OK, so I let go.
I gave up and set you free.
Be happy.
Be glad.
I've henceforth been replaced.

By a newer, better, I'm sure more slender model.
I hope she makes you happy.
I hope she reminds you of me
Then I hope it makes you fucking sad.

Wasted three years chasing dreams.
Why couldn't you be the strong one.
And let me go?
You needy shit.
Played off my insecurities, for your own passion.

I hope that when you find pieces of me laying around your house.
You cry.
Because y... read more

I miss SF. A lot. I love where I live, but I haven't really had the chance to meet people (not for my lack of trying) but I think my socialization skills fell out the winder when I started new meds and my brother dying.

I'm always afraid people are going to say "get over it" when getting "over it" is so far off target for me right now.

Especially since I found a ton of photos of him that were taken when he was my roommate when I lived in Vacaville. I guess taking my hard drive out of my... read more

I don't want to be an only child anymore.
I want my brother back. It was ok, when I figured I'd only see him once every three years or so. I knew he was alive, somewhere, and he'd call and check in with my parents.

Now he sits in a box in the cabinet because of a foolish mistake and people he decided to trust.

Never trust.

I just want to see him once and hug him.

With the So Cal wild fires, it reminds me of him. Because I know that he was on his way to being a firefighter and str... read more

I made the mistake of checking the "dating on demand" that comcast has. Just scoping to see the desperate souls Portland has to offer.

As I browsed my age group I almost fell out of my chair. I would have thought I stumbled onto Comedy Central. I'm not desperate. Just humorusly curious.

Good gods, dating is going to be rough. Are there any good looking, non-creepy, creative geeky types that won't search for places to bury my body out here?

It's a good thing I'm taking an extended mou... read more