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So much behind the scenes!

   Tue, November 11, 2008 - 1:28 AM
My head is swimming with all that is happening behind the pages of Big Top - and it is truly magnificent. Here's just a taste of what is actually happening or in high gear for planning right now:

1) An absolutely beautiful, completely re-designed site, shades better and more professional than the current one that I learned how do build a site on - the coming site is being done by a bona-fide PROFESSIONAL, who fell in love with the idea, believes in this crazy dream that I can't let go, and has been working her ass off in creating a much more user-friendly site for Big Top. I just had my first peek at it yesterday, and gadzooks, you're in for a special treat!

2) Big Top is hitting the road, baby! The final destination will be New Orleans, but I'll be damned if I'm taking the shortest way there. My intention is to wander, finding amazing people, acts, bands, dancers, and all sorts of things along the way. I'm even planning on breaking out my busking gear again, as I desperately miss the streets, and performing.
For those of you who have known me for a number of years know that I once could write - or at least, write well. (You said so - that's how I know...). For those of you who are new to me, here's a taste...
ksea.livejournal.com/2005/09/09/ read forwards or back...)

There is a knowledge inside of me that the road is all I need to come back to that peace where I could just simply write... escape all of the walls that suck me dry and go. The adventure will be blogged and documented in photographs on the Big Top site, as frequently as possible. Coming back to the Vagabond Extraordinaire. Things have become stagnant - I need the road.

3) Planning a tour - not a road trip, a production. Still in it's infancy, but based on REVOLUTION, a show I put on in August. Dig the images in the 'Sights' section of the magazine. My vision is to have a small group of the most phenomenal performers traveling with, and incorporate the best local acts of every city we visit into the shows.

I created this magazine out of need.
Once, only a few years ago, I was that guy who had huge dreams, but sacrificed all of them for a small bit of "comfort" for something solid that made me shitloads of money, but left me empty...

Now, I scream for my dreams, and fight like hell for them. I've played the game for most of my life, and it is crooked. This game is mine, yours, and true. There is no greater anything to live for. I only live because there is a simple trick to it, easy, let everything go and become who you are...

Big Top (aka yours truly) would really appreciate your support - all of these dreams depend on you. I am fighting like the dogs of hell, but - right now I need you.
I know where this is going.
I need you to support Big Top - as it is just a fragile second away from that next step.

Please support Big Top - you will be heralded...



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Tue, November 11, 2008 - 6:38 AM
I'm so happy to hear you're roaring into the heartlands, traveling trickster!
You voice, the written one I guess, has a different tone. A lightness, a transformation...... Hazah!
Tue, November 11, 2008 - 9:42 AM
It slipped out of me yesterday and I mentioned you were coming back (to Kryss who will be on the tour with us this summer) She was so overjoyed and excited and mirrors the reactions of many who can't wait to hold you in their arms. We love you, we miss you and are looking forward to all sorts of exciting things to come...
All the growth with Big top,

Our summer tours and multiple productions,

and of course,
you my dear,
ringmaster extraordinare
with love,
we will be waiting...

Back to the site design I go and working on a plan for that mobile office of yours...
smooches*
Tue, November 11, 2008 - 11:57 AM
Scatha - I'm not so hot in face-to-face - I write - that is where you will find my soul. You are right - it is my true voice, and it will not always be pretty, but it will always be true...

Cameron - fucking beautiful.
I have more than I ever bargained for right now - I was supposed to die a long time ago, and that would have brought only peace - but now I do all I can to fight for two lives. I need to stay alive because of that silly red dread woman - there is NO fucking way in hell I will give her the pain of someone else dying before her.

Perhaps this is why I choose not to have good friends - but fuck you both, you have become that, and I owe you - I owe you for that.
Wed, November 12, 2008 - 2:09 PM
behind
every great man is a strong woman kickin' his ass all along the way!
i love you more and more every day, even when you piss me off....and even when im loud and irritate you ;>
You will be fine without me....my love will supercede all these crazy limitations and hopefully give you something to smile about when im not around.