> I’d like to know why you came to choose the system
> you now use to operate in your daily life?

When I was in my 20’s I took the whole hippie doctrine to heart, and spent many years traveling from teacher to teacher, learning what ever I could, looking for some great secret wisdom. I was a silversmith back then; living and traveling in camper van, always rolling in to a new town with my tank near empty, and only change in my pocket. This was the norm for me, and more or less, what I was comfortable with. I always knew, in a few days, or a couple of weeks at worse, I’d sell enough jewelry and be able to leave… if I wanted to.

One warn winter, in Tucson, Arizona, I was introduced to this an elderly woman named Sasha. She wanted me to pay for Qabalah lessons. I objected, telling her, “None of my other teachers asked for money!”

She assured me that if I took her “lessons” I would earn much more money– and I’d easily be able to afford the lessons. I took her up on her challenge… and sure enough… within a couple of weeks, I meet Simon, who agreed to purchase all the jewelry I could produce. And so… twice a week for about a year, I visited with Sasha where she taught me from the book, the Mystical Qabalah by Dion Fortune.

I’ll never forget the last time I saw her. She told me, “Someday you will no longer travel to find new teachers. You will be able to look within and find as many teachers as you want.”

She also said, “There is nothing more for me to teach you.”

At the time, I didn’t understand what she meant by finding teachers within, but the part about having taught me all she could, made me feel really good. It was as though she knew I was leaving before I uttered a word.

So to answer your question. I don’t think I really choose the Qabalah. It choose me.

My love for Swami Vivekananda’s teachings, and all he taught me about Karma and Raja yoga, before I was introduced to Qabalah, has never diminished. But it was the Qabalah that provided me the my first glimpse of that “secret wisdom” that I so diligently sought.

Sure, the Qabalah is many things to many people, but the one thing that distinguishes it from other disciplines, is this skill of being able to look within to find reliable teachers. It took many years, but sure enough, it is, just as Sahsa said, “You will be able to look within and find as many teachers as you want.”

That’s what her lessons were really about. At the time, a lot of what she taught me didn’t make sense. But over the years, slowly all the pieces are fitting together. Now, having lived over 20 years, with these “inner teachers” the mechanics of all this, is always plainly evident. So much so, that it is very easy for me to teach to others. It’s all about telepathy. And… this blog is my attempt to reach out and offer others… and offer them the same lessons I received… when I was young.

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Paul Zozem
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