It's midnight and I'm writing this because there is no one to talk to. The only reason I joined the game was to be able to drum and dress in funny clothes, to perform for others. However, most people in this game could care less about drumming or music and consider it a secondary skill not important enough to rank up there with steel combat or rapier. They don't even consider it more important than arm wrestling or knife throwing. Oh, no, we must get all our stupid meetings and stupid games done and then if there is 1/10 of a second before 11pm where the neighbors won't complain, AND only then can we drum but please play softly because ya know it's late.....

I really don't want to do all that other stuff and would not have sought it out on my own, what I want to do is drum. I am a muscian. And so I think I need to quit this this game which would disappoint my friend (who asked me to join) extremely. If I'm doing this for him and to get to drum out a little bit, then I'm doing it for the wrong reasons. Then I thought maybe I just wanted to be part of a group, but I've learned that I seem actually happier spending time alone and don't need to be with people very much. I'm trying to make this game and people fit me and they don't fit. But here's the catch, I've met someone who is a sweetheart of a guy and actually seems attracted to me too. He's so heavily involved in the game that a relationship with mundane girlfriend probably would not work for him. But again if that's the reason I'm staying involved with the game and I'm not happy, it's wrong.