This weekend I was visiting the most treasured land in all of California with my fiance lover man baby's daddy and our sweet little doggie. We had been planning this trip for a while and have finally pulled it together on one of my last weekends in town. Its going to be tough being away from Matt for several weeks until he joins me in Hawaii later next month for the birth of our little dolphin girl; but it is all well worth it. Two major highlights: We kissed and made out like we had just met as we snuggled inside each other by our fire under the milky way. I hugged and kissed a 2,200 year old tree and felt the grandious spectrum of DNA shoot into my belly with a gentle caress of plant wisdom ala Sequoia! These were the magical moments that sent love deep into my belly and my heart. The crisp water we swam in at Buckeye Flat, the sandy shore we rested on by the natural waterslide, the giant sequoias we licked and kissed with deep humility and gratitude, the exquisite shits in nature that can only give a "i love you" to your colon and the hikes among the solitude of nature all remind me that I am truly a blessed being walking a most magical path on this planet. It only took us three hours to get there and that makes it all the more feasable to take more time out in this kind of place. This trip gave us inspiration on places where we would love to exchange magical vows when we become married mermaid and sea lion...ahh the trees have left me in love with it all...Thank you Sequoia for your beauty and your pristine surroundings, you have left me so touched and in love with the simplicity of earths many manifestations.

May the Waves fill us with Your Sacred Wisdom
Your Names flow from our tongues in Reverence
Thank You for the Wonderous Experience of Being Alive
We Chant Your Names and are Grateful
Yemaya ~ Sedna ~ Tiamat ~ Oshun ~ Aphrodite ~ Ijemanja ~ Mar ~ Anahita ~ Ningyo ~ Nereids ~
May Your Waters Birth New Life for Eons to Come.

Today (September, 28 2005) I am 215 days ripe and pregnant...2 more lunar months and a week to go and I will breathe down the child...

A little 42 year old dried seahorse from Spain dangles from a piece of curved bamboo above my bed. The fan is blowing a gentle humming breeze in the key of D which makes this seahorse dance. I sit here in this magical place, entranced with all that is alive surrounding me with harmony. I realize I am learning to let go of more everyday within every observation. What gentle humm causes me to dance?

I leave for Hawaii in 19 days and still have to coordinate with a girlfriend the blessingway/baby shower. Hopefully this can all take place in good time. If not I will head to more freeform dancing seahorses to show me the right moves on flowing with this situation.

Tis the season for crystal children to be born onto the planet!

Planning an ocean birth can be overwhelming and unpredictable. The constant change of the universal tides reminds me that my vision is in perpetual motion and I must flow with it. The people who I have come across in my birth journey have too come and gone sharing insight and support as well as fear and doubts. This has been the most common of challanges for me. Presenting my vision, my dream of bringing ariele into a magical place with deep intention and to have it bogged down with a horror story or fear and excruciating caution alludes me. "What if the water is too cold, too polluted, or a wave sweeps your baby away from you? What if you have to go to the hospital and you NEED a C-section? Oh I have a friend who spent 48 hours in labor and she was in the most uncomfortable pain ever! You know your going to hurt right? Birth hurts!" This they all say to me with fear and doubts all hovering presumptuously over their squealing soliloquy. Sometimes I question myself and my motives, and wonder if I am stepping way out of left field. But truly that is just my nature to question things and be diplomatic to even the strangest of strangers. I can be too accomodating at times and allow the empathy of my heart be filled with others all knowing. I always come back to me and my hearts desires after all this and see more clearly that this is just a part of the journey.

In a meditation I recieved divine support and the calmness reasured me that the call of my birth dream and how I have studiously set forth on this course is by a cetacean calling. I am guided by the spirit of dolphins everyday. The desire to be in an ocean while birthing is their calling card, saying to me "Come my dear, be free and let us guide you and Ariele home. We are here to assist you in any way you need. We are here to play." I have no doubts that this is true.

This is the element in which I choose to be rebirthed and tranformed. This is the ebb and flow of the ocean that calms me and soothes me into the highest moment of divine creation. This is the vision I hold so highly in my heart and all over my divine vessel for the world to heal their own birth. The guidance of the universe and all its divine creatures working together through dimensional planes and entry points is carrying me closer to home, closer to the center of the cosmic womb of our planet where gaia, dolphin and creator assist me in a higher state of birth and gratitude.

Namaste