Okay so maybe it's in panic maybe it's in desperation but I do have bills to pay and at the moment it dosen't look like that's going to easily happen without some work so:

I am sick of dead-ends call it crazy but it's true. Every job I have taken in the last year has never gone anywhere past probably 3 months. I just need something stable, that will at least last me for a few months to get me somewhere else but the best would be one that keep around for a year or more. I have been resistant against asking my own network or community because first, when I approach people one to one in the past it has lead to immediate dead-ends never going there or false promises. so a little about what has been happening in my professinal life:

I have been for the last 2-3 months helping a close dear friend with organizing their rat nest of a house organizing papers, cleaning and doing small audio/video and data installs. Additionally for the last 5 months i have been working up at OHSU through a temp agency delivering drugs, overall it's basically a mail room job, taking drugs to each med room and some bedside boxes, focusing carefully to detail to accurately deliver drugs to each patient correctly over a hospital with around 25 wings. love it for the ability to work independently, the flexibility of the hours and walking for 8 hours per day Also

pay: 13/hr hours: On-call so between 16-40 hours per week

3 months at a Mortgage brokerage interacting with customers, completing and gathering information for complex forms, up-selling products and company and supporting staff with small tasks and errands. Loved it for the people, friendly, cool laid-back.

Pay: 8/hr hours: 20 hr/week

1 month at a retail office supply store, interacting with customers, taking orders, gathering and completing complex forms, assisting customers with photocopying, laminating, small tasks and finding product, stocking and inventory product with electronic inventory, applying price tags, arranging and designing displays, handling cash and dealing with charge accounts. Loved it for the people to interact with always upbeat helpful and inspired and motivated me. Also, worked with great customers developing fresh and creative solutions for their needs. Further interacted with community members, felt like a direct cog in a small community.

pay: min wage hours: 30 hours/week

I am very skilled with strong list of past accomplish volunteering in gay activism and social circles, volunteering as a youth in a strong youth program and have acquired skills of the year that include cash-handling, strong customer service skills, pretty advanced computer skill, including technical, applied and diagnostic, and strong creative and analytical skills. I admit my biggest obstacle so far and I keep being told over and over is experience. However I know I am driven, motivated hard-working and dependable.

So to the universe, what am I looking for exactly?

A lot, really a lot, a great small company or part of a large company that is family-like. Lets me interact with customers/clients/patients/what-have-you positively helping to making their lives easier and/or, dare it be. change their lives. Allows me to act on fresh idea/creative solutions.

anyway kids, if you have gotten this far that's AWESOME hopefully i can get some response I need at the very least some energy support and I have to say the possibility of roads be opened to me would be even better. I have loved my life in Portland and have found my dream in housing now to stay here and find the dream Job/Career.

Blessed Be,

Crimson