Male

45

lets tell it like it is, i'm a deeply insecure, ego maniac with a really nasty self destructive streak, loud self absorbded and impatient, if you think that sounds like a drag you should try living in my head. o ya i'm really uncomfortable with sex. so i just beat off 3 times a day. real affection you know the unconditional kind makes me nervious. on the unpside i'm smart generous and have suffered my way into a little wisdom and dept of experience, i believe in compassion understanding and service and the spirit of what ever it is out there that i feel pulsing all around me in nature and the eyes of my brothers and sisters (currently im betting on the aliens from another demension) i have just gone through a phase of really isolating myself so i could wallow in my shit with out embarrssing myself to badly in front of people who might care about me. it has taken me a while to pull out of it.

recently i had to start taking these stupid fucking hiv meds. i hate them.

people accept freindship invites but then don't talk to you when you mail them ARE RUDE. so spare me that. i'd rather have you mail me back and say "fuck off nut case" at least it would be real. so a big fuck you to all those people who don't have time to give the good word to the nerotic guy who mails them.

i would some day like to feel good about sex. i want to get fucked in the ass really hard buy some one i care about, not caring like a hallmark card, or some cheesey love song but honest, open, and unconditional "here i am it's sort of a mess but i'ts real and human and i'm a gift and so are you so lets give it."

frankly i think junior pence is the best looking man on this sight, god to have a man like that on top of me. i want a man who i can't say or do the wrong thing to because i will. a strong man could see past all that to my worth. junior looks pretty strong but he hasn't ever talked to me. i just love his pictures thanks, you hot fucking monster. you make my 9x6 hard when ever i see your pict.

paul