What little I say.

My lesson for the week....

   Sun, December 24, 2006 - 11:17 PM
My playa visit this year reminded me of two things out there; surround yourself with those that can help you on your journey, and don't get stuck on what you think is the questions you need answering. This holiday season found me discussing some great concepts with two amazing people here in NC (my college roommate Brandt, and the wonderful Caroleeena). The center stage of the discussions was Gratitude. Caroleena and I were discussing how easy it is to get caught up in wanting more, being selfish, and allowing pride to interfere with our lives. She spoke of how she starts and ends every day with remembering what she is grateful for. In contrast, I try to spend a moment of each evening thinking about what happened that day and how I could do better if that opportunity ever arose again. Her approach sounded neat and it was something I was going to try. But the next day as Brandt and I were speaking the lesson I needed to hear was presented again. We were discussing how difficult it can be to listen to your heart. Both being men, and quite logical scientist at that, we have a difficult time turning off the brain and allowing our hearts to decide which the correct path to walk is (then the brain can kick in and figure out the best way to get there). We both felt that we can turn down the brain, it was more that the heart has rarely gotten the chance to speak, so when it is its turn, it doesn't know how. Then it struck me. The exercise of gratitude was so opposite from my improvement routine, because it was opening up a dialog directly to my heart. This was no small thing, but a huge piece of the puzzle that had probably been kicking me in the ass for a long time.
We went on to discuss the importance of gratitude as it relates to pride. We came to the conclusion that being proud of what you honestly work hard and achieve is in no way bad. It is only when you fail to be grateful for all the events and people that have made it possible for you to achieve this thing that pride becomes hubris and arrogance.
So in this vain I would like for you and so many others that are not here and will never read this to know how immensely grateful I am for the support, encouragement, education, patience, love, and wonderful moments shared along this path that you have afforded me.

With love,
Chad



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Mon, December 25, 2006 - 12:38 AM
16 horsepower of love
it's said that tai chi was created by a man who witnessed a crane try to slay a serpent. the snake moved in bold, potent strikes ( the heart)
and the crane took it's time in a slow, dance like movement ( the brain)
It's when the two come together that a beauty is made.
My point( if there was one) is that a mans heart and brain are always speaking, just at different times, it's when the heart can be methodical, and calculate it's next venture with the aid of the brain that it properly learns to place itself in verse.
i am most likely wronger than the average bear, and beginning to doubt my own thoughts now. So, let me get to the heart of the matter,
i love you to brother, and words really cant properly express the way you and this extended fire family has morphed my fragile, teen mind in a positive and dare i say, uplifting light.
see you new years..
Unsu...
 
Mon, December 25, 2006 - 5:25 AM
You're onto something when you talk about having a direct dialogue with your heart, however, it may be even more awesome if you get to a place where you don't feel the need to turn off your brain but to let the brain and heart work together to help you.

I see a lot of the men in my life discovering the ways in which they were never trained to think (in cooperative, humble, and emotional terms), and it's been incredibly good for all of them. Love love love love love,

C
Mon, December 25, 2006 - 6:46 AM
social and individual anomie
Emile Durkheim (If I remember correctly) saw an imbalance of the heart and mind. Leaning towards a mechanistic way of seeing the world rather than a wholistic way. Causing unhappiness and the bad kind of emptiness and then anomie where we engage in damaging acts to ourselves and others. I kind of remember this stuff, its been quite some time since Ive been able to read a book though.

Nice movie is Mind Walk, talks about much of the same thing.
Happy Holidays!
Mon, December 25, 2006 - 6:59 AM
I've been writing morning pages when I first get up in the morning that consist of:
1. dream memories
2. 10 things I'm grateful for from the day before
3. 1-2 pages stream of consciousness writing

I am really enjoying these pages and the gratitude part is a really interesting exercise. I feel like taking the time to be grateful for what was in my life yesterday sets me up to feel gratitude for all that will happen to me today.
Mon, December 25, 2006 - 12:05 PM
Dearest Chad,
I just wanna say that I am grateful to have you as my friend. All the work and effort you do for the community has been phenomenal. And thank you for the appreciation in return.

Yes, it is true that we can easily be corrupted by pride and vanity. I have seen that happen to people. My own corruption has been my work. I haven't had the time to write down what I am grateful for. I've been writing things that happen in that one moment and nothing more. Now, work has consumed me and people has consumed me to a point that I barely write anymore. I eventually have to let go and breathe more. What you just wrote really helped me to realize something and I feel that there is some added proof and revelation on my take of (things) these past few months.

I really won't go into any more details than that. But I also realize that I am not the only one seeing problems developing that seems to poison me. I even had a scary dream about this. *sighs* Enough ranting. Thank you for sharing your thoughts and inspirations. Hope to see you soon.
Your friend always,
FireBird
Tue, December 26, 2006 - 12:35 AM
Gratitude is the memory of the heart.
What a pleasant surprise this was! Thank you Chad. I am so grateful for you too. You are a kind, wise, intelligent and giving teacher, friend, mentor and inspiration. I don't have enough words to express my gratitude for you.

The French have a proverb: "Gratitude is the memory of the heart." Gratitude feeds our spirit but it does so much more than that. We humans are made up of a physical self, a mental or thinking self, an emotional self and a spiritual self. Gratitude feeds the spiritual self but it also comforts and encourages the emotional self, rewards the thinking self and, when we are grateful for our lives and our bodies, encourages us to care for the physical self.

Practicing gratitude helps us get the most out of our lives. It helps us appreciate our blessings and our accomplishments and this gives us the encouragement we need to strive for new accomplishments, to recognize new blessings and even the blessings behind our blessings. It contributes to a more benevolent view of the world -- and that makes us work to make the world a better place. Gratitude makes the world a better place.

Gratitude unlocks the fullness of our lives. It turns what we have into more than enough. It morphs denial into acceptance. It brings clarity to confusion and order to chaos. It stills the mind. It turns our problems into gifts -- our painful blessings, the ones we would never choose if we had a choice and yet, when the universe hoists them upon us, the ones we learn so much from. Gratitude even turns our failures into successes, our mistakes into our portals of self discovery.

Thank you for helping me remember that too Chad. Many blessings to you and yours. Walk in peace my friend,
Caroleeena

Thu, December 28, 2006 - 8:57 AM
Learn the difference between wants and needs.

Avoid giving someone something that they want the most, for it is the thing that will hurt them the most in life.

Can you provide your own wants and needs without being burned by the resulting pride?

Therein lies the balance.
Wed, February 28, 2007 - 5:29 AM
And you know Caroleeena...small world - she took me to my first burner-esque festival. She (whether she knows it or not) changed my life, and started the chain of events that eventually led me you your doorstep, Chad.

And then, reading your post, something struck me. If, in terms of poi ('cause isn't everything to me) you think of mind as tech and heart as flow (not such a huge leap, right? I mean, it's where you stop thinking and start feeling), it's surprising to me that the man who actually *teaches* flow finds expanding the idea a challenge.

Also, I would like to especially point out that this post follows the way of Chad. Look at the pattern...the pattern...the pattern...