I am absolutely convinced this week that life's intention for me is to put me through the most grueling and enduring tests imaginable and see what it takes to make me crack! I have dealt with adversity and bounced back from the worst things for the majority of my adult life, but there comes a time when enough is enough already!! All the problems and things thrown at me has caused me to feel lost, unsure of what direction my life is going. I feel as if I no longer even know what direction I 'want' it to go or what I want out of anything I immerse myself in. The only thing I am certain of wanting is happiness for myself and my child...which should be enough, but for some reason I feel unsure of how to make that happen. I feel as if wanting anything else is selfish of me....Has anyone else ever felt this way, and how the hell do you get out of the rut? Am I even making any damn sense? lol