Truth Be Told

I got inspired in this empty palace....AGAIN

ishka — Thu, 30 Apr 2009 09:51:24 GMT

which star are you, twinkling in my sky tonite? are you a cloud? maybe you are the blackness. or the sound of the crashing waves. maybe you are that sweet calm i feel at the 2:34 am this morning... i think i may have just wrote my way to Peace. what would we be without the glorious poetry of eye and eye....asking why why why and answering with words that could only come from spirit. god. is. what a life this is. it's this deep tenderness that i keep returning to. it's a kind of sorrow. i fear the great mystery sometimes... more often these past few months than i can remember...just a different flavor really.....but, i keep returning to this place time and time again so i can really LOOK at it. feel it. understand it. be at peace with it. to be with the Beloved is to be completely and utterly alone and to be completely and utterly at peace... and we get to share every fleeting & everlasting moment of it. we are all alone and all one. ahhhhhhhhh....... what an incredible blessing it is to be ALIVE. what an incredible miracle. Life. sometimes all i can do is cry for all the beauty, the madness, the glorious creation... i am returning to the MotherLand again. thank you for being in my life.

Namo Kuan Shih Yin Pusa

ishka — Thu, 05 Feb 2009 09:42:53 GMT

i wanna share the new piece i've been working on... it's still in the the sketch phase (on 18x24" canvas), but i'm getting very close to paint. just a few minor details need to be worked out, and the scales on dragon n such. i'll be posting more along the way... for those who haven't seen or heard about it, it is a painting of kuan yin giving her blessings through a kiss to a flying seed sprite. kuan yin, in tibetan buddhism (and earlier forms of it, tracing back to china) is the goddess of compassion. the title of the piece, "namo kuan shih yin pusa" means "i take refuge in the bodhisattva who hears all the sounds of the world"... she is also the goddess of fertility and childbirth (just another reason for me to paint some pregnant mamas again :) ) and if she is not sitting upon a lotus, she is riding upon at least one dragon. the dragon represents protection. i started this piece on winter solstice. one synchronicity: it is the year of the OX now, and traditionally, kuan yin is the one who blesses the ox. i didn't know that til after i started. gotta love it. :)

ART is not a LUXURY

ishka — Mon, 15 Dec 2008 10:35:42 GMT

Beloveds! MY ART IS FINALLY ONLINE!! my website is not nearly close to being done, but i have created an online shop, and i would love for you all to check it out! i have a variety of sizes printed on a variety of materials. for any of you looking for a sweet gift, now is the time. or, if you've just been dying to have some ishka art on your wall, come and get it! the shop is not fully stocked yet, so if you want a specific piece at a certain size or printed a certain way and you don't SEE it, just send me a message, and i can get you what you need. go to: www.ishkanexus.etsy.com I love you all, and miss seeing so many of you. Write me a message or give me a call anytime... i don't have many phone numbers since i lost all my contacts in september, so if i haven't spoken to you since before then, i don't got your digits. JOY TO ALL LOVE TO ALL PEACE TO ALL BLESS YOU BLESS YOU BLESS YOU ~*~ namishkatara ma! ~*~

Gay Marriage

ishka — Mon, 24 Nov 2008 20:55:59 GMT

Hi Dear Community, Have you seen Keith Olbermann's "Special Comment" about Prop 8? In this emotional statement on "Countdown," his nightly news program on MSNBC, Keith Olbermann eloquently expresses why the passage of Prop 8 is so tragic and then directly addresses supporters of the proposition. Here is a link to watch a YouTube video of Keith's comments: http://www.couragecampaign.org/prop8repeal Please check it out and then join me and over 100,000 other people in signing a pledge from the Courage Campaign and CREDO Mobile to repeal Prop 8 and restore marriage equality to California. Usually, discussions of political issues wind down after elections, but Prop 8 is not about politics. It is about love, equality and civil rights. That's why we cannot let the passage of Prop 8 stand. We all need to talk to our family and friends about the importance of restoring marriage equality to California. That is why I am asking you to watch what Keith Olbermann said and then sign the pledge to repeal Prop 8. Studies have shown that the most effective way to swing a voter to our side is to talk to our friends about the meaning of marriage equality. The path to repealing Prop 8 and restoring marriage equality to California starts now, with you and the discussions you have with the people in your life. Thanks for your time, your thoughtful consideration and your action.

DREAM Awake

ishka — Thu, 10 Jul 2008 07:37:18 GMT

If you or anyone you know will be in the Mendocino area anytime in the next month, come and check it out! the opening is this saturday from 5-9pm. great live music will include human and brockell from The Human Revolution and other incredible artists.

Sponsor a Visionary Artist Today!

ishka — Sat, 01 Mar 2008 10:21:21 GMT

but really... Greetings Allies, it occurred to me yesterday, after a completely unexpected event (getting fired from my waitressing job at an all organic all vegan restaurant, which i loved) that something in my life needed to change. after i got off the phone with my manager, who said they were letting me go because, "my heart wasn't in it," i was in total shock. how could they FIRE me? and for THAT particular reason???? i was stoked to be there. i was making good cash flow and my work supported a business that was ecologically mindful. i thought it was exactly what i needed to fulfill my financial obligations while continuing my education as an artist. yes, i've been taking community college art classes here in mendocino to learn new techniques and maintain my focus, and it's been fantastic. i'm with the ocean and the redwoods, and i'm in love. and then, BAM! i get fIREd. job goes poof. my financial reality has done a 180, and i'm broke after i pay rent and bills in less than a week. so, what the hell is the universe trying to tell me with this? i kept asking over and over all of yesterday. mama has her ways. she's tricky sometimes. after much consideration, i think i figured it out. i didn't fit this establishment's mold for an employee. all but one person there actually enjoyed their job (or at least, never expressed their dissatisfaction with it). a lot of "social" time in the kitchen was spent complaining about customers and/or the work we had to do. i guess i forgot that so many people work a job they dislike, and actually find satisfaction in talking about how awful it is, even though in reality (or at least in mine), the job is actually ok. i LIKE serving people. i like doing my job well, and putting smiles on people's faces when they get their meal, sprinkled with love, from my hands. somehow, that made me a suspicious character... so anyways, i'm out looking for another job. it's still really rainy here, and most places aren't hiring cuz it's not time yet. there is a chocolate haus here who needs someone to work weekends, and i'm hoping they'll hire me. they've been making their own treats here for as long as i can remember, and i think it'd be fun to serve dessert all day. :) meanwhile, i've been thinking of more ways to create more financial prosperity, and that's where YOU come in. i've got lots of ideas, and i'm casting the lines to see who bites. if you've made it this far in the post, here's where the real JUICY part begins: JUICY PART #1 >> a call for sponsorship. yes. if anyone here has the resources, or knows of anyone who has the resources to sponsor me. i've considered many different options here, and i am open to suggestions. one idea is that i work out a contract with any and all sponsors who donate ($25, $50, $100....whatever the amount, really) MONTHLY to my budding career as an aspiring, FULL-TIME, visionary artist (and weekend chocolatier). depending on amount allocated, i can send donors signed prints of work completed every month, with option of a signed original at end of term (6 months to 1 year). other arrangements could be negotiated, and it really depends on what feels like a healthy exchange. JUICY PART #2 >> would anyone like to commission me to do a project? this realm is wide with opportunity. i can design the tattoo that you or someone you know has always wanted, perhaps. or, maybe you have a drum head that you'd like me to draw a henna design onto. need cd cover art for your next music project? i can also braid in extensions for any of the ladies (or guys) who are searching for a new look. i'm also extremely gifted at drawing portraits (if you inquire about portraits, i can send you jpegs of previous work). i can also paint a mural in your home (on doors, walls, cabinets, tables...the possibilities abound). do you or anyone you know have a book that you need an illustrator for? get in touch with me. JUICY PART #3 >> and, of course, there is always the option of purchasing a print of any of the works i have completed, most of which are displayed on my tribe page. i've got a range of sizes available, and they can be mailed anywhere with shipping fees added to print cost. so there's the juice. freshly squeezed. on a personal note, i'm most interested in finding sponsorship at this time. this is the first time i am actively seeking this out, and i would like to see what transpires as a result of this listing. i've been sponsored once before, based on the agreement that all funds went directly to art production, and it's worked out nicely so far. if you know, as you are reading this, that this is not a way that you can personally contribute, but you have links to people/organizations who might, i'd love to hear about it! that's all i've got for now. any other suggestions/offerings would be greatly appreciated. ~*~ ishka LA ~*~

Honestly...

ishka — Mon, 18 Feb 2008 08:00:07 GMT

Aloha Lovelies! it's been aaaaaaages since i've made any discussion here on tribe. life has been busy, AND i haven't lived with a computer for months now. however, tonight, after perusing through some old tribe invites, i felt inspired to write a bit about my experience with honesty. in this beautiful thing called "tribe", we're dedicated to upping the frequency on this globe by doing what we love, and serving our community with what people NEED through what we (as individuals) have to offer using our special gifts. and so, of course, this world would be a perfect place to be IF we could all EXPRESS our needs, which means we must KNOW what our needs are, and then follow route to fulfillment. if my needs are met, i can serve other people's needs, and the dominoes fall accordingly. emotional support. so many people, (and many in this tribe!) do NOT ask for the emotional support they need. most of us get the fact that it's conditioning. don't cry. deal with it. blah blah blah. whatever. but really. if i had a nickel for all the times i've witnessed people in this family who see something they need to work on/release, they almost immediately try to throw it out the window without spending any real Time with it. i do it, too. it's some weird new age crap that i see happening here. "oh my god, that feels AWFUL! ok. i RELEASE "that", and i call in only that "which serves my highest self"... blah blah blah, etc etc." how many times have we all done that? how many times can we all say that it has WORKED every time? i bet not ONE person. patterns take time to dissolve. old triggers need to be examined. tears must be shed. anger needs to be addressed. anger REALLY needs some attention. i'd like to remind people that it is a GOOD thing to express anger as long as it is not projected ONTO someone (like blame) or yourself. it's one of those things most of us don't like to do, but, little frustrations that are not communicated turn into explosive situations. those can be extremely healing as well, but only because the build up was everlasting and painful. better to be out with it soon rather than suffocate for days or weeks (or years). we can remember that it is PERFECTLY OK to talk openly about something that is troubling our heart/psyche, even if it seems small. if it's some small thing that keeps choking you up every so slightly, or tightens your stomach, or clogs up your brain, you need to get to the root of it. and, if dismissing it every time as something you KNOW shouldn't be an issue but STILL IS, you gotta dig in and dish out. TALK about it. talk about the DETAILS. step up and allow and TRUST your fellow human beings to see what REALLY ails you. forget all that bull that might be in there somewhere about the fact that we are the conscious few, and surely, that ugly little thing should have been taken care of ages ago. if it's still there, it's still tHere, and it needs care. and hey, we are here to help each other smooth out the rough spots. how many here are SOOOOOOO willing and able to help each other out with their "shit" but when it comes to your own "shit", you don't wanna "burden" other people? how many times have we read about/talked about the wounded healer? we all KNOW what this is. we ARE that wounded healer. who isn't?? when we all take steps to share those hidden aspects of our individual nature that seem prickly, we are giving others the opportunity to be a loving witness. when we are present with what really needs attention in order to evolve within, we are, in effect, acting as a teacher on how to eradicate the shame that people feel when when they are "weak". and what does it mean to feel weak anyway? we only suffer when we are not strong enough to allow our emotional body to move freely. if it is constantly being constricted or "corrected" or ignored, we become disoriented and disconnected. we lack presence with our own inner workings and inner guidance, and then we cannot be present with anyone else. let down the barriers. be honest with yourself. be honest with others. have COMPASSION. being honest does not give you the right to be a total a-hole in your authenticity practice. i read somewhere that honesty without compassion is brutality. i've been chewing on that one ever since. yes, let's be honest with each other, but lose the charge, the arrogance, the blame, the snobbery....the whatever that gives the ego some selfish little kicks for being "right". oh, yes, i'm the truthteller. this person just flat out lied, so i'm going to punish them. there is no lesson in that. we are not punishers. we all make mistakes. let's serve each other by being able to act in a loving way towards someone who clearly needs some guidance. we can be solid and genuine and stern. we DON'T hold onto false pretenses. we don't act indignant. we look at the things we need to work out with the intention to understand it, not condemn it. then it can be cleared, and we can all move on. ah...i feel like i have so much more i could write about this, but i think i'll stop now. and maybe add more later, or discuss more with comments.... ~*~ sending my love to all sentient beings, ~*~ ishka LA ~*~

A Magical Potion

ishka — Mon, 04 Feb 2008 09:25:55 GMT

it's simple and beautiful, and it gives me inspiration to wake with the morning sun more often. From DailyOm: The Morning Dew The world awakens each day from its nightly slumber, transformed by a sparkling layer of morning dew on the grass, on flower petals and leaves, on cars and car windows. These glistening droplets last only a little while, an integral part of what imbues the early morning with its aura of magic. If we sleep too late, we miss the magnificent display of sunlight playing upon an infinite amount of tiny crystal balls. To step onto the dew-covered grass is to anoint our feet with a form of water that comes only once a day for a short time, a rarefied gift of the night air that will soon evaporate in the full light of the sun. If we inhale slowly and consciously enough, it is almost as if we are drinking in this magical elixir formed in the boundary between darkness and light. In one myth, morning dew is believed to be tears from heaven, and in another, the droplets are poured from the vessel of the goddess of dawn. When we see the earth draped with these shimmering drops, it is easy to imagine fairies bathing in the water, or a sky god weeping from a longing to be closer to his beloved earth goddess. Seeing the sparkling beauty of the earth emerging from darkness, we may understand this longing in terms of our own gratitude; how blessed we are to be here. Perhaps heaven really does long to be here on earth, and perhaps that is why we are here—as conduits between the divine and the earthbound. As we drink the morning dew in with our eyes, our skin, our breath, it is easy to imagine that it really is a magical potion, a gift from heaven, a reminder of our true purpose, and a daily opportunity to be transformed.

dear Sir,

ishka — Wed, 26 Dec 2007 09:47:49 GMT

how dare You. how dare You come bursting into my Heart like this, like some uninvited guest. You run through all the rooms in my House, gorging Yourself at my Table, drinking my Wine, sleeping in my Bed. have You no shame? have You no sense of dignity? do You see NOT consequences of great magnitude after such a rampage? the extravagant Liberty You've taken stirs a slumbering Beast. i warn You: Be quiet, or suffer a fierceness that will tear You wide open. Be still, or You will surely die. i am offering You a quick escape now, So take it! in a moment’s time, it shall be too late. in a moment’s time, the Beast shall wake, and all Trespassers will be hunted down. servants of Forgotten Dreams, Lost Memories, and Secrecy, hear Ye! between the crevices of gnashing teeth, every Intruder will be punctured, torn, and chewed to bits. what’s left will be a glorious feast for the vultures and maggots. nothing shall be spared. i am offering You an exit. if You don’t take it now, You never will.

Oh...

ishka — Mon, 03 Dec 2007 00:39:31 GMT

these gentle giants, these loving hearts, whose guidance paints the land red... they cradle me in their arms. sequoia KNOWS me. sweet sanctuary. my birth. i can hear the earth spinning again... if you want proof of my garden, i have nothing to offer you. it simply grows. come, breathe in the radiance of these blossoms... they are here for you to sail from island to island inside your Memory... they billow with the sweet aroma of your Origin.

scarlet letter

ishka — Sun, 14 Oct 2007 01:00:37 GMT

*** breathe deeper breathe deeper breathe deeper this time light trickles down the vines inside my house today. green tendrils beckon me towards my Lover's eyes. they drink me in with a craving and a thirst that only majnun could know. oh majnun, majnun... i am that madman. i am she: that desert wayfarer that has sung herself to rags. i have renounced my title, my profits, and my shame to taste the vast emptiness of my own gaze. my skin presses, close and supple, as a witness to my own desire. death is slow, cumbersome, and mild, swift, intoxicating, and complex. scarlet wine dazzles and drinks me in, and now i'm deep maroon, tender skin, soft hues imbued with a haunting rhapsody, a dripping tune of sweet milk and honey. rippling satin, like a breeze kissed lake, laps upon my body's undulating shores, and i become a willow tree, delicate, saturated, weighing heavily all the elements of life that lift and soften me. the sun rises and sets and rises and sets again, and my branches lean to the currents of light and shadow. the east captures new buds in the morning, moths flicker like flames upon the evening's golden glass, and i give thanks for rain. with each new rapture of the womb, the garden springs new life. so here i am: goddess of the well, pulling up and over me the blanket of a storm, brimming with anticipation for the drop that overflows me. just this isis oasis with one kiss is my wish ***

~~Assisted Prosperity~~

ishka — Sun, 30 Sep 2007 21:14:08 GMT

Blessed Citizens of Light, my heart overflows with JOY from all the blessings and prayers received since my last post. the space is HERE!!!! it is open and prosperous. it is a beacon of light, and we inhabit this realm for eternity. we met with the landlord yesterday afternoon, and he has all of our INFORMATION. so, NOW, we are just stirring the potions and letting the tea bags seep. at this moment, i am here to make another request. we are coming into an amazing amount of financial abundance in the next 2.5 weeks, but at this moment, we need to call with another *zing* AND a solid offer to have the keys in our pocket. ***********************11000000011*********************** i am calling out to those of you who are able to make a temporary loan (2.5 weeks to be exact) so that we can make our full deposit. the grand TOTAL is $2200.00. you will receive back *whatever amount* you have to offer in 2.5 weeks time, as well as a Special Gift from ME. ***********************11000000011*********************** timing for this expedition is crucial. please CALL me as soon as you receive this TRANSMISSION, so that we can coordinate a Balance that is in accord with Spirit's Call. Blessed BE. in Love, in Circle, in Service, ~*~ ishka MA ~*~ 805.345.9235

The Christ Blueprint

ishka — Mon, 09 Jul 2007 00:39:53 GMT

Introduction: Christ Consciousness in this Age was originally established by Christ Yeshua and the 12 Apostles surrounding him 2000 years ago in the form of the Christ Blueprint. This Blueprint was established to anchor the 13 different qualities of Christ Mind onto Earth. The Christ Blueprint is a Map of Holy, Equal, and Interconnected Relationship, where each part of the blueprint, each person in holy relationship, is necessary for all the parts to function. Life is relationship. We come into existence only through relationship. We are like a circle, a mandala, each relationship forming part of the mandala. When any one relationship is not right, "you" are not right. The same applies to our own bodies, minds, Soul Blueprint, and DNA. They too are a mandala, that when combined in the perfect proportions, produce the Perfect Human, or Christ. The Christ Blueprint is a Map of the 13 qualities of Christ Consciousness. Each of these qualities was held by one of the Apostles, who was overlighted or guided by one of the Masters of the Christ Council, or the Apostles Higher Self. All 13 Apostles together create Christ. What this means is that each person on the Christ Path has to intergrate all 13 aspects completely. Each of these 13 is a Pathway, and each Pathway is but one aspect of the whole. If we go too far down one pathway we can lose sight of the others, for no single pathway in the Christ Blueprint will bring you into Christ Consciousness; only all 13 working together will. It is your job, those who are accessing Christ consciousness, to embody all 13 in action as Christ, the embodiment of God in form, a fully unified Being woven together in Unconditional Love. Yeshua, as the last full representative of Christ Consciousness on Earth, embodied this through Holy Relationship with all the aspects of Himself he gathered around him, the 13 Apostles. Christ Yeshua demonstrated this Art of Holy Relationship perfectly, as He was in close and perpetual relationship with all the aspects of Himself as reflected in His Apostles. Each Apostle represented a part of himself, the Christ, and each Apostle held the energetic quality and space for the whole of the Christ Blueprint to be anchored on Earth through Yeshua. Yeshua needed his Apostles around him, as they all formed one Body of Christ, or One Consciousness. Without him they were nothing ; without them he was nothing. Each link in the chain was totally interdependent, each needing the other in order to become whole, and anchor the Christ on Earth. The Body of Christ is a holographic consciousness. Identities and names are fluid and interchangeable as all the Apostles shared the one, Christ Consciousness. To those with eyes to see it is like seeing through multiple perspectives and eyes simultaneously ; in one moment you are seeing through the Baptists eyes of ruthless compassion, fire and power; in the next moment through Magdalenes eyes, the eyes of Holy Love, and in the next moment through Yeshuas eyes. In learning about the 13 different qualities of Christ Consciousness one comes to a deep understanding that this is not just about integrating certain qualities; it is about fully embodying all of them as Holy Spirit. The Holy Spirit is the bridge that joins us to the Mind of God. From the very first thought, born out of our desire to experience separation from God, this bridge was created. Resting in the Holy Spirit is resting in God, feeling our connection and relation to all of Life. In this, one in any moment can embody the embracing love and care of Mother Mary, the feminine power of Ishtar, and the clarity of Lucifer in the next moment. One is able to shape shift into any quality of mastership according to what is appropriate for the highest potential to manifest in that moment. It is not about embodying one or two of these qualities. It is not about being stuck or fixed on only being Mary Magdalene or Isis; it is about bringing them all into union and harmony within YOU, embracing ALL aspects of Christ Consciousness. Only this can truly fulfill you and serve all beings, for only through this embodiment can we ultimately Be all that we are being birthed to be. excerpt from www.christ blueprint.com :(((Entheon Goddesses))): Concept for structure of Christ Blueprint meditation: 13 "apostles" gather together to sit at the round table. This can be something as simple as a large black tapestry with each symbol painted in gold to represent each archetype for each member to sit upon. Each participant then reads a card that spells the embodiment of the aspect he/she shall be integrating. The card will also contain a mantra/affirmation for the member to meditate on. For 11 minutes, each person will focus their full attention on this one mantra. On the 12th minute, the circle shall rotate, and a new mediation will begin, based on the next placement. This will continue until each archetype has been integrated. This is only a seed. It is completely Mutable. The rest of the sequence hasn't presented itself to me quite yet, and I would love to hear any input or feedback. How shall we culminate this gathering? We could, once the rotation is complete, all move the circle inward (to unify and harness all 13 elements as one) in song, opened with a prayer for Guided Harmony. ~*~ bless, ~*~ ishka la ~*~

~*~

ishka — Sun, 24 Jun 2007 22:56:07 GMT

Breathing in the ancients the dance of prophecy flows through my blood pulsing, guiding, one step at a time, they whisper, one step...at a time... TRUST together, we are awakening! the messages of the Skypeople resounding in our Hearts The butterflies circle carrying the spirits of the ancestors to bless our path Stay strong in the Breath of Love receive the Blazing warmth of Father Sun life-giving intelligence and the Enchanted flow of Grandmother Moon spiralling embrace Be the Beauty this Celestial Earth needs, Now! *** Grandmother Moon holds us sways us moves us guides us Be patient, she says, watch the cycles, I will give you All one breath at a time I show the way with clarity and grace gentleness is the path Cry for the waters laugh for the children smile for the sacred rocks The Warrior is you! The spirit plants open us The brother wind cleanses us The galactic forces touch our hearts - "Shine your Light" they urge Chant your ancestors Alive! Stand tall on the Sacred Earth Bring the harmony to this moment Fulfill your cosmic destiny! *** In Lak'ech - I am Another Yourself, Eden Sky, Red Self-Existing Skywalker www.13moon.com

i am possessed by Love

ishka — Wed, 13 Jun 2007 10:18:42 GMT

it has me in its grip. now, i can do nothing but lie here in a pile of others who bit the bait.... wondering when i'll be sliced in half and gutted.

Dreamtime Caravan

ishka — Tue, 05 Jun 2007 03:47:44 GMT

So, i'm sitting here, in one of the most magical worldly houses i've ever set foot in, filled with white taras carved into stone walls, brass tantric deities, golden cups from bhutan, beautifully crafted wooden cupboards from thailand with hand mudras protuding from them for opening... ...overlooking the ocean, feeling the breeze kiss my skin... ...and thinking of my BEEEEEAUTIFUL FAMILY. :) life continues...forward. :) i'm activating sacred space with my artistry, painting the walls of this tantric house with mandalas, japanese mountains and streams...lotus flowers...sacred geometry... it is exactly what i wanted to do here. i'm taking this really intense hatha yoga class every other morning or 2.5 hours at this place called shambala which is rooting my body and breathwork so deeply. i'm so excited to be really DOING yoga!! after class, i go for a swim in the salt water pool there, or walk to the waterfall lagoon for a dip on my way home.... one of the last projects i will be doing here is to design this intergalactic sacred geometrical whale chamber. they're building this 10' x 10' meditation temple, and each wall will be stained glass, all of which will be my creation. i feel soooooo blessed to be here, and being of service in this way. it's really happening!!!! ow!! i believe this will be a start of something my spirit has been called to do for some time, and i am incredibly grateful for the opportunity to put my gift into the homes and hearts of others who are on a spiritual path. :) >>>SOOOOOO<<< all you beautiful DREAMERS, i am OFFICIALLY coming back to the mainland in july, and starting off with that lovely little heart activated dance in paonia to reconnect with all y'all. :) i'm flying back to california on the 12th, and i want to caravan with some pirates. drop me a line. hook up a mermaid. and reeeeeeeeel this woman in! from the whirling fertile island of maui, ishka manawai

i am revealed

ishka — Thu, 31 May 2007 10:42:01 GMT

once again. we are energy that moves. we are faces that laugh. we are eyes that penetrate each other, and nothing else. dawn spills into the night sky. a blossom falls as a cherry grows. words give rise to something old. love sees and sees and sees. sometimes menehune fall like sunset flowers from the howler trees. sometimes coral rocks line a pathway to the moonlit seas. grandmother speaks in whale songs that tumble out of me. honus fly gracefully in mother's sweet champagne, reflecting rainbows like i've never seen. nose flutes call the beggars from their knees. astral singing circles gather in two sisters sharing dreams. walking shamans... mountain council... waterfall chi... letting it all just be. so this is life? to live like rain or fire or both or everything else? to live in a land where either or does not reside...where and and and has a home?...to drip drip drip as we perspire...? to dance to the crickets' rhythmic gauge at night? i am revealed. what else? i dunno. i am blue. let's us be inspiration. *another message of universal Love brought to You BY You.*

to the great Mother

ishka — Sat, 17 Feb 2007 14:48:14 GMT

today, i died... yesterday, i died... tomorrow, i shall die again... it's no wonder the greatest moment includes tears and laughter it is the whole universe, w e e p i n g for our departure. and it is the whole universe, c e l e b r a t i n g our arrival... bless the birth bless the mother bless this heart, broken open...again and again and again.... diving deeper into the splendor diving deeper diving.... d e e p into me destroying the hardest parts slicing through the layers cutting out the pit peeling back the skin so that there is nothing left but the sweet meat raw... exposed... tender... i Surrender i Surrender i Surrender

Maui WoWeee

ishka — Thu, 15 Feb 2007 01:56:30 GMT

Aloha Beauties, Connecting with all of you amazing Light beings in my life today to share my Love...and stories from dee islands. :) this first week of maui has been a dream... the energy here is unlike any other place i've been, and i am learning Her Currents. for a watery being like myself, it has been a potent awakening to frequencies i hadn't had the opportunity to integrate into my life until now. yesterday was one of the most potent spiritual experiences of my life. we went out with 25 other people within the tribe to commune with the whales on a tri-catameran. we were an extremely high energy group, and the whales came right to us! i have never seen so many in my life. as we sailed deep into the blue, all the love and songs of Mama's glorious Children came pouring through me....and i couldn't stop crying. it was so beautiful. my crown was buzzing throughout the day and well into the night. i learned so much yesterday..... more about Surrendering to the Strength of Heart....to the Lion Heart....to Kali Ma. Surrendering to Truth, and Honoring it. i am owning my Surrender to Spirit, and owning the Responsibility to remain Open and Receptive, and ExPrEsSiVe! i have infinite Gratitude for every single moment of this Life to be a Living WITNESS to LOVE. we are all living witnesses of Love in all its splendor. we have all the strength we need to step off what seems like a great precipice...only to find our Spirit immersed in eternal serenity...in a sea of calm waters...embraced and nurtured by the eternal Body of the Mother. i pluck a petal from the eternally blossoming Lotus that is my Heart, and place it in the Palm of every sentient being's Hand. i feel Your Love. i feel Your Desires and Needs as my own. i Support You. i am Here to create experiences that will Guide us Home...to the Heart...to the Source. we are not alone. in the times when we feel the pain of seperation, let us reach out for the Love that surrounds, for the Love that's inside...to dance, to move, to sing....to cry, to wail out the anguish that only a human being knows when we yearn for Spirit and Body to merge...to become One, once again. ...it always begins NOW. i Love You, for better or for worse.... and even now, for better or for worse has no bearing in this Place... nothing matters when we Love each other's Core. all changes, but Spirit always remains. my deepest Thanks. om shanti. ~*~ bless, ishkali

Ki's "First and Perfect Tattoo"

ishka — Tue, 23 Jan 2007 08:23:54 GMT

Hey all you lovely Beauties! I really wanted to share with all of you the post that Ki just made about the tattoo session we shared. It was magical, and I feel blessed for the experience. You can find his original post if you search for "ki" in my friends list. >>>>> "Ishka Visionary artist, pixie, queen of curves, song, and laughter. She answered my request on Tribe to do my first tattoo. She wanted to do it by hand... no machine. She'd done two before she told me... practicing on her teacher...gulp... OK I said. It wasn't what I was expecting, but I'm learning to let go of my expectations and get out of the way of the universe. I'd seen her artwork and was so inspired by it. I was afraid yes. At Love Puddle we sat together and she channeled the intial symbol. Three circles joined by a three ended shape. We modified that shape slightly into the three petalled flower. A shape I have been doodling my whole life. The symbol we co-created represents to me what I am being in the world: the integration of body mind and spirit, the integration of masculine and feminine, the one becoming the two becoming the infinite and of course, blessed sex, lingham and yoni. For me the symbol also represents the Ecstatic Embodiment which I am creating in myself and in my community. Its just pure power that symbol! We made a couple if dates to do the tattoo that didn't work out but finally the day that worked was the new moon. We chose the sacrum for the location and consulted the oracle - the Osho Zen tarot - for a reflection. The card we got was Integration. A snake eating its tail, a man and woman as one being, an eagle and a swan, a sun and a moon, a merkaba in a lotus flower, fire and water, yin and yang and a rainbow are all depicted in this card. We created sacred space by gazing and exchanging words of gratitude Shaved. Washed. She drew the symbol by hand on my skin with a green sharpie. Almost perfect but just organic enough to be even better than perfect. Eight needles soldered together and attached into a bamboo stick ... traditional ancient ritual ... the deepest old school. It didn't hurt as much as I thought it would. I loved the contrast between the sharpness of the needles and the cool wetness of the cloth. What an incredible range of sensations we can feel in these earthly forms. She took almost four intense hours to apply the ink making sure she got the lines just so smooth. We talked little. I could feel the focus in her touch and the rhythmic piercing of my skin. She circled my body and layed on me at times to get into the right position. Theda came and visited and took photos and gave support. And then we were done. And I am changed again forever... I am so awesomely grateful. I love this work of magic and art. I feel blessed beyond measure. Thank you thank you thank you."

Conduit for Awakening

ishka — Wed, 17 Jan 2007 15:22:23 GMT

Every now and then, a REMINDER like this (and so eloquently Spoken) is just what we need: "The One Consciousness is experiencing through all of us. We are all of us (every manifest and nonmanifest being, not just humans) expressions of the One Consciousness experiencing countless different experiences from countless different points of view. It is sort of like a huge role-playing game it plays with itself. When it is in a role, it is really in it, and fully believes in what it is experiencing. But right now the game is getting a little wacked out, so the One Consciousness needs to reset the game. In order to do that, it has to kind of "wake up" within the role-play -- kind of like waking up within a dream to lucid-dream. It is trying to lucid-dream, to operate within the game -- to continue playing as the characters, but with the conscious realization of who it really is. There have always been people whose role in the game has been to try to awaken within the dream. The various spiritual disciplines developed over the millennia have been the way that the One Consciousness has practiced and gained experience at waking itself up in the game. That is because this time would come, when it would need to wake itself up completely and remember consciously, through its individual points of view, who it is. This it is trying to do, in order to consciously re-set the game, which is getting wacked-out. But, actually, the crises themselves are created by the One Consciousness to catalyze our collective awakening. It is about to set the game at a new level of play, in which it dreams the dream lucidly, so to speak, with full awareness of who and what it is. At our level, the individuated level, that means that individuals will live their lives in the awareness of being a single consciousness. That does not mean losing our individuated uniqueness -- on the contrary the One Consciousness expresses itself through endless creation of uniqueness. The universe is one, but it is not homogeneous -- the more we awaken to our oneness, the more we awaken to the wonder of endless unique manifestation. But due to accumulated debris and rust in their channels (aka karma, trauma, ego, etc) the One Consciousness has a harder time awakening through some of its expressions than others. But when the One Consciousness awakens in someone, they remember. "Oh. Yeah. Of course. I knew it all along. We all know it, we are all the same being, I am everyone and everyone is me." As mentioned above, at our level, the individuated level, that means that individuals will live their lives in the full awareness of being a single consciousness, and all the more aware of the precious uniqueness of their experience and their unique way of participating in the co-creation of the universe. After all, that is why the One Consciousness became "us" in the first place, in order to experience. At that level, human behavior changes, not because the One Consciousness is "good" and tells people to be "good," but because, in awareness that they are One Being, they recognize that everyone's experience (including nonhuman beings' experience) is their own. A society based on empathy, rather than rules, behaves a different way. People sometimes call this "enlightenment" or "awakening" and talk about "who" is or is not "enlightened." But the awakening is not when "you" wake up but when the One Consciousness awakes through you. Not when "you" remember, but when it remembers through you. When this happens suddenly to someone, especially someone unprepared, they may temporarily pass through a period of feeling messianic, deity-like, etc. But when they pass through that, they realize that the "messiah" or "God" is not them, it's all of us and far more. Every individual who becomes "enlightened" contributes to the awakening of the human groupmind, and through the human groupmind, the re-awakening of the One Consciousness in every being, every river and mountain ... Human consciousness and the consciousness of the rest of creation have always been linked. The One Consciousness has been experimenting with a special brand of consciousness through us humans, but that experiment has run its course -- and now, as we awaken, the distinctive human modes of consciousness and other modes of consciousness (plants, minerals, etc) will be reintegrated, and we will all of us (all beings) have access to all modes of consciousness. Because we are all the same being." Posted by "gayle" on the Sacred Conduit Tribe: http://sacredconduit.tribe.net/thread/1d4eb5af-8199-4696-97e6-cbb747eab902 Much Gratitude ~*~ Blessed Be ~*~

Cosmic Circus!!

ishka — Wed, 17 Jan 2007 13:34:27 GMT

yo VANCOUVER---let's go. let's caravan. let's see how many people we can get into my hoola hoop. let's ferry prankster our freaky s'elves over together!!!!! lemme know.... see all you LADIES on the other side. :) Step right up folks! The Mystics are bringing the cosmic circus to town. prepare to unleash your inner circus freak and come play in the sacred silliness... there will be live performances through out the night: fire spinning, stilt walkers, clowns, gypsies, belly dancers, tarot readers and much more... so dress your freak-iest, step it up a notch and lets party like it's 1959!!! featuring these fine DJ's: Lady Ra (beats without borders) Byron Dreamweaver (seed of life) Akhentek (deliria) Mountain Eyes (rainbow cathedral) Rowan (tribe) visuals by Elftrance 18+ no alcohol, no attitude all night event Victoria BC location, phone info line 250-217-6611 day-of only doors open @ 9.00pm opening circle @ 9:33pm limited capacity get your tix early tickets $20 at Shift (574 Johnson St, Victoria) or $25 at door

it is my Nature

ishka — Mon, 15 Jan 2007 09:58:22 GMT

iiiiiiiiiiiiiii........L o v e.... i GET it! "we Pray to the same Goddess...we Live in the same World..." who groks? let's all get Married!!!

i have a confession to make...

ishka — Wed, 10 Jan 2007 00:41:39 GMT

i'm in Love. yep. it happened again. God came to my Door last night, and i just couldn't resist letting Him Enter Me instantly. oh Love, You are a fast One. You rip the Layers right off and ravage Me! how can i resist? how could i possibly say no? Kiss Me. Caress Me. do as You will with Me. make me scream... make me writhe... make me clutch the bed sheets of the sky with all my Might! make me Come to that place in my Heart where there is no shame for wanting that which i truly Desire. could this Flame possibly get any hotter??? yes. brighter? YES! could this Love possibly make me breathe any harder??? yes. deeper? YES! i shall Take and be Taken. i shall Give and be Given. in the cold of Winter, the bright orange flesh of the persimmon in Me is rapidly ripening... i am ready to be D e v o u r e d yep. God's got Me pinned. and as much as i pretend to resist, it's turning me OM!!!!

a song prevails...

ishka — Thu, 28 Dec 2006 05:22:46 GMT

between two sisters: ishtar (goddess of creation and mother of the storm) and ishka (beloved water, truth seeker) a way of dreaming that lives in the hypnogogic moments between emergence and inclusion in the three d world's ways of moving an ocean fighting the rivers that flow into it as surely as the sky shall drink the stars thinking that it is hungry for their healing do we really live this madness? are we really all so simply beautiful and profoundly endangered as all this? yes. but there's nothing wrong with that because we came when we are needed and ready and we offer ourselves as collateral on the lives that shall follow us and be that much more the laden for this handfull we pass to them we are ready. we are graceful and strong and wise. we are wickedly motivated we are viscious in all the right places. you move through me sometimes as a spirit through the articulated shadows of a half lit house, something to conjure a memory of softness and wild grace before dissolving again into mystery. moments in your presence have been precious to me, and the light that shines from you would be the nourishment for a lourney long on purpose and short on provision (that's the professional muse bit, yeah?). sending the blessings and holding space for once again unions eye and, in the face of your Beauty, i fall in Love again and again and again and again fragile. strong. volatile. powerful. dancing, burning, flying, birthing.... i am. would we still know joy in the absence of the madness? surely not. i stand as a pillar of salt, a tribute to dry ocean lands. i draw the waters from within, once again. i sway as the green of her hair does sway. in the tide pools of a crimson bay. mother's voice erupts from my mouth when i close my eyes and surrender the fight. yemaya....yemaya.... pour into me pour out of me pour pour pour i will be there, where the raindrops splash. i will be naked and laughing, with my hands raised and my face ablaze with joy... i will be dancing in praise a roaring shaman stomping out the haze screaming creation with every fibrillating child bearing shake that these hips and feet and hands can make. sweet goddess, i dance with you.