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My first name is really Jeff.

I am a wiccan/neopagan who is interested in creating, finding, and validating "meaning" in life.
If you don't understand what I mean by "meaning", don't worry...I'm still trying to figure it out for myself.
I think that Victor Anderson's (Feri Tradition) prayer sums things up very succinctly:

"Who is the flower above me...
and what is the work of this god...
I would know myself in all of my parts"

Indeed, I would know myself as deeply as I possibly can.
I believe that reality itself is the process of the divine contemplating its own nature (knowing and experiencing itself).
I believe that our true purpose here is to do exactly the same,..... to experience ourselves as deeply as possible.
There are always parts of ourselves that we are not conscious of yet because
a) we still haven't deepened enough or
b) we are still too afraid to look.
Hence the process of discovery never ceases. It may become delayed or "clogged" but never truly ceases.

I am both a polytheist and a monotheist.
Like the African diasporists, the neoplatonists, and many other religions/cosmologies, I believe that there is indeed a supreme being but that this being is far beyond our comprehension. It is indeed "ineffable". I also believe that there are divine beings on lower levels than this supreme being and that they are the "gods". I believe that it benefits us greatly to have relationships with these beings through worship, prayer, and trance. As to the argument of whether these beings are real "outside" of ourselves or whether they are psychological constructs, I believe the answer is that both are quite correct. I believe that because of the way in which we are built that the primary access we have to the gods is via parts of our subconscious that correspond to them in some way(s). So I believe that the gods are definitely real AND that they are inside us as psychological constructs.

I am currently a red-cord in NROOGD in coven Dark Forest in the San Jose, CA area.

Biographically,
I was born in Canoga Park, California. Moved to small Kansas town when I was six years old. Grew up in this little town of 1100 or so people until 16 when we moved to the sprawling metropolis of Wichita, Kansas. I went to college at Wichita State University where I got a BS in Electrical Engineering. I worked in Wichita as a computer geek (programmer/software engineer) for 5 years and then moved here (in January of 2000) to continue being a professional propeller-head and to have access to a much larger neopagan community.

I'm also a positoid.