INLAND EMPIRE BDSM & LEATHER EVENTS

Dear Friends,

i put this list together after meeting some wonderful people at Sampler in October, who live in the Inland Empire and
wanted to know where to go, what to do, how to meet folks, etc. After looking for one central place where all this info
resided, i quickly found out that there is no such place and that the info was scattered over several yahoo groups. i do
need to mention however that nearly 60% of the events below were listed on
groups.yahoo.com/group/Socalsmevents

Since i needed to compile the info anyway, i thought ... why not share it? But where to put it? Sadly, several yahoo
groups do not allow members to create files, so i decided to use my free blog here on tribe.net. In addition to
monthly events in the Inland Empire, i also added MAJOR ANNUAL EVENTS in the cities of Los Angeles, San Diego
and Phoenix, as all are within only a 4 hour drive.

i hope this page helps those who are looking to connect with other bdsm & leather folk in the Inland Empire (ie: Apple
Valley, Banning, Barstow, Coachella, Desert Hot Springs, Fontana, Hemet, Hesperia, Indio, Moreno Valley, Ontario,
Palm Springs, Riverside, San Bernardino, Temecula, Upland, etc)

In loving service,

slavegirl Debbie
PR Director, Southwest Leather Conference
Co-Chair, OCLA Sampler 2006
Member, People of Leather Among You L.A.

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BDSM & LEATHER EVENTS IN THE INLAND EMPIRE
And annual events within 3 hours drive ...

*** Event may not be in existance anymore. Please check before going.
** Mostly het event
* Mostly gay leather event
( ) Comments in parenthesis are my own personal comments. All other descriptions come from each
organization's website or press release.

PERSONAL NOTE: Some people move comfortably between the het and gay communities, others have no
interest in doing such. The distinction is there for informational purposes only.

Also, around 60% of the following events be verified by looking them up in a search on:


1) MONTHLY EVENTS

1st Friday 10PM-1AM
*PSLOD BEVERAGE BENEFIT BUST
The Tool Shed
600 E. Sunny Dunes Road
Palm Springs 92264
www.pslod.com


1st Saturday 5:00 pm
**High Desert D/s BDSM Social
Quigleys
2841 Lenwood Road
Barstow 92311
RSVP TO: ladytitan7@aol.com OR whips4me@msn.com
More info at: groups.yahoo.com/group/HighDesertDs

1st Sunday
"The Gathering" Social
Rancho Cucamonga, CA
For more info: thegathering-socal.com
On hiatus until 2007. Lost its meeting space in Summer 2006. Has monthly socials and quarterly
play parties



1st Sunday 3:30-5:30 PM
<***Inner Circle Social>
For more information: groups.yahoo.com/group/Inn...ssage/6993
As of 11-5-06, this group and social has been discontinued


2nd Saturday 3-5 PM
**Paddlers Munch
Roadhouse Grill
3838 Tyler St
Riverside Ca 92503
Hosted by blu and Saber
RSVP TO: sexyeyesofblue4u@aol.com
More info: paddlers_socal@googlegroups.com


3rd Sunday 1-4 pm
**PAC Discussion Group
Inland Empire: Exact location sent on RSVP
Hosted by: Joe and Ms Jean
ja338@msn.com
More info: groups.yahoo.com/group/phoenixaltcom


4th Saturday
**Rose Garden Munch
The Rose Garden
(May not be happening anymore. Website is down)
Hosted by Jim and Jeane
www.therosegarden.org
For more info: groups.yahoo.com/group/munch


4th or 5th Saturday
**So Cal Formal D/s Society Social & Munch
Bob's Big Boy
12728 Main St
Hesperia, CA 92345
More info at: groups.yahoo.com/group/SoC...Ds_Society


4th Sunday
**PAC Munch
BJ's Brewhouse
1045 Harriman Pl
San Bernardino, CA 92408
RSVP TO: tedbii @ yahoo.com
More info: groups.yahoo.com/group/phoenixaltcom


3RD Weekend
**BDSM Classes & Workshops
Tandy Leather Factory
3545 E Highland Ave Ste D,
Highland, CA 92346
Irishdrgn@
David
909-425-0596
www.tandyleather.com/locations.asp
More info: groups.yahoo.com/group/SoCalSMEvents


2) ANNUAL EVENTS (Includes dates in 2007.Dates to be updated quarterly)

January 19-21, 2007
Southwest Leather Conference
Phoenix Crowne Plaza Metrocenter Hotel in Phoenix
www.southwestleather.org
Known as "The Leather Gathering of Heart & Spirit" for its emphasis on the interpersonal and spiritual dynamics
of D/s relationships and SM practices, SWLC provides attendees with opportunities for a profoundly deep experience
of BDSM and provides a vehicle for individuals of ALL genders and orientations to gather and celebrate the leather
tribe of which we are all a part. (A very special weekend).


March 28-April 1, 2007
* L.A.Leather Weekend
939 Figueroa @ Olympic
Downtown LA nearStaples Center
www.mrlaleather.com
(At a very sexy Morrocan Themed hotel. Lots of events, featuring the Mr. L.A. Leather Contest, Southland Honors,
4 Lifestyle Seminars and L.A. Streetfest. A really fun weekend!! Pre-events include Leather Roller Skating Night,
Avatar Parking Lot Party, Roast & Toast of current Mr LA Leather. Except for the Roller Skating Night, mostly gay
but good sprinkling of hets.)


June 15-17, 2007
DESIRE “Leatherwomen Unleashed”
www.desireleatherwomen.com
A fun and wild weekend for women only, Desire gathers some of the top women presenters from around the country
who provide exciting workshops and come to Desire to play. The event offers 1-on-1 sessions, providing participants
with an opportunity to learn new and advanced skills from presenters who really want to share their knowledge and
expertise. It's a special opportunity for a personal learning experience.

June 15-17, 2007
**Camp Spanky (Clothing Optional Campout & Play Party)
Lake Elsinore, CA
Location given with RSVP
RSVP TO: Marsha at <luv2nuzzle@yahoo.com>
This is Southern California's ONLY private kinky campground, a place where we can "kink" outdoors to our hearts'
content! This rustic, no-frills camp-out is on private property right on the banks of Lake Elsinore. Bring your toy bag,
your tent, lots of sunscreen, and join us in all the fun, frolic, and celebration of our various kinky lifestyles. Cost is
$20 per person <for just the day or the whole weekend>.


Saturday June 24, 2007
Southern California Leather Gathering
Whittier Narrows Recreation Area
Group Picnic Area 1
South El Monte, CA 91733
www.sclg.org
SCLG is an outdoor gathering open to ALL leather/BDSM-related groups, organizations, businesses, individuals,
etc., and is inclusive of ALL gender and sexual orientations! The event provides an opportunity for Leatherfolk &
BDSMer's to interact in a relaxed atmosphere and have fun while raising awareness about the large number and
diversity of leather/bdsm groups that exist in and around Southern California. Groups are welcome and encouraged
to bring their club colors/banners and to provide literature. Bring your own picnic lunch. This is a “BYOM” <Bring Your
Own Meat> BBQ: you bring the meat and we BBQ it for you! Games and prizes! Shading <tents, sun shelters> are
encouraged.


August
**Bondage in the Branches
(ClothingOptional Campout)
Defunkt.


August 24-26, 2007
**Camp Spanky (Clothing Optional Campout & Play Party)
Lake Elsinore, CA
Location given with RSVP
RSVP TO: Marsha at <luv2nuzzle@yahoo.com>
This is Southern California's ONLY private kinky campground, a place where we can "kink" outdoors to our hearts'
content! This rustic, no-frills camp-out is on private property right on the banks of Lake Elsinore. Bring your toy bag,
your tent, lots of sunscreen, and join us in all the fun, frolic, and celebration of our various kinky lifestyles. Cost is
$20 per person <for just the day or the whole weekend>.



August 30-Sept 3, 2007 (Labor Day Weekend)
*West Coast Rubber Weekend
Palm Springs, CA
www.westcoastrubber.com
West Coast Rubber is about rubber and gear and all of the flavors and variations that crank up the horny factor of
guys into rubber. Latex, hazmat, pvc, spandex, lycra, superhero, dive - all the really, really good stuff is happening
at WCR. The 4-day event kicked off the first time over the Labor Day weekend in 2005. It's been a different kind
of event from the very beginning. Yeah, there are some hot bar events but mostly the weekend is about hanging
out in gear, in the pool or in the slime pit, at dinner or at the play party. A weekend of gear and guys in to gear.
The play possibilities alone are impressive! (The event is attended almost exclusively by gay leathermen and a
few events are closed to women).


October 19-21, 2007
OCLA Sampler
At a Clothing Optional Resort
www.ocla.org
Come Play, Explore & Get Naked in the Desert! Taking place at a clothing-optional resort in Palm Springs, Sampler
is a weekend event for experts and novices alike and is the originator of the "1-on-1" sessions concept. Instead of
attending group workshops all weekend (we do have a few though!), attendees 'sample' BDSM related play and
concepts 1-on-1 with noted authorities in BDSM & Leather. Sampler draws people of all gender identities and
sexual orientations and is kept small (under 90 registrants) to allow each attendee the unique opportunity for a
minimum of two 1-on-1 sessions with our recognized experts. Whether you want to advance your skill levels
beyond where they are, try new kinks as a Top or bottom, or pick the brain of (or experience an SM session with!)
a noted authority in S/M or Leather, Sampler is for you! (A fun relaxed weekend. Good mix of het/gay. Offers a beautiful
sense of community).


Friday October 26, 2007
***High Desert D/s Halloween Bash
High Noon Saloon
30386 Old Hwy 58
Barstow, CA
(760) 256-8405
ladytitan7@aol.com
Features a band, raffle prizes, drink specials & a costume contest with a $50 prize for 1st place.... Music
and dancing all night long...(This is not a private event. It's a vanilla venue with vanilla folk there too).


November 8-11, 2007
*Palm Springs Leather Pride Weekend
Most events at a hotel in PS and a few at The Barrracks & The Toolshed
www.pslod.com
(THE Leather event of Palm Springs) The 2006 event was held at The Villa Resort. The weekend features the
"Mr. Palm Springs Leather Contest," seminars/workshops, dance, bbq/ppol party and vendor market.


Sunday November 15, 2007 from 12-8 PM
Bizarre Bazaar
Threshold Society
www.threshold.org
The Historic Mayflower Ballroom
234 S Hindry Ave
Inglewood 90301 www.bizarrebazaar.org
Threshold presents Bizarre Bazaar, one of the largest annual Leather/Fetish events in Southern California. Artisans
and vendors from all over North America show you the latest in bondage equipment, whips, floggers, latex, rubber,
vinyl, shoes, corsets, adult toys, videos, magazines . . . and LOTS and LOTS of LEATHER! (This is the perfect place
to buy all those kinky holiday gifts for the one(s) you love).


Saturday December 2, 2007
**Winter HO'liday Party & Toys for Tots toy drive
A private Dungeon in Moreno Valley, CA
Marsha
luv2nuzzle@...


3) LEATHER / BDSM "TENTS" AT PRIDE FESTIVALS IN SO CAL

May 19-20, 2007
Long Beach Leather Expo at Long Beach Pride Festival
Shoreline Drive
Between Pine St. & Linden Ave.
Long Beach, CA, 90802
Workshops and demos. Mr Long Beach Leather Contest at Pistons on Saturday Night.
For more info: www.longbeachleather.org


June 9-10, 2007
Erotic City at The L.A. Pride Festival
715 N San Vicente Blvd
West Hollywood, CA 90069-5020
Erotic City is a safe, sane, and supportive adult- oriented ‘village’ in which various communities gather to
celebrate the life energy of that which is EROTIC. It is a place where we invite you to explore leather, fetish,
kink and erotica. Features workshops, demos, a ton of vendors and the Mr. Christopher Street Leather Contest.
Erotic City is where lesbian, gay, bisexual, transexual and pansexual folks come together to play, learn and enjoy
each other’s take on everything NOT vanilla.


July 27-29, 2007
The Leather Realm Tent at San Diego Pride
Marston Point in Balboa Park
at 6th & Laurel St.
San Diego, CA
www.theleatherrealm.com/
sandiegopride.org/5/Festival.htm
The Leather Realm takes place during San Diego's LGBT Pride celebration, where there are demonstrations,
workshops, and personal outreach by clubs and community members, serveing to educate and entertain
the general public and players alike. It encompasses an open-air area more than 4,000 square feet in size, and
sited prominently on the Pride Festival grounds.

4) INLAND EMPIRE LINKS

HET/PANSEXUAL BDSM GROUPS

thegathering-socal.com (On hiatus until 2007)
groups.yahoo.com/group/highdesertds
groups.yahoo.com/group/innercirclesocal
groups.yahoo.com/group/PhoenixAltCom
groups.yahoo.com/group/SoC...Ds_Society
groups.yahoo.com/group/munch

PRIMARILY GAY MALE ORGANIZATIONS
www.pslod.com
www.n2maximus.com
www.psbol.com

RETAIL
www.eatleather.com (Desert Hot Springs)
www.gearleather.com/index.html
www.tuffstuffleather.com
www.jimsupport.com
ww.pspiercing.com

LEATHER BARS
www.TheBarracksBar.com
www.toolshed-ps.com

If you have any updates, edits, changes or additions, please send them to slavegirl.debbie@gmail.com
Wed, November 15, 2006 - 3:30 AM — permalink - 1 comments - add a comment

growing and learning ... and finding more joy at His feet

my leather weekend in Charlotte
Together In Leather 2006
www.togetherinleather.org

And here i find myself once again
at yet another leather conference.
i've never been to Charlotte and yet
i feel so much at home.
i'm amongst a sea of leatherfolk again
most of whom ive never seen before
but they're tribe. So i know them...

Also here is my swlc family
swirling all around me.
It's been since August since ive seen these
Masters and slaves last and what a joy it is
to be amongst them again.

Also here is MS and sr and for them --
i've just got no words right now.
i'm still floating.

i choose the workshops to attend --
and most of them were Sir's.

And of course what comes up for me this weekend?
Not being able to remain in protocol.
The mind's chatter. 'The stillness' being gone.

i SO want to be focused, centered and calm.
i so want to make Him proud of me.
He has given me a gift and i want Him to see
that i cherish it -- that i dont squander away
opportunities to use it.
But i freeze. i dont know when and how.
Presenting in private is a breeze. Or in L.A.
But out here? i dont want to bother Him
i dont want to be obtrusive.

i come to Him and again He helps me
go deeper and deeper and deeper
i am disconnected from Him.
i am disconnected from God.

i need to find my center.
The quiet. The nothing.
It's from here the peace is born.
From here the bliss is alive.
From here -- service comes from peace.

And then he sees me
and kindly offers his help.
Strange -- i feel the two of them
SO connected. Two as one.
i'm really feeling this now.
It's so completely beautiful.
Here i am in my own despair
and i am totally aware
of their connection with each other...

And now -- he begins to takes me deeper
Disconnected from God.
Go deeper. What's there?
Fear -- that He will never find me.
Feel the fullness of that. What comes up?
Sadness and utter lonliness.
Feel it -- and fall through all the way through it.
i am sobbing uncontrollably now.
i dont want to accept that i wont find Master
(or that He wont find me)
Will the One who is to Master me
ever find me?
Crying and crying ....
What comes next?
Peace? am i feeling peace?
Look into his eyes when i am ready
and reveal what is there ...
The tears are gone and
what's left is joy, acceptance and peace.
Wow. Full circle...

===============

Much later in the weekend
i realize that remaining in nothingness
is the key to remaining at His feet
and connected to Him.
Its really quite simple.
Take four slow deep breaths. Quiet the mind.
Go to the nothing.
Then imagine being at His feet.
..and act AS IF.

If i were His slave, i'd never dream of
leaving for the night w/out presenting to Him.
Never.
So it matters not how obtrusive it seems to me.
It is HIS decision. HE owns it.
So stop the mind chatter --
and remain "at His feet."

When i am there?
Physically or mentally?
Utter bliss. Heaven. Perfection.
Tears come to my eyes again
just thinking about it.

==========================

At one point, an opportunity for service
came so unexpectedly.
And God, the sweetness of it enveloped me.
i see the grace, love and devotion
with which he serves his Master.
And helping him i am serving him AND Him.
This just feels so right.
i'm so at peace.
It's almost eery.
Like i've been here before.
But i havent. i am stumped...

i'm still floating
And its 48 hours later.

Several times since Sunday Eve
i've broken out in tears.
From joy, pure joy
just at the memory of
being at His feet.

Yet now -- it goes beyond just Him.
His family are my friends
and yet one is so much more.

Every time i am in His presence
There is joy
Every time i am in their presence
There is bliss.

i am SO blessed to know Him
So very blessed that He is in my life
i am so blessed to have found Him
And yet -- He says i am not meant to be His.

Does He know i would do ANYTHING
He asked of me? ANYTHING?
Does He know i would give Him
ANYTHING? EVERYTHING?

i am sure He does --
But it is not meant to be.
But i thank God that He has seen within me
the potential.
That He has found me worthy of His time.
That He has allowed me this glimpse into bliss
and a taste of what is to come with Master.

===========================

When i saw Him late Sunday Night
i walked towards Him saying under my breath
"Thank God! Thank You God!" over and over
for i was overcome with joy
that i was able to present
after having not earlier in the day.

i literally FELL to my knees before Him.
Forehead to thigh.
Conversation flowed.
It was not a silent moment
But i was home.
i was home.

At His feet
i am home.
Tue, October 25, 2005 - 3:57 PM — permalink - 1 comments - add a comment

The joy at His feet ... again

Joy, happiness and heart a~flutter!
In His presence again.
Talk and conversation never ending
As the sharing, learning and laughter
ebbs and flows.

Took a chance on fabulous wine -- nice surprise!
1998 Baden Muller-Thurgau is yumm!
Sir is Yumm!!

i love His words, His wisdom, His wit.
i love His heart, His face, His hands
His voice.

The epitome of Woof! is Sir.

i feel giddy and giggly and wet and surrendered
and so much a slave in His presence.
So happy and content.
so alive. so complete.
i belong here, in His presence.

Protocol comes natural now.
No more jitters and discomfort.
i am so very honored by this privilege
and so very blessed.

Hours pass in conversation and suddenly it hits me.
Tears flow and out of me comes,
"Sir .. the way i feel has not changed.
i SO want to be a part of Your world."

"you ARE a part of my world," He says,
"When you are here and even when you are not."

What does He mean?
It cant be that i am with Him --
how can He possibly be conscious of me
when i am not there?
He is too busy to give me a second thought.
Or does He mean that He knows
that He is with me, almost always,
that i am 'at His feet' almost all the time now?
i must ask Him this another time....

Now the tears overflow.
Asking permission to curl up at His feet.
Yes, of course it would please Him...
Crawling on the floor now and
curling up at His feet.
Holding on tight to His leg and boot
i don't want to let go.
His other boot placed firmly on my back.
"So sweet," He says,
as He says when i am like this at His feet.
He knows! He understands!
He feels the same pure sweetness that i feel
in those moments.

OMG,
The moment is such utter beauty
there at His feet
i begin to cry once again.
"Sir, here it is again. This moment is so perfect."
"Every moment is perfect," He responds.

Yes, every moment is as it should be.
But not every moment feels this beautiful
this heavenly this at peace.
i fall into that and cry harder.
"Yes," He says, "Let it go."
And i do -- sobbing like a baby
there, curled up at His feet.
Calming now. Time passes.

with a hoarse voice comes,
"i dont know why i continue
to be so attracted to Your energy"
He says, "perhaps you should explore this further, slavegirl."

slavegirl.
When He calls me that, i melt.

Much time passes. i dont want to get up.
i cant get up. i am floating - hard.
Time passes. It is time to rise.
i do and He is there with kleenex (lol).

i blow my nose like a good little girl.
i present -- formally - and pause.
Again He says, "So sweet."
And i say the words i have learned to say
and so love saying to Him, to Sir.
"Sir, would it please You for this slave
to remain in service Sir?"
"Yes slavegirl, and we are all the better for it."

What an honor to hear this from Him,
this particular Master, this particular Man.
Somehow it would not feel as powerful
coming from Anyone else.

After a moment i rise. i almost fall.
i am dizzy and in subspace still.
A long firm hug. i am stumbling on my feet.
Overwhelmed i am.
A long hug. A walk to the door.
Sitting in my car to wake up
for the drive home.

It hits me.
i am not in love with this Man.
i am not infatuated with this Man.
How then can i be so overwhelmed by this Man?
By His words, His life, His face, His voice?
How can i be so overwhelmed
by this hot, sweet, powerful, wise, Gay Leather Master?

my feelings for Him ...
the way i feel in His presence
It's so powerful.
He overwhelms me.

i so want to serve Him.
i so want to be a part of His world.
i so want to be at His feet.

Wow.

<<Attached is the Chinese symbol for Master and slave. i am not His slave. But He is Master and i am slave. And in His presence i feel like i am His slave.>>
Sat, September 17, 2005 - 12:46 AM — permalink - 1 comments - add a comment

Extremes

It was only five days ago that i got blasted/put down again. They dont believe my pure intention. They dont see my slave heart. They have no idea the joy i find in service. All they see is a girl waving her arms saying "look at me!" And nothing could be further from the truth

It hurt so bad at first. It angered me too. But it's five days later and i can see behind me clearly. i seem to piss people off with what i do online. With my event posts. i have an unwanted talent for ruffling feathers. But all im doing is dissemination of information. What's so awful about that? i'm a PR Pro. i've been for 20 years. Why should i not do in the community what i do for a living?

Sure, i make mistakes. online. i sometimes forget to 'ask permission' to post. Protocol comes naturally to me in person,
in real life. Online? i make a mistake every now and then. But these faux pas are treated as federal crimes.

All i'm doing is posting events for the organizations i volunteer for. The groups i am serving. How is that waving my arms? All this drama caused by posting events.

And lets talk about in person. Some people in the past have also thought my public play was about gaining attention. i'm a fucking pain piggie and i wont apologize for it. i love public play and i wont apologize for that either. i love D/s. i love BDSM. i flyand soar from heavy play and i wont apologize for it. i'm a fucking pervert and well, you get the drill. i'm comfortable naked and half naked. i'm in a dungeon for god's sake! How am i 'onstage' and others arent? i am a happy joyful person. i am a social butterfly. i love people. i love introducing people! i'm a people person. i am happy!!!!!

It was only two years ago that i was bed~ridden. A vitual invalid. After finding out i had Lupus and not MS (thank God!) i made my way back to health. It was NOT an easy road. The most difficult thing i ever had to overcome? Losing my job, the love of my life, my personality, my strength, my joy. It was all gone in one fell swoop.

i'm back now and feeling better than ever. i won't move back into the shadows. i wont apologize for loving life. for living!!

Go away? Not volunteer? Not serve ~ in private or in public? Why should i?

Shaking my head at my nay-sayers. Inredulous. Confused. What part do i have in this? i admit i have made some mistakes and that i CAN be more careful. But how much am i to second guess myself? Every word before i speak it? Take hours or days to decide if i should post an event? NO. i wont become obssessive compulsive. Been there, done that.

Should i stop serving because a handful of people dont approve? Should i be always asking myself if how i am serving is too public? Too obvious? No. i wont be self-conscious. Should i really be letting all these people and their comments get to me? No. But sometimes its hard. Check this out:

They say i have no right to a name or reputation. That i havent earned the right to one. That i havent earned the right to serve !! They say i am only out there to become popular. What a joke. Who are these people? They stay in their own little clubs. i dont see them out anywhere. i dont see then volunteering anywhere. Of course they dont know who i am.

If you dont like my service, then take my place. The community needs all the volunteers it can get! Step up to the plate? Nope. They love to criticize me, but why arent THEY helping? Serving?

Shaking my head.

And then came 2nite. i was able to be of service five times ... in one night ! i feel so blessed that i was able to help. Two people sought me out to ask my advice about life/path issues. Deep issues. i was so very honored they trusted me, came to me. And thank You God for allowing me to find the words to help, to comfort.

i also gave two tours. And later i was mistaken for a Domme - again :> i sat down with a new switch and a new submissive and gently explained that many slaves have a "dominant" air. a confidence. But we are not "Dominants." i shared that i had to learn never to assume. i shared that i appreciated their good manners and willingness to sit with me and talk and not shove me away because i was not a Domme. And i thanked them for taking the time to allow me to help, to allowing me the opportunity to serve.

i am feeling so very blessed right now. A part of me wants to tell my nay-sayers to kiss my ass. But i wont. Their opinions dont really matter anyway. i know what is in my heart. i know why i serve. my heart and intentions are pure. Sure i make mistakes. Everyone does. Seems easy for me to make no big deal of it ... but the nay sayers i seem to attract just wont give me a break. But so what? How do their opinions of me make any real difference? i find great joy and fulfillment in service. i thank God i am able to help. To make a difference.

Thank You God and Thank You Universe !!
girl debbie
Sat, July 16, 2005 - 1:05 AM — permalink - 4 comments - add a comment

in His presence

in His presence i am naked even when fully clothed
in His presence i am slave and girl
in His presence i feel so alive

He has allowed me to follow His family protocol~
to be able to present to Him is utter bliss
and i am blessed and honored by this awesome privilege
He is right when He said it would ground me
i feel right there in slave space
and it feels so peaceful; so right.

He sees right through me
He sees into my soul
i cannot hide a thing from Him

In His presence i feel His Dominance
shoot right through me
i cannot meet His gaze
i must look away

His wisdom is all encompassing
He guides me to the answers
He brings out the best in me

i am honored that He takes time with me
i am blessed by His influence in my life.
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a primitive letting go ritual

The following is a sharing of my experience at P.L.A.Y. (People of Leather Among You) on Feb 10, 2004. i was asked to share this ritual and pass it on .... by the Man Who lead it ... Master Steve of Butchmanns, assisted by His slave kirk.

A PRIMITIVE RITUAL: LETTING GO RITUAL

The point of this ritual is to help us let go of grief, pain, sadness, guilt and other negative "stuff" we hold deep inside. But as this is an ancient ritual, we needed to become a "tribe" first. There are many ways to do this ... and one is through singing. And so, we were taught a song and sang it in unision and thus we became a tribe.

The ritual itself calls for a sacrifice, a vessel: one person to voluntarily take a needle for each person who needs to let go of their stuff to the universe. Following is a recounting of this ritual in a prose/poetic style.

It is my hope that a spark of interest may reach Y/you and that this experience will be duplicated amongst many more of us in the community.

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A PRIMITIVE RITUAL: LETTING GO RITUAL

The smell of sage all around, setting the sacred space. The singing began, connecting the tribe....those of us now to those who have passed .... all voices raised and so we began ...

BREATHS (by Sweet Honey and the Rock)

Listen more often to things than to beings.
Listen more often to things than to beings.
Tis the Ancestors' breath when the fire's voice is heard.
Tis the Ancestors' breath in the voice of the waters.
Ah, woosh. Ah, woosh.

Those who have died have never, never left.
The dead have a pact with the living.
They are in the mother's breast,
They are in the wailing child.
They are with us in the home,
They are with us in the crowd.
The dead have a pact with the living.

Listen more often to things than to beings.
Listen more often to things than to beings.
Tis the Ancestors' breath when the fire's voice is heard.
Tis the Ancestors' breath in the voice of the waters.
Ah, woosh. Ah, woosh. Ah, woosh.

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Now it was time to choose a sacrifice. The Master asked who felt the want, the need to serve as a sacrifice this night. i raised my hand slowly. Something was calling to me. i felt my head bow and raised my hand high. i looked up and saw Master and slave whispering. They were looking at me. Could it be? Would i be chosen for this honor?

slave approached me, placed His hand on my chest. he asked "are you willing?" i could only answer "yes."

i was thus chosen as the sacrifice. i felt my heart beating as i was lead to the front. i knew this was right ... but it also was new. i'm a baby at piercing but this had to come through.

The Master explained what was going to take place. A ritual releasing of grief, sadness and pain. i would take into my body the bad stuff of others, by hearing their words and being pierced by a needle. The pain i would feel and with the breath i would let out, the pain of the person would go up and out, into the universe.
i would be the vessel for this purpose.

the slave handed me a sari to tie around my waist. i took off my clothes, wrapped up with breasts bared, i then stood and waited. i was led to a table where i was then laid down. a calm came over me that was strange and yet right. i practiced deep breathing and cleared my mind.

The lights were then dimmed and the drumming began. A primal drumming, native and ancient. Laid out on the table, slave stroking my hair, His other slave at my feet, anchoring my soles.

And then another chant began. Lasting the whole ritual. Over and over again:

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POUR THE WATERS

Pour the waters, raise the cup,
Drink your share of wisdom deep.
Strength and love now fill us up
As the Elder ways we keep.

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Drumming and chanting. Drumming and chanting. i was the first to let go. The Master then asks me "What are you willing to let go of?" i was not sure how to firm the words i was feeling. Out of me came, "i want to let go of the difficulty of being judged by others." The Master replied, "May the Universe accept your gift and set you free." And with this, The Master pinched my upper breast and the first needle went through. It hurt just a bit and when i breathed out, i let go of this sadness to the universe.

One by one the people approached me. The Master asked each one, "What are you willing to let go of?" The person would take my hand and look deeply into my eyes. They'd share with me what they wanted so much to part with: sadness, loss, grief, guilt. As each person approached i felt a deep connection and service, like nothing i had ever felt before. i was serving them all by being a vessel for their pain. i felt honored and humbled and more of service than ever before.

And with each sharing, The Master would reply, "May you have truly let it go" and He would pierce my breast once again. With some who approached, i cried as they shared. With others i was strong, smiled sweetly, and said "yes yes" .. listening with my heart. When each person was done, The Master would ask if they were willing to let go, this sharing, this pain to the universe.
And when they said "yes," The Master again pierced my breast.

What was odd ... was that the people i cried the hardest for, the ones whose pain i connected to on the deepest level ... the
pain of the needle was the most harsh. Not coincidental. For it
made me realize the real depth of what was happening. The deeper the pain for them, the more i felt the pain of the needle ... real healing was taking place.

After 20 or more piercings (i didnt keep count) my heart was so full i couldnt go on. i had to let go of more things inside me. i had to keep a clear heart for the rest who would approach me. i asked The Master permission to let go of more. He said yes. i then said,

"i want to free myself of worrying what others think about me. i
want to free myself from the sadness of not having Someone to share this wonderful bdsm life with. i want to free myself from the shame i feel when i make mistakes. i want to free myself from the sadness of rejection."

i was sobbing by the end. The Master said this would be a throat-chakra piercing. And the pain was intense. But lo and behold,
with my breath out, the pain was gone ... from the needle AND from my soul and heart.

When all that had wanted to approached and released, Master
asked all to gather 'round and lay hands on me. He asked everyone, whether they had released prior or not, to
silently let go of the rest of their stuff.

The wave i then felt was overwhelming: hurt, guilt, pain and love all mixed together from everyone else ... was then mixed with the remaining pain inside of my soul. i began to shiver and then to shake. A torrent of tears was about to explode, much like water out of a dam. And so it happened. The tears and cries came out of me as i sobbed uncontrollably, as i took all of our pain ... and let it go ... into the universe.

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This night, this happening and experience, was one of the most beautiful experiences i have ever had. So spiritual. So deep. Never have i been of service to so many in such a deeply
profound way. Thus it was, such an honor.

At the time, i could not remember the words of that four line chant. So deeply i was connecting with each soul that approached, all i could hear was the primal beat of the drums.

In all, i took 42 piercings all around my breasts. i did not know how many it was .. It was The Master who told me later. Knowing " how many needles were in me" was not of importance. What mattered SO much .... was that i was of service to 42 and more souls that night.

i can only imagine how deep, beautiful, meaningful and bonding this ritual would be amongst a group of very close friends ... or even with one's own Master. i only know that this was a life-changing experience for me ... and hopefully so, for many of the souls who were there that night.

In ever-loving service,
girl debbie

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Order of the Ritual

1. Introduction - the modern primitive and racial memory and what we are going to do tonight and why

2. Setting sacred space - incense or sage

3. drumming instructions - follow the beat of the lead drum

4. Piercing "What are you willing to let go of?" "May you have truly let it go" or "May the Universe accept your gift and set you free"

5. Closing - group touch
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of His black leather boots

written by debbie
1/22/04

kneeling before Him
head already in the space
as i kneel down further
drinking up the scent

even as i begin
mewling sounds come from within me
as i cover every inch
of His black leather boots.

head swishing back and forth
as my tongue and lips worship
one hand placed firmly
on the the back of His calf
the other gently surrounding the heel
of His black leather boot

feeling light headed
as i continue
not a task
but a privilege to worship
His black leather boots

i finish with one
only by His signal
as He steps one back
placing His other boot forward
and so i begin again
this joy and honor
to kiss and lick
His black leather boots

round and round my tongue swishes over
softly again my lips kiss gently
over and over
His black leather boots

and again He steps back
and i rise to my knees
and hug His legs.
light*headed i feel
in a soft sweet trance
i feel His hand patting
the top of my head
as if He is saying "what a good girl"
the smile on my face widens
and warmth all around me
and so for now
i am done

until the next time
i am honored
by this privilege
of worshiping
His black leather boots
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my journals

i've kept a journal for over 2 years now. i wouldnt call it a blog, cuz its only been for me. i've decided to go through it and share some of its pages here. i started with the post just before this one. i hope it is enjoyed :)

debbie
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What a wonderful leather night!

Wow. It was a night full of 100 hot leathermen, smiles, celebration and joy. Went to the Mr. Long Beach Leather Contest last night at Piston's Bar and hung out with new friends and old. The place was buzzing with energy!

They also presented certificates to all the nominees of the Southland Honors Awards. i was nominated for "Fundraiser (Individual) of the Year" for the Lair Fire Fundraiser i put on last year. It was such an honor to be among so many people last night who serve our community in so many ways.

There wasnt enough time to let all of us (40+ nominees) make thank you speeches, so i'd like to give kudos here:

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Thank You first and foremost to Kane Sir, Propietor of the Lair, for allowing me to serve. Thank You for the continued time and energy You put into the club that we love and cherish so very much. It is our "home" and truly a community within itself. Thank You for Your dedication Sir!

Thank You to Charlie, Manager of The Gauntlet for having this event as His bar and for being so helpful and gracious.

Thank you to wendy, who i never met before this night and showed up out of nowhere to end up being my assistant for the night.

Thank you to francine, whose playful spirit (and gorgeous rack!) helped sell over $325 in raffle tickets. Thank you to David for donating $1000 to the cause !!

Many thanks to brenda, francine, K.T., Miss J, Le', elizabeth and dianne for their volunteerism during the night.

And finally, thank you to everyone who showed up and supported the Lair Fire Fundraiser. It was so beautiful to see all factions of our bdsm and leather communities gathered together under one roof. Because of all of you, the Lair opened up again and continues to be an important gathering place in our community.

i am honored by all of Y/you.
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