Brain Rain

First Two Weeks

kenji — Mon, 21 Jul 2008 22:14:38 GMT

I got here on 7/5/08 after moving out of my home in Sacramento, CA. I have a lot to feel within myself. I went from daily 'community' at Esalen, to..., very little community so I guess I'm feeling some culture shock. I have a 'new' life with no home to return to, so, this is another shock. At Dreamland it's mostly Japanese fpeople (be careful for what you wish for ;-) so there not much English to be heard so I guess that could be called culture shock # II. My laptop died a few days before I got here and took over ten days to get repaired and sent to me. It died again yesterday (arghh!) I guess you can say the landing (my arrival) has been a little rough, but... There are mango trees, papaya trees, avocado trees, banana trees so it's a yummy place to have a 'rough landing'. It is a perfect place practice speaking Japanese ( I have been lazy) More later...

Goodbye California.....

kenji — Wed, 16 Jul 2008 08:20:57 GMT

..... hello Hawaii whatever that means... Things keep unfolding. I can hardly keep up with my life. Scary Exciting Hmmmm Hopefully I'll post more later Love To You All, in the far reaches of this blue marble www.hawaiidreamland.com

Love showed herself....

kenji — Sat, 24 May 2008 23:23:54 GMT

...to me, briefly.... Jet Black Hair, Almond Eyes and an Ageless Spirit She was here for a Time, and then gone to Far Away Lands She returned one other time, Intense, and..., Sweet Was it, is it ‘meant to be’, still remains Unknown I feel the need to Embody a fuller life of Gratitude and Love Maybe then Obstacles will be Removed and the way will Open for Love Whatever form She may take

In the space between my breath

kenji — Wed, 07 Nov 2007 01:25:02 GMT

. . . In the space between my breath I find soreness and ease, lungs long lost, ribs that move…, or not I feel great, alive and…, dead to the old There is peace and serenity, a calm long forgotten – primal In the space between my breath There is a beast who slumbers, good or bad, I do not know but he smiles as he sleeps Or as I sleep – awake. I meet a dog there sometimes; he too smiles as he slumbers. Why these smiles, I do not know, perhaps a secret I’m not privy to…, yet In the space between my breath There is snow…, unfallen In the space between my breath I find bread, old and rotten, yet there is a sweet smell, of death? No, I believe somehow it is of life growing anew. Now……, here’s what I don’t quite get in this vision, what does bread have to do with breath except possibly a misspelling so I believe I’ll just simply change the word to breath… just in case I misheard myself. Maybe this is a pattern, we shall see… In the space between my breath There are ghosts of those who have passed, they enter in the inhale and depart on the exhale, leaving their imprint, for a moment…, or two… In the space between my breath There is a darkness seen and known only by me. None other can see this because I am shiny on the outside.

In The Flow..

kenji — Mon, 09 Jul 2007 18:50:50 GMT

So I will stay here at Esalen in Big Sur, CA... I have been accepted to the 1 year work-study program at Esalen and I am excited (with some trepidation) and look forward to a year of growth. Working & settling back into my body as well as growing from the inside out, digging deep in a place that allows it. ~Nurtured~ by the Sea, by the Land, by the People. It is way past the time for me to regroup. I've shared precious little of the turbulent past year. I feel beaten and tired but definitely not defeated. The hard times have produced wondrous growth and lessons that will be the foundation for my next adventures in life. Already the stage is set with new folk that have already crossed my path reinforcing the value of interdependence. I am hoping some will choose to visit as it is a great place to see (so contact me if you're up for it) When I finally do leave.., I hope to bring a contagious loving attitude and energy to all encounter. I look forward to where my feet will land next (possibly Japan, HI, CA-SF, AZ & OR) and have high hopes of meeting many of you face to face so I can truly know you beyond the cyber & energetic connection we already have. I will have spotty access to the net so if you want to connect via that avenue, please be patient. ---> I truly have LOVE for those I have connected with as fellow sojourners on this planet. Take care, and…, namaste (which as I understand it – means the god in me acknowledges and recognizes the god in you)

This Momentous Day

kenji — Mon, 19 Feb 2007 02:33:22 GMT

Four years ago today was when I almost left this plane when I wrecked my motorcycle*. Today, I so wanted to celebrate life with someone(or someones, even anyone) but when I looked around, I found I have no friends. My 'prewreck' life was spent running business and making the 'good life' so coveted by the world but in doing this solo ended up making me an unintentional hermit, which is the oppisite of who I am. To date, post-wreck life has been a time of trials & blessing, of dreams dieing, of learning & growing but still..., the isolation, both by where I live and a lack of a circle of friends. I feel great things on the horizon but it has been a year of limbo. I am lost and lonely. I need laughter, conversation. touch, motion, action, community, you know..., the give and take of it all - the energy of beings in close proximity of each other. So any advice (other than 'get out there' because I don't know where 'there' is) and insights would be appreciated because I feel caged and trapped though I know I am free * http://people.tribe.net/kenji/blog/ac3980ee-495b-4baa-bd27-10a61b560635

New Light Being

kenji — Thu, 18 Jan 2007 20:01:41 GMT

Originally I was going to keep this to myself out of fear of judgment, both of me, the child and the couple involved but I felt so blessed for being part of their journey that I wanted to share. I was the sperm donor for an awesome lesbian couple who had their little girl on January 6th 2007. They are so excited and in love with this child that I can't help but smile. They have committed to send me pictures now and then as she grows. I ask you send good energy the child's way that she will be the nexus of light for the family

100 quotes from "The Secret"

kenji — Tue, 16 Jan 2007 17:54:37 GMT

Food for Thought ~kenji 1. We all work with one infinite power 2. The Secret is the Law of Attraction (LOA) 3. Whatever is going on in your mind is what you are attracting 4. We are like magnets - like attract like. You become AND attract what you think 5. Every thought has a frequency. Thoughts send out a magnetic energy 6. People think about what they don't want and attract more of the same 7. Thought = creation. If these thoughts are attached to powerful emotions (good or bad) that speeds the creation 8. You attract your dominant thoughts 9. Those who speak most of illness have illness; those who speak most of prosperity have it… etc. 10. Its not "wishful" thinking. 11. You can't have a universe without the mind entering into it 12. Choose your thoughts carefully… you are a masterpiece of your life 13. Its OK that thoughts don't manifest into reality immediately (if we saw a picture of an elephant and it instantly appeared, that would be too soon) 14. EVERYTHING in your life you have attracted … accept that fact… it's true. 15. Your thoughts cause your feelings 16. We don't need to complicate all the "reasons" behind our emotions. It's much simpler than that. Two categories: good feelings and bad feelings. 17. Thoughts that bring about good feelings mean you are on the right track. Thoughts that bring about bad feelings means you are not on the right track. 18. Whatever it is you are feeling is a perfect reflection of what is in the process of becoming 19. You get exactly what you are FEELING 20. Happy feelings will attract more happy circumstances 21. You can begin feeling whatever you want (even if it’s not there)… the universe will correspond to the nature of your song 22. What you focus on with your thought and feeling is what you attract into your experience 23. What you think and what you feel and what actually manifests is ALWAYS a match - no exception 24. Shift your awareness 25. "You create your own universe as you go along" Winston Churchill 26. It's important to feel good ( ( ( (((good))) ) ) ) 27. You can change your emotion immediately... by thinking of something joyful, or singing a song, or remembering a happy experience 28. When you get the hang of this, before you know it you will KNOW you are the creator 29. Life can and should be phenomenal ... and it will be when you consciously apply the Law of Attraction 30. Universe will re-arrange itself accordingly 31. Start by using this sentence for all of your wants: "I'm so happy and grateful now that.... " 32. You don't need to know HOW the universe is going to rearrange itself 33. LOA is simply figuring out for yourself what will generate the positive feelings of having it NOW 34. You might get an inspired thought or idea to help you move towards what you want faster 35. The universe likes SPEED. Don't delay, don’t second-guess, don't doubt... 36. When the opportunity or impulse is there... ACT 37. You will attract everything you require - money, people, connections... PAY ATTENTION to what's being set in front of you 38. You can start with nothing... and out of nothing or no way - a WAY will be provided. 39. HOW LONG??? No rules on time... the more aligned you are with positive feelings the quicker things happen 40. Size is nothing to the universe (unlimited abundance if that's what you wish). We make the rules on size and time 41. No rules according to the universe... you provide the feelings of having it now and the universe will respond 42. Most people offer the majority of their thought in response to what they are observing (bills in the mail, being late, having bad luck, etc...) 43. You have to find a different approach to what is through a different vantage point 44. "All that we are is a result of what we have thought" - Buddha 45. What can you do right now to turn your life around?? Gratitude 46. Gratitude will bring more into our lives immediately 47. What we think about and THANK about is what we bring about 48. What are the things you are grateful for?? Feel the gratitude... Focus on what you have right now that you are grateful for 49. Play the picture in your mind - focus on the end result 50. VISUALIZE!!! Rehearse your future 51. VISUALIZE!!! See it, feel it! This is where action begins 52. Feel the joy... feel the happiness :o) 53. An affirmative thought is 100 times more powerful than a negative one 54. "What this power is, I cannot say. All I know is that it exists." Alexander Graham Bell 55. Our job is not to worry about the "How". The "How" will show up out of the commitment and belief in the "what" 56. The How’s are the domain of the universe. It always knows the quickest, fastest, most harmonious way between you and your dream 57. If you turn it over to the universe, you will be surprised and dazzled by what is delivered... this is where magic and miracles happen 58. Turn it over to the universe daily... but it should never be a chore. 59. Feel exhilarated by the whole process... high, happy, in tune 60. The only difference between people who are really living this way is they have habituated ways of being. 61. They remember to do it all the time 62. Create a Vision Board... pictures of what you want to attract... every day look at it and get into the feeling state of already having acquired these wants 63. "Imagination is everything. It is the preview of life's coming attractions." Albert Einstein 64. Decide what you want... believe you can have it, believe you deserve it, believe it’s possible for you 65. Close your eyes and visualize having what you already want - and the feeling of having it already. 66. Focus on being grateful for what you have already..., enjoy it!! Then release into the universe. The universe will manifest it. 67. "Whatever the mind of man can conceive, it can achieve" W. Clement Stone 68. Set a goal so big that if you achieved it, it would blow your mind. 69. When you have an inspired thought, you must trust it and act on it. 70. How can you become more prosperous?? INTEND IT!! 71. 'Checks are coming in the mail regularly'... or change your bank statement to whatever balance you want in there... and get behind the feeling of having it. 72. Life is meant to be abundant in ALL areas... 73. Go for the sense of inner joy and peace then all outside things appear 74. We are the creators of our universe 75. Relationships: Treat yourself the way you want to be treated by others... love yourself and you will be loved 76. Healthy respect for yourself 77. For those you work with or interact with regularly... get a notebook and write down positive aspects of each of those people. 78. Write down the things you like most about them (don't expect change from them). Law of attraction will not put you in the same space together if you frequencies don’t match 79. When you realize your potential to feel good, you will ask no one to be different in order for you to feel good. 80. You will free yourself from the cumbersome impossibilities of needing to control the world, your friends, your mate, your children.... 81. You are the only one that creates your reality 82. No one else can think or feel for you... its YOU... ONLY YOU. 83. Health: thank the universe for your own healing. Laugh, stress free happiness will keep you healthy. 84. Immune system will heal itself 85. Parts of our bodies are replaced every day, every week, etc... Within a few years we have a brand new body 86. See yourself living in a new body. Hopeful = recovery. Happy = happier biochemistry. Stress degrades the body. 87. Remove stress from the body and the body regenerates itself. You can heal yourself 88. Learn to become still... and take your attention away from what you don't want, and place your attention on what you wish to experience 89. When the voice and vision on the inside become more profound and clear than the opinions on the outside, then you have mastered your life 90. You are not here to try to get the world to be just as you want it. You are here to create the world around you that you choose. 91. And allow the world as others choose to see it, exist as well 92. People think that if everyone knows the power of the LOA there won’t be enough to go around... This is a lie that's been ingrained in us and makes so many greedy. 93. The truth is there is more than enough love, creative ideas, power, joy, happiness to go around. 94. All of this abundance begins to shine through a mind that is aware of its own infinite nature. There's enough for everyone. See it. Believe it. it will show up for you. 95. So let the variety of your reality thrill you as you choose all the things you want... get behind the good feelings of all your wants. 96. Write your script. When you see things you don't want, don't think about them, write about them, talk about them, push against them, or join groups that focus on the don't wants... remove your attention from don't wants…, and place them on do wants 97. We are mass energy. Everything is energy. EVERYTHING. 98. Don't define yourself by your body... it's the infinite being that's connected to everything in the universe. 99. One energy field. Our bodies have distracted us from our energy. We are the infinite field of unfolding possibilities - the creative force. 100. Are your thoughts worthy of you? If not - NOW is the time to change them. You can begin right were you are right now. Nothing matters but this moment and what you are focusing your attention on.

Nine Insights

kenji — Thu, 04 Jan 2007 19:47:15 GMT

I'm reading a book that is so resonating with me that I had to share. I find that how it came to my hands is very interesting.... First, it was recommended by my daughter (we seem to be walking parallel spiritual paths) Then, a few days later a friend brought over the just released movie (which only whet my appetite) so I plan to buy the book. Later, while at my desk, I look over at my bookshelf and there's not only one, but two copies sitting there (inherited from my mother – bless her for the magic I never saw in her) but they were 'invisible' til the moment I wanted/needed one of them. Hmmm... coincidence? Now here's the kicker, five minutes before writing this blog, I find out there's a follow-up book 'The Tenth Insight'. I immediately plan to get it so on a whim, I look over at my 'magical' bookshelf, and.., there it lies. Wow, The Universe has a message for me don’t ya think. Maybe you too. Oh, as I review my post, I realize that I haven't shared the book name: The Celestine Prophesy' by James Redfield

Spirituality, Purity & Worthiness

kenji — Tue, 19 Dec 2006 20:40:20 GMT

The image of a person wrapped in flowing, pure white robes that gently dance in a slight breeze of unknown origins, a face lit by beams of light piercing the clouds, surely an outer indication of the light held within seems to be synonymous with spirituality. Hmmmm, sounds a little like crap to me, or at the least a little too Hollywood-esque. One of the spiritual greats, JC (that’d be that Jesus dude) is depicted as above but as I recall he was a carpenter. Anyway, as I remember it, good ol’ JC is sitting there in his blue jeans (carpenters wear those you know…), drinkin’ beer (ok maybe it was wine) chillin’ with some plain ol’ human folk. They were perfect humans…, perfectly imperfect simply living in the moment. In barges some religious folk who start hassling him because he’s hangin’ out with the (seemingly) dregs of society. Well JC says “Hey religious dudes, you’re missin’ the point. It’s the inside that counts and all it really boils down to is LOVE, self love, love of others and love of creation. You all need to grow up and stop tryin’ to stuff folk into you narrow little box. Buh-bye” Some of the most spiritual people I know are ‘rough around the edges’. Interestingly, people cross our path, being in our lives for a reason. They may be here to be our Teacher (or we theirs), our Lover, our Healer (or we theirs), our Refuge (or we theirs), our Guide (or we theirs). We need to loose our very own versions ‘religiousness’ The only spiritual tool you need is LOVE. So if you feel grotesque, profane, unworthy (whatever label you’ve been wearing), remember it may have value to someone who needs to under stand Love but will only be able to receive love from someone who speaks grotesque –ese. We simply should strive to be who we are, any change needed for your highest good, happens naturally, organically (so to speak). If we do change with intention it is because we desire to do so (from the inside out) rather than the other way around Enjoy the Ride

Hot Cocoa

kenji — Mon, 18 Dec 2006 23:23:22 GMT

It's been so frikkin' cold that I needed to get me something Hot & Yummy… …to drink…, what were you thinking - I'm talkin' Hot Chocolate, really ! :-) I've been trying to get away from refined sugar and other such gunk so I in my quest decided to stay away from any 'prepackaged' stuff. Below is the fruit of my culinary labors. I used organic and raw wherever I could. kenji's Hot Cocoa 12 oz milk 2 heaping teaspoons of cacao powder 2 rounded teaspoons honey 1 teaspoon molasses 1/4 teaspoon vanilla extract 1/4 teaspoon instant coffee 1/4 teaspoon coconut oil Blend everything in a saucepan (I used one of those hand blender). Heat until it starts foaming (boiling) up. Pull off the heat just before it boils over. Let set for 15 seconds and put back on the heat one more time, pulling off again just before it boils over again. Done. Serve and let cool til it's the right temp for you. If you’re used to marshmallows, well…, I don’t know what to tell ya ;-)

Insight Taking Flight

kenji — Wed, 29 Nov 2006 07:37:51 GMT

I am all grown up Said the caterpillar While cocooning against the world Funny how.. Some cocoons dry up and blow away Others stay mummies forever Yet… Some change becoming a new child With glorious wings to fly, to fly So it turns out I never really did grow up I just changed, aspiring to become the Pan Again…, In Technicolor, Multidimensional And Innocent ~kenji <I posted the above as a comment in a friends blog and was compelled to share it within mine own>

The Shells We Wear

kenji — Tue, 14 Nov 2006 20:52:40 GMT

I struggle sometimes. When you look at the big picture we are here on Earth for a relatively short amount of time wearing our shells (or ‘earth suits’) and loose out on SO MUCH because SO MANY look at the shells rather than what is inside. We rob ourselves of meeting, and, getting to know many wondrous souls because of this. AGE A couple months back I met this girl in class. Things mutually clicked (& sparked). We shared lunch together, and…., we met up the next weekend enjoying the company, conversation & connection until we discover she thought I was 10 years younger and I thought she was 10 years older. Instantly there’s a twenty plus year age gap and she puts up a wall. We still talk… I have known old souls who were 14 and young souls who were 84. Except for some ‘practical things (family, kids. Etc.) that probably should be considered I just don’t get it. GENDER I’ve had the privilege of meeting awesome girls that were lesbians and awesome guys that were gay. I’m so blessed and have been enriched to know (or have known) them all. I have yet to meet a guy that ‘rocks my world’ (and one of the features of my shell is that I truly enjoy how the male & female body fit together) but I imagine I would explore it if it were to happen. I also have been accused of being a lesbian in a mans body. Do with that what you will. Again, I don’t get it. RACE Geez, do I really need to type anything here. Get over it already. The rainbow of delightful souls I’ve met stuns me and that this still is an issue for some still throws me off. I’m sure I’ve missed other elements of our shells but you get the point. Thanks for bearing with me. I’m having a WTF day. ~kenji <pic - Out of the Shell ~ Bridgid Marlin>

The Haps (long overdue) - short but sweet (readme, readme, readme...)

kenji — Sat, 14 Oct 2006 20:29:51 GMT

Things I don't seem to get to do often: - blog - post photos - get in front of a camera - post in tribes So... If you're reading this, now you've seen a new PIC taken this very day - and yes that is my natural hair... gone wild. I'll be putting a couple more in my profile (note to Miss Ivydewdrop - we should get together and compare notes on manes :-) And the UPDATE part, I found a financial partner to finally put the land deal to rest (ideally we'd like a third person and the request has been put out to the Universe). I finally realize that the speed of which things progress from here is entirely up to the Universe and I'm doing my best to surrender to it's natural pace I'd love to have a few of my Tribemates COME VISIT and share some good times before the nice weather goes away (maybe we all could even get out from behind our cameras <and the masks we wear> to take pix of one another) Plus, I even got around to a few posts in sum-o-my-tribes (seen in my 'inside to out' module) - YAY Big Love & Blessings to You All ~kenji

Where's my crystal ball...

kenji — Sun, 23 Jul 2006 23:15:55 GMT

OK, timing is everything but I'm getting frustrated & I'm loosing heart. I feel things are karmicly ok so I'm so at a loss My houses are on the market and I NEED them to sell to pay off the land as ALL is at risk now Arghhh So, If you're reading this my fellow tribesters, the following are some things you could do for me. Do all - Do one - Do none, it's all good... 1) Hold Space (pray, divinate, whatever your belief) that things break loose and the houses are swiftly sold and the transition is complete 2) Peruse my blogs and see if you or someone you know would like to become partners in the 40 acre, off grid Healing Retreat & Intentional Community I see happening there 3) Get the word out to investors or those on the verge of relocating of these two lovely, 2 year young, houses are on the market (Sacramento & Beale AFB are within 30 mins) Pix to any who want them All done venting now Please look at the latest pix and maybe you'll understand a little more Namaste

Tagged… you may be next – Read on...

kenji — Fri, 16 Jun 2006 05:08:10 GMT

I can’t believe I’m doing this... and to think I believed I would escape this epidemic unscathed, but, I was tagged by DonNah. RULES - Once you've been tagged, you have to write a blog with 8 facts/things/habits about yourself, saying who tagged you. In the end you need to choose 6 people to be tagged and list their names. No tag backs. So... 8 things better left alone (read at your own risk) 1) I was in the Navy for a total of 10 months - we just didn't get along 2) I was married young being more in love with the idea of being married than in love with her. We're still friends 3) I like tomboys. A lot. Half the time they turn out to be gay. (WTF???) 4) My first car was an old beater Datsun P/U (they call 'em Nissans these days). Such memories… 5) I used to 'smoke' my lunch in High School 6) I thought I was gay for a time in my younger years but it turned out that I really (really, really) like girls. Yum 7) I can taste if someone has stirred food cooked in an aluminum pot with a metal spoon 8) I'm a donor for an expecting lesbian couple So with love and playfulness I’d like to tag Satya ~ivyness~ Felicity nynke tumewa Spookee You can run but please don’t hide ;-)

Human Touch

kenji — Tue, 13 Jun 2006 16:01:25 GMT

It’s been over a year and a half Since someone has been in my life. I miss the human touch – plain and simple In passing, In resting, And, In intimacy I miss the taste of words as they pass my lips In conversations, Communications, And, Expressions of the heart I miss the company of a kindred spirit Seeing what I see Hearing what I hear And, The exchange of energies I look forward to the time When a She again enters my life. ~kenji

Geminian Friends…

kenji — Mon, 22 May 2006 15:51:32 GMT

...I was just wondering, with the unintentional multitude of friends I have here, who amongst you are Geminis. I feel that there are more of you than I might first guess because that seems to be the way of things (or should I double the number because of our dualistic nature). So, my birthday is this weekend. When is yours.....?

Judgement vs. Discernment

kenji — Sun, 14 May 2006 23:37:13 GMT

I thought I'd pass this along from Merlin's blog. Well worth a read. Go ahead, you have the time: http://people.tribe.net/merlin/blog?topicid=b5673bff-8eff-4c11-9730-131e9791096a

Ok, I'm a live and let live guy but...

kenji — Fri, 12 May 2006 03:21:18 GMT

. . http://www.pentagonstrike.co.uk/flash.htm#Main <fast paced and thought provoking>

Memorial Day Weekend on the Ridge

kenji — Tue, 25 Apr 2006 05:06:37 GMT

If this blog shows up for you, then you are invited to come camp, commune with nature and share a time of community. If you haven't heard, I purchased 40 acres near Nevada City, CA (N San Juan) and would enjoy the company of my like minded friends. Bear in mind, this is going to be pretty primal, There is access to a well and thats about it so come prepared. We have access to a pristine part the S Yuba river wherer wearing a swimsuit is your option. My birthday lands on this weekend and my only birthday wish is that you come hang out. Please email me if you think you will make it and we'll go from there

Yearnings of Vampirism

kenji — Sun, 02 Apr 2006 23:44:39 GMT

Eyes closed, Running my tongue across skin, Subtly textured with goosebumps, Those as of a lover in the throws of passion, Pausing, Lost... Immersed in the moment as time holds its breath, Still, that is what I am, perfectly still, All the while holding the flesh between my teeth, Feeling its taunting plump resistance, That hesitation just before my teeth pierce flesh Finally yielding that which lies beneath, Filling my mouth with a flavor that compares to none. Sweet Ecstasy. . . . God… I love kumquats. I feel Vampiresque upon first bite. I was at a friend’s house and out her side door I espied a kumquat tree burdened with a multitude of the orange orbs. Fortune shined that very day because she had no real affinity for my little friends and readily handed me a bag with her blessing. I already see another visit on the near horizon. Maybe the moon will be full.

Human Beings vs. Human Doings

kenji — Thu, 30 Mar 2006 22:27:02 GMT

We all have thoughts that we are not good enough or not doing enough. Then we have thoughts that we are good enough and are doing enough. All these thoughts are based on doing and on that part of us that are Human Doings, which of course has its place. Then there are times when we are in a place where all that doing and its fruits are moot, and we rest in Being instead of Doing, and then we are Human Beings, or Divine Beings, or Animal Beings, depending on the desire package before us and what hungers attract our precious Awareness. Just do your best Doing and leave the rest to Being. No worries. ~Prashanti

It is done!!!

kenji — Fri, 10 Mar 2006 03:22:01 GMT

THIS IS HUGE!!! A very tangible step in the realization of a dream. Monday I closed escrow on the forty acres of land in North San Juan, CA (near Nevada City). Next will be the establishing an encampment (trailer & solar first) as I set the stage for Intentional Community and a healing retreat. I look forward to stepping into the role of caretaker in caring for this land entrusted to me. All this has come to pass - After..., Various & Sundry, Trials & Tribulations, Accusations & Redemptions, AND, The ebb & flow of life in general. Lastly..., As soon as I can, I hope to pave the way (not literally as we are 'off grid' and intend to stay that way) for people to visit (aka camping at first) to share energies, retreat & revive. You know..., Fire, dancing, drumming, bodywork and community. So..., stay tuned. Yay!

Spring Fever

kenji — Sat, 04 Mar 2006 01:54:27 GMT

Once upon a time I would hear people speak of Spring Fever and thought WTF? But then... On a balmy day (feeling as if lifetimes ago), not too long together with my love, the atmosphere rested heavy on my shoulders, as if Atlas bearing the Earth, a restlessness arose from my core. The desire to ride the steed of dreams was overwhelming. Duty and responsibility barely held me at bay. Never forgotten… this soul’s urge. Unannounced, Unexpected and Haunting, these winds of change have returned again & again to caress and sing their siren song of seduction to me igniting times of great restlessness Now, especially as of late, they have again returned… but things are different. I have discovered that the tethers that held me in times past have aged, and, with little effort and a lot of faith will simply fall away. This time… I very well may dance the dervish of change with these familiar spirits ~kenji