I am just going to type and type for a while here. My mind is blown. I feel like I should be on my knees grateful that everyone in my family is safe, alive and healthy. And I really am. I also feel on the other side very sad and scared. Our house caught on fire last night and burned/damaged 2/3 of our home. I worked and put my heart into the house to make it a home where everyone was welcome. It was a real home. walking through last night broke my heart. The crunch of glass under my feet, seeing my son's room totally burned up. My mermaids melted on the wall..The wreckage of our home dumped onto my well loved and tended yard breaking it up in spots. I have always said,, we are all just a step away from being homeless.. and here we are. IN a hotel..that does not even have HBO!!
After everything else, now this. feeling sorry for myself....feeling SO grateful that we are all ok.
fuck...I feel spaced out and like I am going to wake up..