dear mother

last night I experienced how two worlds can merge
making rainbows together in paint
the faint
whisper
of plumeria and rose
under the nose
fingers caressing skin
softly
gently
touching within
the place that is whole
the place that is one
mother and daughter
born of the sun
my heart melts open
my mind rests in peace
the moment was fire
I burned in the heat
of presence filled wonder
gracious angels abound
seeing with eyes closed
the union through sound
light, movement, touch
breath
all as one
feeling my wholeness
star and blood family
One
dancing devotion
singing alive
moving in concert
bees in a hive
we all come from the sun
we all change as the moon
to feel this inside
is to birth from the womb
of Infinite creation
song of the stars
I give thanks for the wisdom
in my cells
in my bones
marrow of my soul
heal with feathers
heal with stone

i am everything

i'm waking up.
experiencing this body that i reside within.
i'm shaking up.
the places that feel stuck. i rock, i jump, i kick, i sway, dancing life into this vessel that yearns to express every feeling, each sensation along my skin, each millimeter of flesh speaking through movement and vibration. there is a way to move where every molecule is acknowledged. i invite my breathe and discover the aliveness that is always here.

tonight under the moon i felt afraid. feeling so much, my heart felt like it might burst. i felt overwhelmed as i imagined myself continuing to open, feeling myself deeper and deeper. as i breathed, i saw and felt images of my life, the people and the stuff that is present for me right now passed through my awareness. as i felt each passing thing, i experienced a feeling of immensity. feeling the whoa-ness of my life, i questioned my capacity to embrace it all, to feel it, be with it, open fully to what is here. i pray for courage, for strength to be with the places that scare me.


i stopped wearing shoes. i want to feel the earth beneath my feet. within me is a mantra 'i touch the earth, the earth touches me.'

i'm learning about love. what it is. learning to give and receive love freely. seeing my expectations and my attachments, learning how to let go. learning how to love and accept myself fully. how do i reside in my center, expressing my wholeness in the world? as i expand into this love within myself, i feel what it is to love another. my whole being yearns for them to be free to express who they truly are, for them to thrive.

i know what i want.
i want freedom in this life. to embrace it all. sea of molecules. we are one body. may this body be a strong, open, clear and vital vessel for spirit to sing through, to dance through, to touch through, and to play.

water

inside, there is a place that knows
feeling home
point of stillness
the ocean is full of fury
a zillion drops of possibility
all swishing and swirling around one another
foreheads, elbows, bellies, and thumbs
feeling into this fluid body
life sensing life
water moves
so i too must move
to know
the water
i am

This is How I Find Compassion

"This is how I find compassion:
I stand between a tree and the sun.
I remain until I can find the luminescence in Aspen bark.
I continue because I seek the core of truth in every being.

This is how I find grace:
I surrender to water.
I surrender to the rock.
I observe sensations on the surface of my skin.

This is how I practice gratitude:
I peel a tangerine.
I give away all its quarter moon sections,
Allowing the fruit of service to introduce me to strangers.

With open palms,
I walk into the fire of life.
The soul needs no shelter from the sun.
I remember that everything is a part of me.

In my world,
I seek the divinity of all things.
Finding an eagle feather on the corner of mystery,
I pick it up, holding it between my body and the sun."

- Celeste Labadie, 2003

to my beautiful star family

thank you for being the light that you are
i feel enriched and supported knowing we walk this earth together
i love you

becoming

"I am impeccable.
I am your teacher.
You will become impeccable also
and you will wonder how it is
you have lived so long without this skill.

Impeccable means absolute economy of energy.
There is precision and care in all action
and tremendous presence without depletion.
There is depth of knowing from within
and this is expressed with ease and simplicity.

There is order and purpose in this skill
and the function is to create a pattern
that promotes wholeness and health
with expansiveness of vision.

Take responsibility for your life!
Impeccable means cut out
what you don't want
and put into yourself what you do want
with every thought, word and deed."

Denise T. Barry

now

bits of morning caught
between eyelashes
black tumbled sparrow specks
fall through snow