I should quit trying to figure out what happened.
You led me on, it was all in my head, there was nothing there.
Nothing for me.
Whatever.
We've been over it again and again and I know,
I'm not okay, but I will be.

When I think about it I don't want to, but I go into darkness.
I needed a friend to get me through it,
but my friend was you.
So I didn't want to become who I am now
but here I am.

I don't even know why I'm still on your side,
but I am still there on the sidelines w... read more

If you were thinking that getting out of an eight year relationship is easy, well it isn't. Case in point, I woke up this morning with less skin than I remember having yesterday, a headache, and no idea whatever how I got home.One thing is clear, I was out on a bender last night. judging by my various wounds I fell at least once, probably more times. I feel lucky to be alive, because I just have no memory of what happened at all. Ordinarily I spend Thursday nights safe on my couch, reading wi... read more

That's all.