I'm currently in a class on forgiveness, and this week we had to write apologies, and this is what I wrote...

An apology to my body

Dear Body, You and I got off to a good start this semester, but as we are both aware we have had some troubles, sickness, injury, the whole teeth thing. I apologize for not trying harder, for not recognizing how important exercise is for us. I know that I often take the easy route – that first sermon I wrote still is so true and needed in our life. I know I need to work harder at finding balance, committing to creating a regular schedule for us. I have not given up on you body. I know we dream of better things. I have made promises that have been broken. About food, working out, all of those things. And I still love you just as you are, and this is not being written to say that I apologize for not making you skinnier or more beautiful (even though we both know I think that sometimes). I'm sorry I don't pay attention to you when I should, that I ignore your wisdom to slow down, or get up and do something, or to stop eating because I'm full, or to have breakfast everyday because it makes us feel better, or to go to sleep earlier instead of forcing myself to stay awake. I need to listen to you more often. Without you I'd be nothing. I know I neglect you sometimes because I am afraid. Afraid of the dentist and the doctor and that we won't be able to achieve the things we dream of. I apologize for all the times I've said you were fat and ugly. For the times I have shared you with others in ways that were not safe for us. For the times I have put us, you, in danger. I want to say I apologize for all the times I've cut you, burned you, hurt you, but I think we both know that was something we both needed. I do apologize though for all the times I've said I'm not strong enough, or small enough, and in saying all that I've turned against you. I hope we can find a way to work together better in the future. I know we could accomplish so much if only I believed in you more. I will try to celebrate you more often, value you and what you tell us. I love you body, even though it is hard for me sometimes.