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It doesn't interest me what you do for a living, I want to know what you ache for, and if you dare dream of meeting your heart's longing.
It doesn't ineterest me what planets are squaring your moon. I want to know if you have touched the center of your own sorrow, if you have been opened by life's betrayals or have beomce shriveled ad closed form frear of further pai. I want to know if you can sit with pai, mine or your own, without moving to hide it or fade it or fix it.
I want to know if you can be with joy, mine or your own, if you can dance with wildness and let the ecstasy fill you to the tips of your fingers and toes without cautioning us to be careful, to be realistic, to remember the limitations of being human.
It doesn't interest me if the story you are telling me is true. I want to know if you can disappoint another to be true to yourself; if you can bear the accusation fo betrayal and not betray your own soul, if you can be faithless and therefore be trustworthy.
I want to know if you can see beauty, even when it's not pretty, every day, and if you can source your own life fromits presence.
I want to know if you can live with failure, yours and mine, and still stand on the edge of a lake and shout to the silver of the full moon, "Yes!"
It doesn't interest me to know where you live or how much money you have. I want to know if you can get up, after the night of grief and despair, weary and bruised to the bone, and do what needs to be done to feed the children.
It doesn't interest me who you know or how you came to be here. I want to know if you will stand in the center of the fire with me and not shrink ack.
It doesn't interest me where or what or with whom you have studied. I want to know what sustains you, from the inside, when all else falls away.
I want to know if you can be alone with yourself and if you truly like the company you keep in the empty moments.
written by an ORIAH MOUNTAIN DREAMER, ELDER
Meditation is being happy with yourself for no reason at all.
The joy of cherishing your being, happy that you are.
You are simply in love with yourself, in love with existence.
~Tishan
February 9, 2007
LovePot is Awesome! She's one fun woman to hang out with,
and has alot of wisdom to share! Her beauty extends beyond
the stars and lives in the hearts of all those she cares for.
She is a great friend whom I treasure!
November 8, 2006
Oh Love Pot, how I love our friendship! You keep me thinking......and you're beautiful inside and out!
Keep Shining Rusty!
about me
I don't like lots of cigarette smoke. Nor perfume. I like to swim. I love hottubs and steamrooms. Weather? 80 degrees and up during the day, sunny, and night times and winters above 60. I enjoy being a Reiki Master and being in Circle with fellow healers and Womyn. Steamy sex, cuddling and hot flirting is fun. Classes, I like taking classes. And I don't enjoy being around people who continuously talk at others without their permission. And folks who drink alot and then get super-loud, that annoys me. I guess that might bother everybody. Playing in the hot sun is a fabulous high.
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Becoming a slave,
Boot Fetish,
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Energy healers Portland,
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Seeking "free lawyer" to help get child support for son who turned 18, is still in school, etc.
Fri, July 25, 2008 - 4:13 PM
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never ending learning... noticing what I need, mostly what I don't need. How do I get what I need? It's spirtitual, not of this earth. Understanding beyond the knid we do with our brain, beyond what our hearts can say, beyond what our bodies know.
Fear, what can I do with it? Other than fear it...
Thu, July 17, 2008 - 8:03 AM
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Alone and scared... that was then, now is now... feeling the same, visiting the dark places I ran from, had to run from... reminding myself I am an "adult," which, of course means little, but something.
Tue, July 15, 2008 - 4:02 AM
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Who am I?
Thu, May 22, 2008 - 1:27 PM
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THE CAB RIDE
When I arrived at 2:30 a.m., the building was dark except for a single light in a ground floor window.
Under these circumstances, many drivers would just honk once or twice, wait a minute, and then drive away.
But I had seen too many impoverished people who depended on taxis as their only means of transportation. Unless a situation smelled of danger, I always went to the door. This passenger might be someone who needs my assistance, I reasoned to myself.
So I walked to the door and knocked. 'Just a minute', answered a frail, elderly voice. I could hear something being dragged across the floor.
After a long pause, the door opened. A small woman in her 90's stood before me. She was wearing a print dress and a pillbox hat with a veil pinned on it, like somebody out of a 1940s movie.
By her side was a small nylon suitcase. The apartment looked as if no one had lived in it for years. All the furniture was covered with sheets.
There were no clocks on the walls, no knickknacks or utensils on the counters. In the corner was a cardboard box filled with photos and glassware.
'Would you carry my bag out to the car?' she said. I took the suitcase to the cab, then returned to assist the woman.
She took my arm and we walked slowly toward the curb.
She kept thanking me for my kindness. 'It's nothing', I told her. 'I just try to treat my passengers the way I would want my mother treated'.
'Oh, you're such a good boy', she said. When we got in the cab, she gave me an address, and then asked, 'Could you drive through downtown?'
'It's not the shortest way,' I answered quickly.
'Oh, I don't mind,' she said. 'I'm in no hurry. I'm on my way to a hospice'.
I looked in the rear-view mirror. Her eyes were glistening. 'I don't have any family left,' she continued. 'The doctor says I don't have
very long.' I quietly reached over and shut off the meter.
'What route would you like me to take?' I asked.
For the next two hours, we drove through the city. She showed me the building where she had once worked as an elevator operator.
We drove through the neighborhood where she and her husband had lived when they were newlyweds She had me pull up in front of a furniture warehouse that had once been a ballroom where she had gone dancing as a girl.
Sometimes she'd ask me to slow in front of a particular building or corner and would sit staring into the darkness, saying nothing.
As the first hint of sun was creasing the horizon, she suddenly said, 'I'm tired. Let's go now'
We drove in silence to the address she had given me. It was a low building, like a small convalescent home, with a driveway that passed
under a portico.
Two orderlies came out to the cab as soon as we pulled up. They were solicitous and intent, watching her every move. They must have been expecting her.
I opened the trunk and took the small suitcase to the door. The woman was already seated in a wheelchair.
'How much do I owe you?' she asked, reaching into her purse.
'Nothing,' I said.
'You have to make a living,' she answered.
'There are other passengers,' I responded.
Almost without thinking, I bent and gave her a hug. She held onto me tightly.
'You gave an old woman a little moment of joy,' she said. 'Thank you.'
I squeezed her hand, and then walked into the dim morning light. Behind me, a door shut. It was the sound of the closing of a life.
I didn't pick up any more passengers that shift. I drove aimlessly lost in thought. For the rest of that day, I could hardly talk. What if
that woman had gotten an angry driver, or one who was impatient to end his shift?
What if I had refused to take the run, or had honked once, then driven away?
On a quick review, I don't think that I have done anything more important in my life.
We're conditioned to think that our lives revolve around great moments.
But great moments often catch us unaware-beautifully wrapped in what others may consider a small one.
PEOPLE MAY NOT REMEMBER EXACTLY WHAT YOU DID, OR WHAT YOU SAID,
~BUT~THEY WILL ALWAYS REMEMBER HOW YOU MADE THEM FEEL.
You won't get any big surprise in 11 days if you send this to eleven people. But, you might help make the world a little kinder and more
compassionate by sending it on.
LIFE MAY NOT BE THE PARTY WE HOPED FOR, BUT WHILE WE ARE HERE WE MIGHT AS WELL DANCE!
Sat, April 26, 2008 - 11:59 AM
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Kinkfest, finally! I missed it last yr, and the year before was amazing. Spirituality, learning, experimenting, expanding, yeah...
Wed, March 26, 2008 - 3:34 PM
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Amazing. Edie's fabulous work made our communites once again connect! We are changing the world, and it's parties like this that keep affirming that. Thank you!
Mon, February 25, 2008 - 2:34 PM
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... this love thing. Actually consciously opening up. So, it's not the love that' difficult. Nor the opening up. Something about the changes that happen, the unknown.
Unrequieted love. Yet another subject.
Fri, December 28, 2007 - 1:14 PM
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Tue, December 25, 2007 - 7:30 PM
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... to all the Love that is.
... to Me.
... to You.
Come to Me. Exciting, scary,... safe.
I have Now.
We have now.
Sat, December 22, 2007 - 8:10 PM
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... yet it (patience) seems to be vital, in addition to some other things I seem not to be familiar with. Just loving and being open and caring is not enough, I know. Still looking for the other ingredients. :)
Mon, December 17, 2007 - 4:02 PM
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Wonder what happened. They have to rebuild the "man" at Burningman. How sad... What's the lesson?
Wed, August 29, 2007 - 1:08 PM
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She was ready to leave. No more pain, fear or sadness. Yesterday afternoon, Heather, with friends, family and the "official doc" surrounding her, she took her last breath. As she took care of her own life, she did the same with her death. I am glad you are blissful now, Heather! Thank you for sharing your path.
Wed, February 14, 2007 - 11:10 AM
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Tis Umoja, what better way to celebrate than to live it by supporting Heather on her journey!
Tue, December 26, 2006 - 8:32 AM
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So, I've promised Heather I'd be there with her. She's going in tomorrow. Maybe for the last time in this lifetime. She had us all over for a Holiday Celebration today. She look tired.
I hope to be a piece of what she seeks during her last days/moments/weeks/time here.
Wow.
And I just met a new baby in our extended family. A beautiful, breathing, smiling, tiny Being. Both are very close to the Other Side, yet we expect the new one to be with us for a long time.
Mon, December 25, 2006 - 8:45 PM
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Being alone during the holiday season can be quite challenging. Should anybody want to share their holidays, contact me!
With love, Rusty
Fri, December 22, 2006 - 10:30 AM
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Another ending.
Fri, December 22, 2006 - 6:57 AM
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And what does that mean?
Wondering if I can find folks to celebrate the Nguzo Saba with.
I am so happy I have a friend who celebrates Chanukah and a few folks who will celebrate Solstice with us!
Wed, December 13, 2006 - 12:12 PM
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Thank you for the inspiration. I am not where you are, obviously, but your lessons are as clear as can be. I miss you! Thinking of you with gratitude and love! Your music is amazing, I listen to it in my car daily. Thank you for being such and amazing, loving Being! I look forward to re-uniting with You again!
Tue, December 12, 2006 - 9:16 AM
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thought the light doesn't come in all the way, there are gimpses... and sometimes those glimpses are people, friends, ones who don't need to understand, but still support, without question and without judgement, no expectations.
Amazing. So, the light is still dim, and it's still not very warm, but it's been darker, and it's been colder.
Thank you, dear friend!
Mon, December 11, 2006 - 1:49 PM
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Bad Girls Full Moon Friday Discussion
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Bad Girls Full Moon Friday Discussion:
Purpose of Titleholders
Friday, 7/25/08
When: 7 to 9 PM
Where: Cooper's Coffee
6049 SE Stark Street (60th & Stark)
Downstairs
(18 and over ...
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event starts Friday, July 25, 2008 - 7:00 PM
Leather Pride Week
( events » community ) Leather Pride Week
Come join the entire Leather Community during the week of August 1-August 10 for many fun filled events. Check out the Oregon Leather Pride website for updates and to locate the event you want to attend. www.oregonleather...
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event starts Friday, August 1, 2008 - 10:00 AM
Dyke night Friday
( events » community ) Friday, July 18th
9pm - 12am
Eagle Underground
6th and NW Couch
(portlandeagle.com)
* Smoke FREE event
* $10 Beer/soda Bust
* No cover!!!
* Live erotic performances
Dyke Night is a community event! Everyone is welcome regardless...
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event starts Friday, July 18, 2008 - 9:00 PM
Learning
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never ending learning... noticing what I need, mostly what I don't need. How do I get what I need? It's spirtitual, not of this earth. Understanding beyond the knid we do with our brain, beyond what our hearts can say, beyond what our bodies k...
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Life
(blog entry)
Alone and scared... that was then, now is now... feeling the same, visiting the dark places I ran from, had to run from... reminding myself I am an "adult," which, of course means little, but something.
Needle Play for ALL levels
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Saturday, 7/19/08
Needle Play for ALL levels
Presented by Lady Alycyn, Daddy Daun, and Miss Lynnda
Time: 2:00 PM
Never done needles? Or have you been there done that: want something new?
Or are y...
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event starts Saturday, July 19, 2008 - 2:00 PM
WOMEN'S DESIGNER CLOTHING, SHOES/BOOTS PRESALE PARTY! TOMORROW IN SE PORTLAND!
( events » community ) Hi dancers,
As I mentioned last Sunday, I am downsizing my life, and that includes my STUFF and my home. I hope all you ladies will join me this Friday night for a Women's Designer Clothing Presale Party, and everyone Saturday for my Huge, Midli...
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event starts Friday, June 13, 2008 - 7:00 PM
Volunteer at Pride in the Comfort and Care booth!
( events » community ) LoveTribe and Manifest are hosting a Comfort and Care booth at Pride this weekend. It includes message, yoga, and a snuggle space.
We have had a great response from the LT community to be at the booth, however, we do not have many WOMEN volunte...
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event starts Saturday, June 14, 2008 - 12:00 PM
The sun WILL shine again!!!
photo posted 06/11
Floggers 102 for Womyn Bad Girls workshops are open to self-identified women over the age of 18.
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Sunday, 6/22/08
Floggers 102: What you need to know about floggers to have a good time.
Presented by Purple Nancy
Time: 3:00 - 5:00 PM
We all desire to know which flogger is right for the kind of ...
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event starts Sunday, June 22, 2008 - 3:00 PM
Delicious. Full. Ultimate.
photo posted 05/28
Bad Girls Full Moon Friday Discussion:
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Bad Girls Full Moon Friday Discussion:
Switching: Enjoying boths roles in power exchange
Friday, 4/25/08
Is switching still taboo or is it socially accepted?
Is it better to switc...
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event starts Sunday, May 25, 2008 - 7:00 PM
BadGirls workshop: Tickle, Torture, Tease: Exploration of Sensation Play
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Saturday, 5/31/08
Tickle, Torture, Tease: Exploration of Sensation Play
Presented by Alycyn Britton
Time: 5:00 to 7:00
Every type of scene involves the senses, often many at once. Sensation
Pla...
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event starts Saturday, May 31, 2008 - 5:00 PM
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