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A letter to my daughter>> 8-6-06
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Hey pumpkin>> I know you love me! That gives me great strength. Erin loves me very much and is the right person to be here, especially with her medical background. She is studying head and neck cancer and ways to beat this in all of her spare tim...
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The computer Doctor
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"Not good"
Said they would work on it quickly and it took more than 3 weeks to get back. Poor communication as to what was wrong and then a charge of $100+ for soly diagnostic to tell me nothing could be done.
recommendation posted on Thu, July 27, 2006 - 11:51 AM
Well I am back
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It's been a while:
Ok here it goes
1. came back to Alaska
2. Fell in love
3. found out my cancer got loose in my back and lungs
4. went to SFU for radiation and to start treatment with Erbitux
5. Still in love in a major way
6. Looking at g...
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At it again 1/24/06
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Back in SF for tests. Thursday will be a big day. I had a PET-CT yesterday and saw the medical Oncologist. I see the surgeon on Thursday to give me the results. Goodnews means I go home intact. Bad news means They take another piece of me, another...
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For those who never had cancer
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You may get the caring, loving stuff but you are missing the hollow, scared to death, where am I going and how am I getting there. You don't have the everyday in your face struggle to think right to fight from the inside out. to have positive Karm...
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A letter to my daughter>> 8-6-06
(blog entry)
Hey pumpkin>> I know you love me! That gives me great strength. Erin loves me very much and is the right person to be here, especially with her medical background. She is studying head and neck cancer and ways to beat this in all of her spare tim...
read more
The computer Doctor
( services » computer )
"Not good"
Said they would work on it quickly and it took more than 3 weeks to get back. Poor communication as to what was wrong and then a charge of $100+ for soly diagnostic to tell me nothing could be done.
recommendation posted on Thu, July 27, 2006 - 11:51 AM
Well I am back
(blog entry)
It's been a while:
Ok here it goes
1. came back to Alaska
2. Fell in love
3. found out my cancer got loose in my back and lungs
4. went to SFU for radiation and to start treatment with Erbitux
5. Still in love in a major way
6. Looking at g...
read more
At it again 1/24/06
(blog entry)
Back in SF for tests. Thursday will be a big day. I had a PET-CT yesterday and saw the medical Oncologist. I see the surgeon on Thursday to give me the results. Goodnews means I go home intact. Bad news means They take another piece of me, another...
read more
For those who never had cancer
(blog entry)
You may get the caring, loving stuff but you are missing the hollow, scared to death, where am I going and how am I getting there. You don't have the everyday in your face struggle to think right to fight from the inside out. to have positive Karm...
read more
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Take strength and hope from this site. I am a two time cancer survivor. The first time at age twenty nine, all that was required of me was "the fight" at forty three it will be the fight in balance with honesty and wholeness. That is my personal struggle. You and I may give back to the world in so many ways. A smile is worth the time and that effort may build until we are active in changing the world.
I am planning a trip from Prudoe Bay, Alaska to Tierra del Fuego, Argentina next year to raise funds for the Lance Armstrong foundation >>www.LAF.org<< Together we can do this. Together we can make a difference!
HOKA HAY!
So live your life so the fear of death can never enter your heart. Trouble no one about their religion; respect others in their views, and demand that they respect yours. Love your life, perfect your life, beautify all things in your life. Seek to make your life long and of service to your people. Prepare a noble death song for the day when you go over the great divide. Always give a word or sign of salute when meeting or passing a stranger if in a lonely place. SHOW RESPECT TO ALL PEOPLE, BUT GROVEL TO NONE. When you arise in the morning, give thanks for the light, for your life and strength. Give thanks for your food and for the joy of living. If you see no reason for giving thanks, the fault lies in yourself. Touch not the poisonous firewater that makes wise ones turn to fools and robs them of their visions. When your time comes to die, be not like those whose hearts are filled with fear of death, so that when their time comes they weep and pray for a little more time to live their lives over again in a different way. Sing your death song, and die like a hero going home. -TECUMSEH-
Live your life at full throttle. Give love always. Be the hero in your own pain and anguish. Be the hero in your joy of living!
about me
Cancer survivor!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I have been fighting cancer for the last year. This is the second go around for me and much more difficult. I am also more happy than I have been in a long time. Also of note. The teachers in my adult life have almost all been woman. lovers, bosses mentors all woman.
Adventureous, intelligent, intuitive, sensative, tenacious, can't spell, physically fit, LOVE LIFE. I am going through a rough time right now but I'll make it. I am very athletic, have been all my life. I am intense or so I am told. I like people who are honest and don't fear showing their feelings. I wear mine most of the time. I love athletic woman and seem to get along better with woman than most men. I think it's probably because I am emotionally expressive. That's a guess. I have played rugby off and on for about 10-11 years a few different teams in Pa., Alaska and here in SF.I am an outdoorsman and can handle myself well in almost any situation. I used to drink but I proved I could do it so I gave it up. I don't care if others do. I have 3 great kids whom I love. They don't live with me right now but I will be close to them as soon as I am able. Oh yea I am hetro too. I like discussions about all kinds of topics from space expolration to polotics. I can't spell worth a damn but count on my pc to do it for me. No I did not take the time to cut and paste this.....My heart is currently broken but I am working on mending that. It's going to take some time, I know but I am overwriting some of those memories right now. I am always enthusiastic and positive and I mean ALWAYS! Life is a great riddle and I am trying to figure it out. I love it, Yep I LOVE LIFE!!!!! I plan on living until I am old old OLD! It would be very cool to have a loving partner to do that with. I think I am also intuitive. I am trying to change myself in order that I become more capable of giving love. It's an ongoing work. I am honest to the core. If you actually read all this drop me a note and tell me so and thanks for taking the time! I appreciate it.
Tim
Hey pumpkin>> I know you love me! That gives me great strength. Erin loves me very much and is the right person to be here, especially with her medical background. She is studying head and neck cancer and ways to beat this in all of her spare time. Way WAY more than I have. I am focusing on visualizations of killing this stuff, maintaining my weight and doing chemo. I have not gone to Pa. yet. We will eave tomorrow for PA. Stop and See Aunt Mona for a few hours or maybe sleep overnight. We w...
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It's been a while:
Ok here it goes
1. came back to Alaska
2. Fell in love
3. found out my cancer got loose in my back and lungs
4. went to SFU for radiation and to start treatment with Erbitux
5. Still in love in a major way
6. Looking at getting treatment in Chicago at Cancer Centers of America for a comprehensive review of my treatment and new options.
7. PAIN!!!!! I am in pain in my leg most of the time when I am not is when I am asleep or on my stomach for a rest from it.
8. I am...
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Back in SF for tests. Thursday will be a big day. I had a PET-CT yesterday and saw the medical Oncologist. I see the surgeon on Thursday to give me the results. Goodnews means I go home intact. Bad news means They take another piece of me, another biopsy and replan a fight strategy. I am weighing in at a wopping 163lbs. I am off all my steroids now but feel it. More swolllen again. I can feel the narcotics as well. I go to pain management tomorrow but I am out of meds so will not be in good s...
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You may get the caring, loving stuff but you are missing the hollow, scared to death, where am I going and how am I getting there. You don't have the everyday in your face struggle to think right to fight from the inside out. to have positive Karma to change the world NOW! GODDAMN IT! It get's scary and lonely at 2:00 am when the drugs come out of your system. You can't sleep, can't think right and you ache all over and HAVE to keep moving. sitting still is worse than the pain of moving aroun...
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I read them all and just think HARD. They are inspirational to me. I am back in Alaska. Ther negativity is almost over powering. I am afraid it will kill me. Strange to me that it is so hard to let go of relationships even when it comes to this.
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That icy seed won't be planted
in my heart
you run too fast for me to
catch
even your
scent
lost that and
more
in the
breeze as you
blew past
light as the
feather
wet by my tears
on your
pillow
...
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