and what a klown she is. If you don't know Jessica Berlin aka Achtung, well, then FUCK YOU. You should die.

srsly.

She said she missed my blogging, so here:

I'm turning 33 in a couple months. I've been working professionally in the theater for 23 of those 33 years. I've had ambitions to follow and careers that opened up in front of me in a business I loved. For the last few years I've been looking ahead and haven't been able to see myself climbing any higher or staying any longer in the arts. I'm burned out, have lost the passion for what I do, have turned cynical, and grown depressed. About a year ago after some soul searching I decided that the next step in my life was open a bar. A bar for my community of creatively inspired counter culture individuals. A bar that was more clubhouse than dive, a place to work on projects, a place where you could name your own drinks, spend hours writing on a couch, join a sewing clatch, draw on the bathroom stalls with markers provided for you to be creative with. Decoupage materials for the walls to be covered with, Monthly themes voted on by the patrons, a gallery to show off the work you made there. A participants bar.

The way my life has worked so far, opportunities have found me, I haven't ever needed to search them out. I've been lucky that way, but it has meant that I never learned how to be proactive about my life. I've been waiting for something to fall into my lap because that is how it has always worked. Well, no longer. I've resolved to quit my job and start looking towards my future. The Season at ACT ends in June and in June I will board a plane with Miss Sparkle Bottom headed for Thailand for vacation and to reset my life. When we get back, I will start bartending at night and working union stagehand calls in the day. Hopefully I'll learn what I don't know about the bar business and start working my way up to managing and then owning a bar as the theater work begins to recede into my past.