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Heide

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joined on 07/21/04
last updated 06/13/07
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Nitty Gritty

Age
29
Location
about me
LEAP BEFORE YOU LOOK
by W.H. Auden

The sense of danger must not disappear:
The way is certainly both short and steep,
However gradual it looks from here;
Look if you like, but you will have to leap.

Tough-minded men get mushy in their sleep
And break the by-laws any fool can keep;
It is not the convention but the fear
That has a tendency to disappear.

The worried efforts of the busy heap,
The dirt, the imprecision, and the beer
Produce a few smart wisecracks every year;
Laugh if you can but you will have to leap.

The clothes that are considered right to wear
Will not be either sensible or cheap,
So long as we consent to live like sheep
And never mention those who disappear.

Much can be said for social savoir-faire,
But to rejoice when no one else is there
Is even harder than it is to weep;
No one is watching, but you have to leap.

A solitude ten thousand fathoms deep
Sustains the bed on which we lie, my dear:
Although I love you, you will have to leap;
Our dream of safety has to disappear.
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frida kahlo

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What The Experts Report...

September 20, 2005
I've known this crazy girl for a few years now, and I can think of a few words to best describe her: spontaneous, unpredictable, and bizarre. I'm not sure it's possible to get inside her head unless she allows it. She has a unique way of segwaying conversations that's a cross between funny and confusing. At the Phoenix Fest, I didn't even know she was there. All of a sudden she came out of nowhere (she likes to hide in the dark I think) and grabbed me to go listen to her then bf's set. So she's always thinking for others, and not just humans either. She's a cat lover, just like me! She's just a very chill, sweet person to be around.
August 14, 2005
Heide rocks. Period.
And she is weird. She is weird and she rocks.
Plus she is massively cool. Cool, weird, oh yeah... FUN, and rocks really extra hard. Right. Got it.

She is also a sensitive, deep thinking, bleeding heart type. So be careful - if you hurt her feelings I will rip your fucking face off.
Anyway, she, um... rocks. Did I already say that?
April 20, 2005
heide is a sexy, sexy girl...I wanted to make out with her, but she never knew! I miss her, and she is a FREAKING INCREDIBLE COOK!!!
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frida kahlo

what the water gave me
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My Recent Activity

Manx Dave's Memorial in Seattle August 19th (blog entry) MEMORIAL FOR DAVID CLARK in Seattle
Here is the final information for the wake/memorial of David Clark, aka Manx:

Place:
House of Lori-ann Gifford
822 22nd Ave. (at Marion)
Seattle, WA
98122

Time:
August 19th, 2007
1:00PM

Bring you... read more
blog entry posted Thu, August 2, 2007 - 9:32 PM permalink - 0 comments
Way too long... (blog entry) Well, the last time I updated my profile was nearly a year ago! I have been here snooping around and posting on various tribes, but this profile needs some help! Ah well, I did a little today, which is fine.

I just moved to Quilcene, Washington... read more
blog entry posted Thu, May 24, 2007 - 2:11 PM permalink - 0 comments
VIVA LA PUNK CABARET! (blog entry) Fuck the Back Row ROCKED ASS.

I met the Amanda and Brian of the Dresden Dolls!

I am really tired right now, and it is 0 dark thirty in the morning, so I will fill you all in and post pictures in a day or two. I'm just really excited to let ... read more
blog entry posted Sat, July 29, 2006 - 3:36 AM permalink - 0 comments
Dreaming of Burning Man (blog entry) So last night I dreamed I received two free tickets to Burning Man as a gift at a party. Everyone got them. Anyone want to make my dream a reality? ;)~ It was just terrible waking up and realizing it wasn't real.
blog entry posted Thu, July 13, 2006 - 3:38 PM permalink - 4 comments
photo posted 06/11
she's back!!!! (blog entry) I'm back in Washington state now. I already want to go back on the road again! I posted my pictures on flickr, so here's where you can see my entire trip to Ohio, New York, and every state in between there and here. I rode a bus all the way there ... read more
blog entry posted Sun, June 11, 2006 - 12:09 AM permalink - 0 comments
Packing, bleh. Making decisions, bleh. (blog entry) OK, so I didn't go to Seattle last night. I just sat in my bed and stared at the wall and did nothing.

I have the pre-travelling blues for some reason. I know that I will be JUST FINE once I get to the actual leaving part. But packing and maki... read more
blog entry posted Mon, May 22, 2006 - 8:24 AM permalink - 2 comments
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My Extended Family

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My Real Family

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One Day Honey, One Day Onions

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Desired constellation

It's tricky when
You feel someone
Has done
Something on your behalf

It's slippery when
Your sense of justice
Murmurs underneath

And is asking you
How am I going to make it right?
How am I going to make it right?

With a palm full of stars
I throw them like dice
(repeatedly)

On the table
(repeat - repeatedly)
I shake them like dice
And throw them on the table
Repeatedly
(repeatedly)
Until the desired constellation appears

How am I going to make it right?
How am I going to make it right?
How am I going to make it right?

(And you hear - how am I going to make it right?)

How am I going to make it right?
How am I going to make it right?

(How am I going to make it right?)

by Bjork, Medulla

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Sonnets / unrealities xi

( E.E. Cummings Poem - 'it may not always be so' )

It may not always be so
And I say
And if your lips
Which I have loved
Should touch another's
And your dear strong fingers clutch
Her heart
As mine in time
Not far away

If on another's face your sweet hair lay
In such a silence
As I know
Or such great writhing words
As, uttering overmuch
Stand helpelessly before the spirit at bay

If this should be
I say
If this should be
You of my heart
Send me a little word
That I may go
Unto her
And take her hands
Saying

Accept all happiness from me

Then I shall turn my face
And hear one bird
Sing terribly afar
In the lost lands

by Bjork, Medulla

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Girl Anachronism - The Dresden Dolls

you can tell
from the scars on my arms
and cracks in my hips
and the dents in my car
and the blisters on my lips
that i'm not the carefullest of girls

you can tell
from the glass on the floor
and the strings that're breaking
and i keep on breaking more
and it looks like i am shaking
but it's just the temperature
and then again
if it were any colder i could disengage
if i were any older i could act my age
but i dont think that youd believe me
it's
not
the
way
i'm
meant
to
be
it's just the way the operation made me

and you can tell
from the state of my room
that they let me out too soon
and the pills that i ate
came a couple years too late
and ive got some issues to work through
there i go again
pretending to be you
make-believing
that i have a soul beneath the surface
trying to convince you
it was accidentally on purpose

i am not so serious
this passion is a plagiarism
i might join your century
but only on a rare occasion
i was taken out
before the labor pains set in and now
behold the world's worst accident
i am the girl anachronism

and you can tell
by the red in my eyes
and the bruises on my thighs
and the knots in my hair
and the bathtub full of flies
that i'm not right now at all
there i go again
pretending that i'll fall
don't call the doctors
cause they've seen it all before
they'll say just
let
her
crash
and
burn
she'll learn
the attention just encourages her

and you can tell
from the full-body cast
that i'm sorry that i asked
though you did everything you could
(like any decent person would)
but i might be catching so don't touch
you'll start believeing youre immune to gravity and stuff
don't get me wet
because the bandages will all come off

and you can tell
from the smoke at the stake
that the current state is critical
well it is the little things, for instance:
in the time it takes to break it she can make up ten excuses:
please excuse her for the day, its just the way the medication makes her...

i dont necessarily believe there is a cure for this
so i might join your century but only as a doubtful guest
i was too precarious removed as a caesarian
behold the worlds worst accident
I AM THE GIRL ANACHRONISM

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