is going so slowly now. Seems like things are taking forever and then some more time. I am pretty darn lost. Can't get things straight in my head. No I don't feel like anyone is out to get me or harm me in any physical way, but I am so sick and tired of people with control issues. I don't have anyone really to talk to about some of my issues and the person I do talk to seems to have no sympathy. Even though this person is dealing with the ...
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Wed, March 7, 2007 - 9:33 PM
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