Its been awhile since i have posted a blog here. Perhaps because i just haven't cared to admit or wanted to admit that life is not roses or just a bunch of fun.

I don't know why its not as if anyone is stupid i just wanted i guess to make myself believe that things were ok
i mean the Man i am with has lied to me 2 times crushing my heart and spirit and then tells me He loves me.
He seems to want me to be the center of His universe and in that not wanting to have me have anything else
It hurts. i mean i want to have someone love me but at what cost? My family? My friends? Its not any better than my other relationship i left if this is all i am meant to have. Can't have love without sacrificing everything else

My car is trash after car accident yesterday no bodily harm but with the freakout of having my kids in the car it spooked me and in truth i hate to drive now

With my new haircolor i look like a circus clown but i am told Ohhh it looks great.

It seems lies and bullshit are what my life is meant to be