Ok so last year during my yearly physical they found a very small lump on my right testicle... they determined that it was probley nothing and said to me if it feels like it is getting bigger or have any pain then let us know... so i kept track of it while i was on deployment i noticed it was a little bigger so i went to the doc he said it is not a major change.... don't worry about it it is nothing... yesterday i had to go to the doctor for fucking up a nerve in my elbow... while i was there i figured kill 2 birds with one stone and got my physical out of the way. Well the doctor gave me that like :: UH OH:: look and the " Hummm that is interesting"... so when you hear that from your doctor you start freaking out and going through the that is never good thoughts..... so then i asked whats up and he said that it has actually grown a consider amount from last year... from like () that big to like ( ) big.... i mean i noticed it felt a little bit bigger but i did not think it actually got that much bigger... every time i asked one of the doctors while on deployment they said either not to worry about it now or wait till i get back to the states there is nothing they can do about it out there.... so i waited and waited and got back the USA and then waited and finaly i guess it got to a size they thought was big enough to worry about... so now they have me scedualed for an ultrasound to check and see what is up and to determent if they want to do a biopsy or not... so naturally i am freaking the fuck out..... i mean it could be nothing or it could be a cyst or it could be cancer.... so now i got all these thoughts running through my head and am freaking out... they are calling me tomorrow to let me know when the appointment is.... :( yeah so yeah :( just thought i would let you all know... i told my family back east now i need to tell the people who are my burner family out here ... I usually never freak out about stuff that i go to the doctor and i mean i have never freaked out about doing some really crazy dumb shit and usually never let people know whats going on ... but this... this scares the shit out of me.... so if i am not acting sorta like my self lately you know why... I am hoping to see everybody at fools in April.... Sorry for sorta making it sound like i am dumping my self out here i am just scared from not know what it could or could not be... anyway i have to get back to working.... well thanks for everybody reading this you are all very spical to me even though i don't call and say it all the time to everybody or i don't say it on here enough.... Thank you and lots of love to all of my San Diego Family, my Stag Camp Family, and my virtual family.