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i'S NOW CALLEDD STEMCELL THEREapy BMT id way out of date they csnclone your own cells for the treatmment thry still have to killl theimunemsystem to makemit work. this will be coming for mtesooon.

i'm out of stanford as of 5:30 PM. for the last month I've had a Foley Catheter, to deal with bladder weakness resulting from my the neuropathology just last night we removed it to test to see if things were back online and functionioning independently. worked for a little bit although it seems that having a tube in your penis for extended periods of time confuses you sence of if you are peeing or not. They warned me that things would get wacky, turns out that it may feel like you're going to go pee. but what is really about to happen is an epic fart with back fire. call the nurse and the laundry!... Then at 3 AM abdominal pain the like I've never felt before. Call the Crisis nurse for an emergency blader scan. find over 1L full of urine hiding out. danger to the body. Reinsert cathiter quickly. I WILL be shooting insolin for the short term till they get the chemo related steroids out of my system. No one ever said anything about diabedies as side effect.















































































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We've past the end of civilization as we know it, it's time to celebrate! Time to grab your survival gear, road warrior out that old leather jacket, and throw some spikes around your neck.



Survivors converge Friday @ 10 pm! @ the Blue Lagoon

My brother and I just had a conversation that turned to the subject of the disintegration of the Gestalt moment. I've been managing a bit of pain lately both in and via body and mind. I now better grasp the futility of expecting the heavy value of of every detail I select for inclusion to be understood with in great depth by everyone else. can you dig it?a

Please be patient with repaet info in this post It'slate and I am done edititing for the night. c my cancer symptoms were back in full force and my treatment was under review. Fevers were High 101.7and were not responding to regular fever reducerrs the skin sores had returned, spreadingsthe first round of chemo was called CHOP and worked like like a charm. eliminated all symptoms twice but it did look like it was going to work a third time I got there on apppt day to get my drugs and they said "no come back on wed." SO I did. The new meeting started poorly and late the first doc not just a messenger. and a poorly informed on at rgat that. he basically told me that the disease was aggressive and I was losing. they had the MRIS and good idea of how rhe ensue the disease through the brain. The next next DOC came in in soon AND was afull AND TALEBTED onchologist and WHO WAS Amuch better INFORMED of thE hopefull what where the the treatment came why it was a good risk how it waould effect me. The upshot I IS THAT im 36 in pretty good enough shapepe sm that the proposws treatment was not simply a re formulation of CHOP. It was the result of highly successfully clinical trial it was a drug protocyocol for teatment of children's imumne systems with dosages reduced to address the needs of an ad adult am with axadifferent a brain and immune function. No guarantee of success but constant monitoring of symptoms and especially Vmy cancer symptoms were back in full force and my treatment was under review. Fevers were High and were not responding to regular treatment the skin sores had returned, the first round round was called CHOP and worked like like a charm. eliminated all symptoms twice but it did look like it was going to work a third time I got there om apppt day to get my drugs and they said "no come back on wed." SO I did. The meeting started poorly amd late the first doc not just a messenger. and a poorly. he basically told me that the disease was aggressive and I was losing. they had the MRIS and good idea of how rhe ensue the disease through the brain. The next next DOC came in This one was a afull onchologist and much better grasp of thr informationand and hopefull what where the the treatment came why it was a good risk how it waould effect me. The upshot Ism that the proposws treatment was not simply a re formulation of CHOP. It was the result of highly sucessfull clinicaltrial it was a drug protocyocol for teatment of children's imumne systems with dosasages reduced ACAto address the needs of an ad adult am with and adifferent a brain and immune hunction. No guarantee of success but constant monitoring of symptoms and especially the neurological ones that were causing so may problems. especially the paralysis and other chemo side effects slight Memory Problems deue tonpainmeds like the pIN KILLERS LIKE the pain killler and antianxiety drugs like Atavavan and memory problems pain killlersing becausy caegivers keeep asking what day it is ant where ai am and aIi am somACetimes wrong.















that were causing so may of problems.

Hey you. how it all going? I'm doing well all things considered. Liam suggested I write.

received my new cathrater today. My Bladdder remains paralized fucking I'll leave it to your imagination of nwhat its like to get athoritorized, I'TS NOT AS BAD AS YOU MGHT THINJNK,



sOME OF THE THINGS CANCER CAN DO FOR YOU

Beeen a while what's the atraight dope? Clubs family, HOME. work 831 5888=1740 calllor come visir!

iN REPREAEBTATION OF MY tCECLLM LYMPHOMA i'M missing things and trying to filll in the gPAS. MORE WORDS, GOING SUREAL, SORRRY,





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