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What is in YOUR air??

katenexile — Mon, 08 Jan 2007 10:29:16 GMT

Here is a site to check out--- www.scorecard.org If the url does not come through, here it is written out-- www dot scorecard dot org. Even if you are not environmentally conscious, check out this site. It is like this: We have but this one planet on which to live and squabble and she is in trouble. And she needs the help of everyone--but especially of those able to wield a pencil and influence others. I hold all of you accountable to help--you are too intelligent to not carry this out! Arguments regarding politics are always great, but without the planet, it is really a moot point. This site tells you what is happening in YOUR community. Maybe the only way to get people to take these things seriously is to hit them at home--right where they live. Make a differnce! Start helping the planet and in doing so, you will be helping yourself. Recall the ripple effect when a stone falls into a pond of still water. Be that first ripple!! At the end of the site, it lists people to notify--excellent resource! Kate who does want world peace to coincide with the planet's demise!

Uncle Bosco

katenexile — Sun, 01 Oct 2006 14:30:33 GMT

Hmmm. . . . I was asked if we were related! Yes, in the sense that we both feel strongly about our rights as citizens. I probably know him by his real name--and not by Uncle Bosco!!! I am part of repeal-aumf.org---though I contribute less through writing and more through one to one interaction. A grass roots movement starts by one person telling another, and then that person tells someone---and before long, a lot of people are talking about it. That is the only way to get this shameful law repealed. So tell someone! It works! http://www.repeal-aumf.org Repeal before it is too late!! Kate

Working politics

katenexile — Sun, 20 Aug 2006 21:52:46 GMT

It has been suggested that everyone donate to the "anti- Lieberman" campaign by sending funds to the other guy whose name escapes me right now. This is an important election. Leiberman is a Bush minion---and all that fine oil money is being pumped into that campaign. Make your opinion count--you can do this on-line--even use paypal. If we never speak out, we definitely will not be heard! Kate http://www.repeal-aumf.org Correct the Mistake!

Update on grandchild

katenexile — Sun, 20 Aug 2006 21:45:43 GMT

He went to see a pediatric neurologist this week--told my daughter he seemed like a happy child. And then ordered an EEG and MRI. I will not have results before 9-22-06. He still does not have his appointment with the pediatric orthopedic physician at the Shriners Hosp--but that is also coming soon. Thanks for all your prayers and positive energy. Keep them coming!! He is not out the woods yet! Thanks again to everyone! Kate

Politics

katenexile — Sun, 06 Aug 2006 00:46:38 GMT

I am a member of an organization called repeal-aumf.org. Basically we just formed to fight this wonderful law taking away our civil rights. If you are interested or know of political site (regardless of slant), please let me know. I am doing research for the group. Kate

2 weeks of Hell

katenexile — Sun, 06 Aug 2006 00:41:10 GMT

Many of you know that I was more than a little concerned about my grandchild--but when he went for his 2 year old checkup and the pediatrician wanted to test him for Muscular Dystrophy--I was not even prepared for that possibility. The tests involved waiting for 2 weeks for results--you can imagine the fear, the worry. Finally received those results yesterday--and no, he does not have it. Now begins the battery of tests to find out what is wrong--bless his little heart. I wish he did not have to go through any of this. But the only way to help him is to determine what is causing the problems. Kate

Death of a Friend

katenexile — Tue, 27 Jun 2006 12:52:07 GMT

It was a very long time ago that I met Alvin and Edward at one of my gay friend's parties. They were both unique and very cool. Much later they split up--mainly due to Edward (I think I am remembering correctly)--He had Aids--and did not want to expose Alvin. Alvin was pretty much a mess after that--and then Edward died. It was during this time this individual came into Alvin's life--and forever changed him, unfortunely, not for the positive. He no longer spoke to lifelong friends. I never saw him again. Today, out of the blue, I re-contacted with the person that had that party so many years ago. She told me that Alvin had died--no, not Aids. He committed suicide--after that person he met so long ago --and stayed with him for nearly 20 years--abandoned him for an internet lover. I was shocked and saddened. Alvin was a vital, energetic, creative, and highly successful individual. I mourn his leaving this planet--but more than that I mourn that he lost his way and let emotions rule his judgement by renouncing his friends. When he needed them the most, they none knew it. And he chose to die. The person that left him so cruelly and abruptly--well, I know Karma has something planned for him. What goes around really does come back around. So Mote It Be. As for the close friends of yesterday--they are left with memories--and wishes that a call had been made. As for me, he died the night of the nightmare--explains the dream so completely. Needing to call out and being unable to do so. Kate

Dream

katenexile — Sun, 25 Jun 2006 12:44:34 GMT

I dreamed I was sick--I felt so bad,weak--I managed to get out of bed only to collapse on the floor. I finally got up but lay back down in bed again, just too weak to manage walking. I fell back asleep--but awakened feeling sick, dizzy. I got up slowly this time--made it nearly to bedroom door--fainted--hit the floor with a thud--I could hear the sound, but too out of it to feel it. I awake on the floor--pulling myself to a standing position using a chair, finally make it to the living room--only to literally run into this person who had broke into the house and T. was asleep-- and I was trying to scream--and the only thing I could get were mouse squeaks. And then I woke up--what a scarey nightmare!! I was so glad it was daylight--brushed the cobwebs of the dream away. kate

My sister

katenexile — Wed, 21 Jun 2006 06:40:35 GMT

My sister and I are so much opposites--I was writing someone about her and it took me back to when she and her ex split up, divorced. He went out and bought a four bed-room house and a sports-car--and cried when his 20 year sec dumped him. My sister secluded herself away from everyone. She was afraid she couldn;t handle the day to day things without him--she could: I knew she could--but she had to learn she could. She took up her free time by working in the yard. The yard was a dump--it had not any attention--her ex had gotten rid of most grass cause he didn't want to mow it--it was a truly ugly yard. And she started working in it--a little every day. She discoved a brick grill and patio are at the back of the yard--and it was coverd in a lot of dirt. She started digging this patio up--spending now hours every day--going into detail about how neat it looked as she uncovered each brick and carefully cleaned each one. She told me that she must be nuts to spend so much time digging in the yard--and I replied "Don't you know what you are doing here--this is by far the sanest thing you have ever done--you aren't digging up a patio. You are digging up your life. You are finally allowing yourself space just to be you in" That was so many years ago---but you should see her yard--She lives outside of DC--but her yard is so lush, green with flowers growing wildly all about. It is a peaceful place--she is a peaceful person. All her inner self is reflected in that yard. Kate

Perceptions

katenexile — Mon, 19 Jun 2006 13:05:52 GMT

For some reason this individual that I wrote to in cyberland has attenpted to harrass me by attaching a copy of the private email I sent him---which now I am really glad I sent--to all my blog entries. Is that not so childish and immature. He must not have anything better to do. And it shows how little he knows of me. Anyone that would do this over one letter--It is beyond me. I have so much patience in this. I know my Sun Tzu well and have practiced these tactics for years. On the upside--I have met some individuals that are interesting and have enjoyed corresponding with them. People think you can say anything in cyberland--but there are real people connected to the words. And sometimes they are not what you thought them to be. My post to him was actually a challegne, a throwing down of the gauntlet so to speak. He responded in pettiness and that is all I need to know about him. His perception is so out of focus. There is difference between the calling of a spade as a spade and being judgmental. I do not back down from anything I said. His actions have let me know that he definitely had it coming. He is so accustomed to those who believe his every word---has he never met one person who could see clean through him before? I find that to be amazing. His perceptions and my perceptions are definitely in 2 separate worlds. And that is good. Today is Monday--a litlle early to be hearing from the job interview of a week ago. And I have a few more to contact via phone and fax today. It would so easy to do another travel assignment--but postponing what I really want to do. This is the time for me to stop travelling. I know it. My jewelry is selling well in the gallery--I am surprised and yet not. I have made over 300.00 in one night just selling jewelry--so I knew it would sell---but there areas I want to expand into that I cannot and be on the road. I want a kiln so I can started creating my own silver beads and designs and I want to master art of polymer clay bead making. There are some awesome polymer clay beads; I did not realize what all you could do with it until I visited the glassactic.com site. I have wanting to learn how to do it since then. In the span of not-working time, it has been such pleasure to reconnect with poetry--my first passion--again. All for now--morning comes as dancing light through the trees in this mountain town. Kate

The power of words

katenexile — Sat, 17 Jun 2006 12:05:25 GMT

Words contain such explosive power. Sometimes I forget that lesson. I wrote a letter to someone out there--I do not know his real name--and yes, I could have been more gentle in the expression of my opinions--but I felt if I did that, he would not pay attention. Let's just say I achieved my goal and ticked him off. Well, all I have to say about that is he should not worry about what others think--but he obviously does--so he is not sure as he would have himself appear. I did write him back--a small novel--but the Universe would not let me send it. So that I will listen to. Maybe he is not the person to hear what I have to say at this time. It is by letting go of attachments to others that one moves towards enlightment. AM I THERE? No--but I have moments when I am totally there. But there all the time-- that is difficult. We "attach" ourselves to so many things-- I am very attached to my grandson, my daughter, my significant other, and my cat. I have friends that I have shared huge parts of my life with--and I am attached to them. But if at any time, I thought my attachment was not good for their growth, I would walk away. The sun is painting the leaves with gold. Time for me to live this day. Kate (6-17-06)

poetry

katenexile — Sun, 11 Jun 2006 16:48:33 GMT

I am starting my poetry group--PassionForPoetry--up again. I have been enjoying writing, researching--not often I get a chance to delve into writing as I have recently. It is good to have a break from working and just live a bit. My jewelry is all packed up--so I cannot take up time with that. (I needed a break from it also). I am reading quite a bit on the web--something else that has been neglected. more later--kate

Between worlds

katenexile — Sun, 11 Jun 2006 06:33:52 GMT

I have been a travel nurse for 9 years--in the last 2 years, we have started to remodel a house and being on the road has ceased to be fun. So I am looking for a real job. I am planning to stay in one place. This is a strange feeling--looking for a job, being unemployed (for a while)-- Now the thunder rumbles, fresh rain falls lending sweetness to the breeze. My cat watches the night as I watch my cat. kate

insomnia continued

katenexile — Wed, 17 May 2006 09:02:03 GMT

All the house is rocked in sleep, peaceful rhythmic snores, cat cuddles--but I am awake and deeply troubled. My grandson will soon be 2 years old. He does not talk. There are times when I question his hearing--but then I see him responding appropriately to sound. He did not walk until about 18 mos. He does not mimic the adults around him. He does not point or wave. And he has unusual way of holding his arms when he walks. He holds them up, with elbows bent towards shoulders and his hands are just sort of there. I am afraid he is autistic. I have tried to be positive. But it does not look optimistic at this point. My daughter takes him back to MD at 2 YO-- She had already said (because he was so behind at 18 month check up) that had he not "caught up" by age 2, that she would do testing. I think this has more to do with my insomnia than my cat. kate

Insomnia

katenexile — Tue, 16 May 2006 10:08:41 GMT

Waking at 0500 after going to sleep at 0230 has got to quit. Tell that to my cat who does it insistantly night after night, You ever tried to keep a cat awake during the day so it will sleep at night. Forget about it! They are masters at napping and snoozing--like the apt term cat-nap! She is a cool cat--was a rescue kitty in the beginning, pitiful scrawny kitten who slept in nasty briar patches to defend herself against the dogs. When I found that out, inside she came. Once she felt secure, she blossomed. And once past malnutrition her fur just kept growing--and I discovered she was a MaineCoon cat complete with particular mannerisms--like washing all four paws in her water bowl! She is a character. kate