I don't know how many times life has tried to pound this one into my head.

Only problem is, I still know it is a lie.

I do need to learn to be more subtle and intrigue-y when it comes to the Manager Personality Conflict issue I seem to keep attracting to myself. I just don't dig Big Corporate "Obey-Or-Else". Nor do I dig hospital buyouts of small community clinics, apparently.

If my manager were not so unsure of her authority, perhaps she would not see my questions as questioning... read more

there was a gentle angler,
who was angling in the sea;
his heart as cold, as only hearts
untaught of love can be -
when suddenly - the waters rushed,
and spread, and of the spray:
a beauteous maid, of human mold,
and thus to him she spake:

"why dost thou strive, so artfully,
to lure my brood away;
and leave them to die beneath
the sun's most parching ray?

couldst thou but tell,
how happy are
the fish that swim below?

come walk with me,
taste of joy
which l... read more

So the last few weeks I've been going to sunday evening meditation, which I very much enjoy. It's Buddhism-based, I forget which flavor, I know I kinda like the Theravada brand. I still can't wrap my mind around not-self. I can wrap it around no-mind, that's no trouble. I'm trying to decide how much of this fits into the rest of my "soul's code", so to speak. I know that my particular universal spark is of a chaotic (mostly benevolent) yin nature. So how much of that is belief, and how much o... read more