As I sail the great Sea of Destiny
Shoving off...I am strangely reminded of home by you angels of glory and light!
Stretched upon the shoreline I see your arms wailing in the distance.
But Alas!...To you I say this!
As she draws her Sword and dances with the Serpent
Eternal is Life, the Journey long. take the hand of Another whisper Ancient Secrets and bask in your Treasures.
let us Adorn ourselves with Love in excess!

kikiluv
2006

Unite myself passionately with every other form of consciousness,
Thus destroying the sense of separateness from the Whole
and creating a new baseline in the Universe from which to measure it.
“Love is the law, love under will.” AL I:57
“Come forth, o children, under the stars, & take your fill of love!” AL I:12

Eternal strangers on the path to love
Discovering unfolding stretching into the blanket of unknowable realms
Crossing, swirling, joining around others finding bliss on earth
In a village love is blind, love is stories, love is quiet time
Feedeth nourish playeth too
Memories lingering on the satchel roofs
Heart speak chanting through the trees
Forgiveness blowing in the wind
The cadence of laughter rising from the seashore
Basking in the rays of light the sand signals each conversation being had
Drink from our cup and the healing begins
wrap up in the hanging cloak
rest your weary eyes
touch the one closest to you
jump into the garden of timeless realms
reach down into spirit with your every breath
as we fill the table with nourishments draping silks and totems
we will chant and wait as you take your stand…..

the village
K~
sept 2005


The Veil Awaits

Between the balance
Hangs the veil
Skin thin we cross into the unknowable
Reaching to the spirit in another allowing for the spirit one
Giving us more mass to energy from

Deeper we fall into ourselves playing the strings of lingering….. and distance
Seeing in ourselves mirrors of lies holding the game in place
To continue the mastery of forgetting so we may re-member who we are
Tying knots, joining tongues, burning essence, wearing robes
We dangle at the edge of fear never wanting it to end

Because I live to breathe my breath awaits life
Life is a lesson in dualities
Bending the fragments so we may see, touch and feel
Tuning frequencies we’ll never hold

Blind to the mold of human existence
Purposely producing energy to take us beyond the flavor of life
Proclaiming to the innocence, we desire to rest in our breast
Tuning, chanting, designing sheets of dew to mist the eyes from the dark

Sprawling under in exasperation for the mystery that points
Drink with me, be of my bliss
Wonder and one are drawn in twine
These places are behind the mask we wear, spirit sits folded

Stretch into the void, birth your senses, beget the one who knows
Allow the place inside, to rest, retire, desire
Glib and full I beckon the tree
Drop your leaves so I may be one someday

Sound out your bliss so I may hear god
Harness the fire use it all up
Make your self small enough to enter the ground again
Rise and twirl to the bliss of infinite energy
Here time and space allow us to play
Sing into the chestnut branches until they sag with love

Drink from the body of dominion
Believe- for the gift is too bold to hold
Silence is the gate
Wind blowing the sheer veil awaits
Fall back and believe

I AM THAT

k
2006


In a Tree House

Light Will some day split you open
Even if your life is now a cage,
For a divine seed, the crown of destiny,
Is hidden and sown on an ancient, fertile plain
You hold the title to.
Love will surely bust you wide open
Into an unfettered, blooming new galaxy
Even if your mind is now A spoiled mule.

A life giving radiance will come,
The Friend’s gratuity will come-
O look again within yourself,
For I know you were once the elegant host
To all the marvels of creation.

From a sacred crevice in your body
A bow rises each night and shoots your soul into God.
Behold the Beautiful Drunk Singing One
From the lunar vantage point of Love.
She is conducting the affairs
Of the whole universe while throwing wild parties
In a tree house- on a limb In your heart.

At all my meetings with you shall the priestess say -- and her eyes shall burn with desire as she stands bare and rejoicing in my secret temple -- To me! To me! calling forth the flame of the hearts of all in her love-chant (Gnostic Mass)

- Kenneth Grant, Aleister Crowley and the Hidden God

"Had! The manifestation of Nuit.
The unveiling of the company of heaven.
Every man and every woman is a star."
(Nuit, the Egyptian divinity of the stars continues:)
"I am above you and in you. My ecstasy is in yours.
My joy is to see your joy.
"They shall gather my children into their fold;
they shall bring the glory of the stars into the hearts of men.
"And the sign shall be my ecstasy, the consciousness of the continuity of existence,
the omnipresence of my body...
"For I am divided for love's sake, for the chance of union."
- Aleister Crowley, The Book of the Law

"Fear not o'man that such wondrous happenings will bring about what you call "Armageddon", rather rejoice and celebrate in light,life, love, and liberty for the next great spiritual awakening is at hand!"


Introduction to Thelema

The Law of Thelema is all about learning one's True Will and executing it.

Love (Agape)
Love enters this discussion because Agape, the Greek word for "Love", is a quintessential part of the Law of Thelema. In fact, Thelema and Agape both evaluate to 93 when computed against the Greek Gematria. That these concepts are tightly bound and intertwined is a vital concept to comprehend in the attempt to incorporate the Law of Thelema into one's Life.
Love is not a particularly complicated subject, but it is a deeply important one to the follower of the Law of Thelema.

In essence, Love is here very nearly a synonym for the word "respect". If you love your neighbor, then you respect your neighbor, and everything they stand for. You will, therefore, be inclined to show them respect, and thus, create no unneccessary conflict with them in Life.

I interpret the inclusion of Agape in the Law of Thelema as this: While we are each to exert our Will (Thelema) in our Life, it is to be tempered by Love (Agape). If an action we are about to take, seemingly due to our Will to accomplish the task, fails to exhibit Love -- respect -- for another star, then perhaps it is time to review the action to ensure it really fits our True Will. Love is the law, love under will. There should never be any conflict between the two components if we are truly on the right Path.

Thelema, as a Law and as a concept, is only thoroughly explained in The Book Of The Law, a smallish text which can be obtained at most occult or new age stores for about $5-10 or so, and which can probably always be ordered from the O.T.O. The College of Thelema has an online version of The Book Of The Law.

Thelema is a Greek word which means "Will", and which computes to the value of 93 in Greek Gematria, or numerology. Agape is a Greek word which means "Love", and which also equates to 93. Under the basic concepts of Gematria, this demonstrates a relationship between these two words.

In the Law of Thelema, this relationship is explored at some length, and this is the driving force behind the entire Law. The Law is given, for the current era, to all of humankind in the form of the aforementioned book, The Book of the Law, written in 1904 by Awaiss, and transcribed by Aleister Crowley over a period of three days.

The Law of Thelema is stated thus: "Do what thou wilt." That's it. This is the summary of the entirety of a philosophy that can take lifetimes to fully understand. The most difficult part of this Law to understand is what is meant by the word "wilt", or, in its more general sense, "will".

To aid in understanding the Law, however, another statement is given: "Love is the law, love under will." In this, again, a studied understanding of the meaning of the word "Love" in this context is required.

Those who accept, and thus attempt to follow, the Law of Thelema are called Thelemites.

Thelemites, by convention, greet each other with salutations which reflect their acceptance of The Law. Vocally:

In greeting: Do what thou wilt shall be the whole of the Law.
In response: Love is the law, love under will.
Because this can be a wordy mouthful, most Thelemites simply say "Ninety-Three!" in place of each of these salutations, reflecting the Greek gematriaic valuations of the words Thelema and Agape.

In writing, one generally opens the letter with the greeting salutation and closes the letter with the response salutation. Many Thelemites use a shorthand of "93" for the opening line and "93, 93/93" for the closing line.

Will (Thelema)
Will is at once an exceedingly simple and amazingly complex subject. It took me years to get to the understanding I currently possess, and I am fairly certain I am not yet done with my learning on this matter. Suffice it is to say that this page will not be able to cover fully my Life's lessons regarding Will.
Will constitutes that which a person means to do. For example, if you feel you need to open a window, then, in a sense, it is your Will to do so.

However, Will is not some casual and flippant representation of every passing whim of the individual (See Brother R.B.'s thesis on the matter for a countering viewpoint). Understanding Will absolutely demands an understanding of respect for all things. To execute one's Will, one must actively seek to respect the Will of others.

The theory is that if every person were following their true Will, there would never be any unneccessary conflicts between persons, because the nature of the Universe, with all its complexity, includes these interworking Wills. Conflicts which do occur are generally caused by either someone straying from their True Will, or are conflicts which need to happen to further the evolution of humanity.

Will is not frivolous in nature. It represents a very serious commitment to understanding one's role in the Universe, and to acting on that commitment.

A Thelemite doesn't concern himself with justifying his actions to anyone. What does it matter what those other people think? The only thing that matters is that the action was in league with the Thelemite's understanding of his own True Will. Noone else dictates it, and it caters to noone else. Therefore, what they think of it is of no concern to the Thelemite.

And so Will is actually quite a complicated subject. To know what one's True Will is takes a lot of introspection, and to execute one's Will requires a great deal of patience and care.

For information:

www.solemnus.org/thelema.htm#Intro



Ontological Notes:

Distinctions for an Extraordinary Human Being

• Integrity – Do what you say by when you say you will do it. (Integrity is being whole and complete, being our word, A stand in life that doesn't need evidence.
• Racket Free – Give up being right. and making others wrong " War "
• Powerful – Being straight in your communication and take what you get. (manage conversations not people)
• Courageous – Acknowledge your fear and act anyway.
• Peaceful – give up the interpretation that “There’s something wrong here.”
• Charismatic – Give up “In Order To.” being PRESENT! (do what you are doing not “in order to” do something else)
• Enrolling – Enrollment is the access to power and action in your community. (Sharing your possibilities in such a way that others are touched, moved & inspired.)

to accomplish these:
One must be UNREASONABLE ~


FUNDAMENTAL CONCERNS OF HUMAN BEINGS:

Who or What is Right or Wrong?
Who or What is True or False?
Do I Argue or Not?
Life "Should be" XYZ
Life "Shouldn't be" XYZ
Why, How, The Answer?
I Am About Looking Good/Not Looking Bad
Shoulds, oughttas, disempowering language, descriptions, procedures, expectaions, conditions of satisfaction.
I am expected to represent my language with evidence.

Thus, the experience of being human is resigned and Cynical, and we hide ourselves behind being reasonable.

Where are you dismpowered? What is really happening? What do you want to see?
Speak it and believe it!
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Most of the time, what we say happened didn't happen. It is the "story" that we run. What really happened is always completely different than what we SAY happened.

Story vs. What Happened!
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Is your inner voice keeping you from success?
If you are not producing breakthrough results in an area, you are running a racket on yourself...you're surviving it.
Being in action when you're internal dialogue tells you not to act is really your integrity over your stories.
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Enrollment is the access to power and action in your community.

The first step in enrollment is sharing yourself. Sharing where you have been inauthentic. Acknowedge your inauthentic past.
The Second step is to share the new possibility that you are creating (to counteract the past...creating a new future to live into) that touches, moves and inspires them.
How to find the possibility that doesn't "fix" but empowers? Simple. Find the thing in your life that isn't working. Then imagine removing it from your life. Who could you be if it were removed? Powerful? Unstoppable? Caring? Creative? THAT is your possibilty/future to live into.
You want to be powerful to empower OTHERS.
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What is a Racket? A fixed way of being plus a persistent complaint.
The invariant structure of a Racket:

Payoffs: Be right/make others wrong, Dominate/avoid domination, Justify yourself/invalidate others
Cost: Love/Affinity, Vitality/well-being, self-expression, satisfaction/fulfillment
If only A then B.
"Thank your Racket for sharing, then step up."
Steps to distinguishing rackets:

What would say your issue is? Be rigorous with your language.
What are the reasons why?
What are the messes you've made or have been made from this?
What have you not done and why have you not done them?
Who is to blame?
What are you unwilling to tell the truth about in this area?
What is the impact of being reasonable here?
What unreasonable actions are you taking?
What possibility for your future are you creating?
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3 things at play when you get upset:

1. You have a thwarted intention
2. You have an unfulfilled expectation
3. You have an undelivered communication
Every upset is all three somehow

Rackets are ultimately defined as avoiding your responsibility.
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Integrity is being whole and complete, being our word, A stand in life that doesn't need evidence.

Enrolling conversation is bringing life where there is no life.
Why do we create a possibility to live into? To give yourself power.

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Strongs Suits.

Our life defining moments when ego compensates to survive.
The three strong suits that occur in youth (the main ones) are:

"Something's Wrong Here" "life will never be the same" Childhood

"I Don't Belong" for the first time, to a person place or group Adolescence

"I'm On My Own" without means of access for the first time Adulthood

What you create from those incidents in your "beingness" you carry with you for the rest of your life. (subconsious goal is to keep that incident from ever happening again. " FEAR "
In some countries by age 6 children have experienced all three incidents. Disabaling capacities for elevation from pure survialistic mentality. ( thwarted connection to source )
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Who are you?
Who you are is the stand that you take for who you are.
When you create your stand, you are at the beginning of an inventive life...and you are certain of it no watter what life throws at you.

Life is Empty and Meaningless and it's empty and meaningless that it's empty and meaningless. It just means nothing.
How do you get to nothing and complete the past?
By seeing the cost & impact.

You can't declare a new possibility for you life until you complete.

Your stand needs NO EVIDENCE!
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Not DO-HAVE-BE
BE-DO-HAVE!
In enrollment, your considerations are not their considerations. You are stopping yourself from being enrolling, NOT THEM!
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The fear of failure is kept in existence by trying to fix or cure "fear of failure." While the future is imagined, the experience of fear is not imagined. When we try to "fix" it, we're experiencing the fear as though it was real.

Failure isn't the problem...fear of failure is the problem...

What you resist persists!
Resisting failure actually keeps us in failure in the present. you're so afraid of failure in the future, because you failed in the past.
Distinguish that you're not in trouble now...take the past out of your future. You're making the present feelings dependent on what I'm expecting the future to look like based on my past!

People live by the superstition that life would be better without problems. Not true. The real problem is that people deal with real boring problems. How many of your problems do you always deal with> That's your problem! Small problems. I cling to the problems. You use them to be the "because" in life. Don't try to fix problems. You can't. CREATE BIGGER PROBLEMS! If you fix a problem, it creates a new problem.
The world does not have problems...people have problems. "Problems live only in language!"

We are, that, "problems shouldn't be."
Authenticity is: (truth) "In life there are problems."
Create bigger problems so that your Beingness is bigger than your former problems.
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You'll never get anywhere being "I'm right, you're wrong."
Instead: "You know, we're saying the same thing just from a different paradigm."
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Transformation generates new "contexts" for being! (context = realm of possibility)

Every time you create a new context for your life, new possibilities are seen that were otherwise not possible.

When you wake up, is your "already listening" saying "there is something wrong here?" then, do you survive your day instead of live it?

You cannot be powerful in life if you don't have power in the face of "no." But it isn't the "no" that is the problem...it's the meaning you add to the "no."

They are not saying "no" to you, they are merely saying "no" to what you are asking of them. "No" occurs as a part of the game for those who are in the game for the long haul.

After the final "no" is a yes. And on that yes, the future of the world depends... You are cause in the matter of what you're adding to "no."

To get that "there's something wrong here." is to get that there's something incomplete (integrity is out).

Distinctions for an Extraordinary Human Being

• Integrity – Do what you say by when you say you will do it.
• Racket Free – Give up being right.
• Powerful – Being straight in your communication and take what you get.
(manage conversations not people)
• Courageous – Acknowledge your fear and act anyway.
• Peaceful – give up the interpretation that “There’s something wrong here.”
• Charismatic – Give up “In Order To.”
(do what you are doing not “in order to” do something else)
•Enrolling – Sharing your possibilities in such a way that others are touched,
moved & inspired.

One must be unreasonable ~

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to mark lewis for constant love and support
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LDV for generating and loving everything that is truth in relationships.....
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Jamie B. thank you for being an example of a strong, sexy, honest ,loving, goddess energy on the planet...
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thank you divine
for the oneness that surrounds me

At all my meetings with you shall the priestess say -- and her eyes shall burn with desire as she stands bare and rejoicing in my secret temple -- To me! To me! calling forth the flame of the hearts of all in her love-chant

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thank you Mark Lewis for your courage your undying love for people your sexy voice and all projects the world has yet to see at the creation of your hands and mind....
love kimarie
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Eryn- thank you for your courage to face yourself on this journey to your divine purpose. you are strong beauty,kindness enveloped,infinite love and joy...
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Sno thank you for your honesty
your grace your love of humanity
and inspiring me...
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thank you Sandra for channeling the gift of unity & phi so we may all have a great time awakening and stalking our divinity!
all my love, all my support, all my communities, all my gifts are yours.
love and light
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thank you forever Camille-

In a Tree House

Light Will some day split you open
Even if your life is now a cage,
For a divine seed, the crown of destiny,
Is hidden and sown on an ancient, fertile plain
You hold the title to.
Love will surely bust you wide open
Into an unfettered, blooming new galaxy
Even if your mind is now A spoiled mule.

A life giving radiance will come,
The Friend’s gratuity will come-
O look again within yourself,
For I know you were once the elegant host
To all the marvels of creation.

From a sacred crevice in your body
A bow rises each night and shoots your soul into God.
Behold the Beautiful Drunk Singing One
From the lunar vantage point of Love.
She is conducting the affairs
Of the whole universe while throwing wild parties
In a tree house- on a limb In your heart.
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my sister and her beautiful soul
michelle my bell
thank you for this wonderful soup dish
hugs to you and the babes

_Persian Soup_

Boil a handful of lentils and then rinse

Brown chicken and onions in a big pot with some lemon juice

Put a capful of split yellow peas and a capful of Mung beans (also called Vietnamese beans) with a ½ cup of rice in with the lentils, boil, then dump in with chicken and salt.

Add a jalapeno

Add 6 cloves of garlic

Add 1 cup of Sadaf sour grape juice (Middle East market)

Add 1 sandwich bag filled with broccoli tops and freshly chopped cilantro

Add ½ cup of corn and ½ cup of frozen peas

Add 1 tablespoon of Advieh (a special spice you can buy at the Middle East market)

Black pepper and salt to taste

Boil 1 hour

Add broken bits of vermicelli

Boil another 15- 20 minutes



The Invitation from a tree

there they sat in a tree
two little girls
sharing innocence and tea
fate stepped in and called them on
so down they climbed to grow and expand
they met again with life’s new coat
under the tree wondering what it’s all about
trees have seasons so it seems
just like friendships, loves and dreams
the invitation from the tree
is to meet life where it’s at
and create what will be
let’s take a moment
one small blink in time
and play with music, art, and rhyme