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May 15, 2007
You are the meat that throws itself under the hammer!!
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"Wolf!" cried my cunning heart
At every sheep it spied,
And roused the countryside.
"Wolf! Wolf!"—and up would start
Good neighbours, bringing spade
And pitchfork to my aid.
At length my cry was known:
Therein lay my release.
I met the wolf alone
And was devoured in peace.
-edna st. vincent millay
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i'm still somewhere inside this moment.
"The Power of Two" [inspired by the fact that i have a tiny human in my belly and when it comes out, together we will rule the world!]
Now the parking lot is empty
Everyones gone someplace
I pick you up and in the trunk Ive packed
A cooler and a 2-day suitcase
Cause theres a place we like to drive
Way out in the country
Five miles out of the city limit were singing
And your hands upon my knee
So were okay
Were fine
Baby Im here to stop your crying
Chase all the ghosts from your head
Im stronger than the monster beneath your bed
Smarter than the tricks played on your heart
Well look at them together then well take them apart
Adding up the total of a love thats true
Multiply life by the power of two
You know the things that I am afraid of
Im not afraid to tell
And if we ever leave a legacy
Its that we loved each other well
Cause Ive seen the shadows of so many people
Trying on the treasures of youth
But a road that fancy and fast
Ends in a fatal crash
And Im glad we got off
To tell you the truth
Cause were okay
Were fine
Baby Im here to stop your crying
Chase all the ghosts from your head
Im stronger than the monster beneath your bed
Smarter than the tricks played on your heart
Well look at them together then well take them apart
Adding up the total of a love thats true
Multiply life by the power of two
All the shiny little trinkets of temptation
(make new friends)
Something new instead of something old
(but keep the old)
All you gotta do is scratch beneath the surface
(but remember what is gold)
And its fools gold
(what is gold)
Fools gold
(what is gold)
Fools gold
Now were talking about a difficult thing
And your eyes are getting wet
I took us for better and I took us for worse
Dont you ever forget it
Now the steel bars between me and a promise
Suddenly bend with ease
The closer Im bound in love to you
The closer I am to free
So were okay
Were fine
Baby Im here to stop your crying
Chase all the ghosts from your head
Im stronger than the monster beneath your bed
Smarter than the tricks played on your heart
Well look at them together then well take them apart
Adding up the total of a love thats true
Multiply life by the power of two
about me
and stina, don't forget about what happened to the woman who suddenly got everything she ever wanted... she lived happily ever after. and so i unpin butterflies whenever i can. due to its precarious connective nature, the swinging bridge is my favorite architectural structure. i try not to carry my (or your) metaphors too far. they're sexy and all when they wrap their long legs around your neck and squeeze, but they can choke the life outta you and they really oughta learn to walk them damn selves. i'd lift the great Oz's curtain skirt in a heartbeat, but only after i'd taught him the joys of exhibitionism and giving up command by going commando. i am icarus and daniel-san in groundhog day (wax on, wax off). i rent wrecker balls to (stupid fucking) breathless wolves.
This being human is a guest house.
Every morning a new arrival.
A joy, a depression, a meanness,
some momentary awareness
comes as an unexpected visitor.
Welcome and entertain them all!
Even if they’re a crowd of sorrows, who violently sweep your house
empty of its furniture,
still treat each guest honorably.
He may be clearing you out for some new delight.
The dark thought, the shame, the malice,
meet them at the door laughing,
and invite them in.
Be grateful for whoever comes,
because each has been sent as a guide from beyond.
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Why are you so afraid of silence,
silence is the root of everything.
If you spiral into its void
a hundred voices will thunder messages
you long to hear.
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"Lo, I am with you always" means when you look for God,
God is in the look of your eyes,
in the thought of looking, nearer to you than your self,
or things that have happened to you
There's no need to go outside.
Be melting snow.
Wash yourself of yourself.
A white flower grows in the quietness.
Let your tongue become that flower.
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The breeze at dawn has secrets to tell you.
Don't go back to sleep.
You must ask for what you really want.
Don't go back to sleep.
People are going back and forth across the doorsill
where the two worlds touch.
The door is round and open.
Don't go back to sleep.
I would love to kiss you.
The price of kissing is your life.
Now my loving is running to my life shouting,
What a bargain, let's buy it.
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From the moment you dreamed you set out
you created the distance
from that which had been near to you.
Many set out on a journey
that leads them farther away from their goal.
....
When he dreams of running through the wilderness,
the waves are lapping so near.
While he dreams of pangs of thirst,
the water is nearer than his jugular vein.
smiles under the bridge on baker beach
i woke up this morning to no baby and no baby daddy! is this a kidnapping?!
no, just a sweet way to let me sleep in.
oh wait, they're back.
happy mother's day to all the moms out there! and the moms to be!
and a hearty thank you to all the folks who support their local mother(s). bless you, each and every one!
Sun, May 11, 2008 - 10:50 AM
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hi all!
i have two free month-long passes to bikram yoga. it's only good for new members to funky door, so if you haven't belonged before, and you want to try it, let me know and i'll get you a pass.
i, myself, plan to leave bikram and never look back. i've heard much about how i should try other types of yoga, even though i've always liked the bikram so much. added to that is the lead guru's egomaniacal personality (i can't confirm, as this is just the rumor i hear and have never ...
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Fri, May 9, 2008 - 7:32 AM
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wanted: one warm- and able-bodied person free friday (tomorrow) morning to bask in adorable smiles of one t. s. krug. [his farts aren't quite as adorable, but they're funny at least!]
reason: mother has job interview saturday near santa cruz and hasn't had enough time to prepare.
pay: besides the knowledge that you've done a very good deed indeed, i'll happily provide you with coffee/snack money if you decide to go for a walk with said infant. BONUS if you've already dealt with titus....
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Thu, April 24, 2008 - 4:26 PM
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well, for my 3rd of 3 blogs, i'll end on a more positive note.
i got a full-time job interview at cabrillo college. it's 11 minutes outside santa cruz. i had already written it off, as i applied there a LONG time ago. usually, if you'll be interviewed in my field, you get called within 2 weeks. since all 3 other jobs i applied to already wrote me the "no thanks at this time" letters, i was shocked to get the call.
the interview is next saturday.
i am full of mixed feelings, as ...
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Wed, April 16, 2008 - 12:09 PM
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and now, for my 2nd of 3 blogs today:
i went to the therapist for postpartum depression for the first time today. she diagnosed me with postpartum adjustment anxiety and moderate depression. we had a very nice chat getting to know each other. i felt positive about the visit and glad i'd decided to get some help.
then she lays out my treatment options. i can:
1) go to see a psychiatrist, who will probably recommend an anti-depressant, since the ambien i'm on right now isn't a very d...
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Wed, April 16, 2008 - 12:04 PM
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Re: uh oh!
(in Postpartum Mammas)
i was signing on to say exactly the same thing. bay to breakers means we should cancel.
i will be dressing titus up and walking it, though. :)
discussion post on Sun, May 11, 2008 - 7:28 PM
Re: date night? (couple activities?)
(in Postpartum Mammas)
i'm going to kabuki sunday night for mother's day, as a matter of fact!
great suggestions, guys! wish we had putt putt near here.
i think i will try to schedule a "date day" vs. a date night, since there really are so many less options of...
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discussion post on Fri, May 9, 2008 - 9:19 AM
Re: date night? (couple activities?)
(in Postpartum Mammas)
i am surprised there weren't more replies to this thread. hm. is that a sign that none of us know quite what to do, or did we cover all the basics already, or that none of us have time for date night anyway...? just curious how to interpret!
discussion post on Wed, May 7, 2008 - 9:04 AM
Re: bike trailer / stroller
(in Postpartum Mammas)
hey snoopy, just want to give you the heads up that there isn't necessarily a connection between their eating solid foods and sleeping more. this is what i'd thought, and i think also why people of another generation push us to give them solid fo...
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discussion post on Wed, May 7, 2008 - 9:02 AM
Re: bike trailer / stroller
(in Postpartum Mammas)
am i reading the above thread correctly...? is it not safe to bike with a baby under 12 months, or is that just in a sidecar/trailer? i was thinking of getting a bike seat, the kind you put above your back wheel, for my 6.5 month old. i hope th...
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discussion post on Tue, May 6, 2008 - 8:57 AM
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