Overwhelmed and paralyzed....but working it out

So I'm not in Boston anymore, I just don't get onto Tribe very much. I haven't logged onto LJ since the Storm. I try to check MySpace, Yahoogroups and occassionally update my google calendar. I get lost when I get onto the networking sites. There's so much to look at, watch and listen to and there's so many cool costume and makeup ideas and yet I havea container of unfinished project, flower barrets, finger torches, headbands, coins, material, a couch to reupholster, t-shirts to redesign, etc, etc,etc. I thought I was lazy but really I think I'm just paralyzed by the overwhelming number of options there are in our society and which do I want to do. I started playing on the French Quarter pool league about 8 weeks ago, I've actually played 3 time and last night I won my set. YEAH me. I've been looking at video and reading intructional tips online. Apparently it has helped but it took a couple weeks to assimilate. I haven't touch my fire toys sinc eTHe Storm...well I lost them in it and haven't rebuilt. One thing at a time dearie...right. I tried Salsa, I got bored. I can't go back to Flamenco right now and I've ceased to stress it. I want to learn aerial silk performance and how to do trick on a pole gracefully. I have a pole and a teacher and a studio to do this in. Now I'm working on the aerial silks part. Hopefully Cameron will put me in touch with the local gal. I'm going to Transformus for the first time and I want to have fun stuff to wear but I lost 15 years of accumulated, hand made and personally design cool fun stuff. What do I want to do now. Recreate the old, no... discover new...HELL YES!!! What do I do with my money, buy a house, take a trip, invest in conservative stock porfolio, contribute to my RothIRA (haha...that's so puny). I've been working at a flower shop and I really love it. I want to learn more but I'm afraid to look at too many other people's ideas. They're overwhelming and I can create my own just. Perhaps I should just leave the ocmputer and start making stuff. But first I must learn to use Quicken.

Love & bubbles

Out of Town

I'm in Boston right now and have internet access hourly. It's great. I think. Something about not having the ability to check everything every minute of the day is really quite nice and relaxing. If i can just get into a routine that ensures I check everything and don't forget some list or Tribe or Group or something. I need a check list. I'm off to Dance Meditation Monastery in a few days but first to Vermont for my cousins Graduation. Anyhow, lots to look forward to upon my return....PURE workshop with Cammi July 1st, MEDA workshop with Sahra, Morrocco and Jeremiah (can't wait to see old friends and meet new ones.) My students are performing at this and I'm so excited for them but I'm having a horrid time costuming them. Just nothing is working in my mind. Hot, humid summer days and hot, humid, New Orleans nights. Love those. A beach trip or two with friends. And who knows what Mother Nature has in store. I'm ready for anything. Love & bubbles!!!