but i believe in chaos.

chaos is the eternal mother. archetypal sophia-isis-mary-gaia-holy spirit-cosmic serpent. all form arises from her womb of the infinite. the non-linear multiverse of infinite possibility, without beginning or end, splitting into every instance of manifestation simultaneously. without her- nothing evolves.

thanatos is the eternal father- the entropic sculpter carving into chaos. the linear descent towards heat death at the end of the universe. the archetypal YHWH creating the black iron prison. the capitalist-nazi march of history. his atomic mushroom cloud phallus fucks all life. the crystallization of consciousness into the individual ego like boiling water cooling to crystals of ice- hard and unmoving but which can still be melted by the fiery touch of chaos.. he creates the fragmentation of the undifferentiated self.. without him- nothing exists.

we are fucked into existence by their tantric play which is without beginning or end.

i am an avatar of chaos throwing myself upon the frozen fragmented entropy of mass culture and hoping to melt the touch of the thanatos of the static state that has crystallized consciousness into it's heat death emptiness. i seek to create feedback loops of infinite love, awareness, and compassion towards all living beings. the universe is without bias towards life or death, conscious or unconscious, matter or anti-matter, chaos or cosmos.. but i am in a state of life so i do not seek thanatos for he is my undoing. a well-ordered heartbeat is a sign of heart failure. a heart must have chaos to beat properly.

"In the province of the mind, what is believed to be true is true, or becomes true within certain limits to be learned by experience and experiment." - Dr. John Lilly

"Change alone is unchanging."- Heraclitus

"Animals are something invented by plants to move seeds around. An extremely yang solution to a peculiar problem which they faced."- Terence McKenna

"No man ever steps in the same river twice, for it's not the same river and he's not the same man."- Heraclitus

"It's only in western civilization that you get this steady focus on this monotheistic ideal, and working out the implications of what is essentially a pathologial personality pattern. The pattern of the omnicient, omnipresent, all-knowing, wrathful male diety. No one you would invite to your garden party."- Terence McKenna

"Those who understand history are condemned to watch other idiots repeat it."— Peter Lamborn Wilson

"Ego is a structure that is erected by a neurotic individual who is a member of a neurotic culture against the facts of the matter. And culture, which we put on like an overcoat, is the collectivized consensus about what sort of neurotic behaviors are acceptable."- Terence McKenna