Love: redefined.

What an amazing weekend, in true San Francisco freak style.
Friday nite we enjoyed an amazing fine dining experience at Saha, a friends Arabic fusion restaurant.
Saturday we dropped down into the Love Fest madness as more than 100,000 people danced in the streets and in Civic Center. We went inside Civic Center and watched bellydance performances, amidst crazy decoration and freaks in the very center of our cities government. Where else in the world could something this crazy happen??
The weather was a blessing, not a drop of rain in sight and clear sunny skies all around. It was wonderful to see so many friends smiling and dancing. We decided that a regular dose of dancing in the streets just might empower people to change the world completely. Something about dancing right there in Civic Center makes you feel glowingly empowered.
As night fell, the party continued at Somarts. I was working the bar until 2, a tough job but Rik and I held it down. The place was packed, the most kickin party i've seen at Somarts in quite some time. Penta's set was amazing as always, and even though i was pretty exhausted and broken by that point, i was able to dance for most of his set.
Thanks to everyone who worked so hard John, Liam, Marian, Lars, Chris, Rik, Joshua, Tim, CJ, Nikita, Catia, Marik, Valik and sorry if i left you out..
I'm left feeling inspired by this weekend. Not so much by the particular events that took place, but by the interactions i had. Sometimes we are blessed enough to have such strong positive influences in our life. There are some people with whom the relationship goes way deeper than you can ever imagine, such fluid beauty that evolves in tune with your own personal evolution. Sometimes it goes way beyond selfish love and you meet someone who inspires you into action, into being the best you can, into operating at your highest possible level. In a place out of time and space, in an environment of pure, raw love, this profound interaction is nourished and celebrated.
Love is redefined, yet again.

blogger?

does anyone else have a blog on blogspot? I just started one, its mostly poems and photos. but its pleasing to my eye and i'd like to find more friends who have blogs on there.
Tribe has just been so, ugh, frustrating :(
i love to keep up with friends, even when i am traveling, so let me know
trilliumencantada.blogspot.com

hello, goodbye, poetry blog, love fest, etc

Come out this weekend for Love Fest, make sure you dress a little warmer than usual, and come and dance in the streets with us again :) I'll be bartending at the Tantra afterparty at Somarts, so stop by and say hello, and stay and dance to Penta :)
After the weekend I'm leaving the Bay area again for month or two... its been great to be back here and see so many wonderful friends, but i'm moving on to greener pastures.
I've been working on a poetry blog, adding poems from the last year with photos, etc. I'll be keeping this one updated, so if you're interested check it out:
trilliumencantada.blogspot.com/

ate ja...

Brasil!

I can't ignore the call to go to Brasil any longer. I'll be headed there for a month, leaving here on Christmas day.
yay!

at home

i've been home for a week now, and hmm, well transitions are rough. After so much chaos in the past months, having so much free time is such a strange occurrence for me. My head is a pretty big mess, so many questions, so many thoughts. i feel like i'm watching poetry unfold in slow motion as i take in the sights, sounds and feelings of being home. I'm a little unsure of where i am going or even where i'm at right now, but just letting myself feel this uncertainty...

Sempre frente

just to be a little melodramatic for a moment, tomorrow i am going home after 10 months of being away. The experiences of the past months have changed me profoundly, and in some way I won't fully know just how until I come full circle.
I'm nervous to see friends and family after so long, wonder how they've changed, how they will accept me and vice versa. I'm a little terrified of being back in american culture again, i really do love it here, Lisboa, and portugal, has taken a piece of my heart. I love the streets, the diversity, the nitelife, the verandas, the weather, the sight views, the language, tudo! I wish I had more time here. I'm leaving just when I'm really starting to be more comfortable speaking Portuguese. And I'm leaving behind a newly blossoming romance, which has turned out to be harder than I thought to walk away from...
all that said, I am feeling the call to return home. I miss California! I was born and raised there and will always have a strong connection to the land. I arrive in the aftenoon and I am going straight to the taqueria after dropping off my bags. I'll be staying in Upper Haight, I won't have a phone just yet, or any phone numbers, but i'm sure i'll get it settled soon enough.
I've got lots of stories and kisses to share with everyone at home, can't wait to see you!
ate amanha!

exit stage right

I've been in Portugal since 2 April and in Idanha-a-Nova since the end of April. After living here for so long, in this crazy boomlandia, it feels like home. Tomorrow I am finally leaving here and going to Lisboa. After 4 1/2 months of work my job is finished. I'm at a loss for words, my head is still very much busy with thoughts of Boom and all that happened here. Its been an epic journey both on a personal level and with my work. anyway, i can't really process it all while i am still here, so i'm going for some much needed and deserved vacation.
In the back of my mind is the thought of returning home again! I'm excited to see all my friends and family again, and to eat a burrito!
meow and beijos,
m.
oh yeah i posted more photos from boom and around here:
picasaweb.google.com/mistressofevilSF

Illuminated

an amazing animated series in the works:
www.youtube.com/watch

the dust cloud settles

After my initial instinct to get the hell out as fast as possible subsided, i decided to stay here until all my work is finished rather than running into the city and risking getting spaced out even more. Many friends are still here and the dust cloud over the boom site is settling. The lake and land land are slowly returning to normal, the birds are back and the fish are jumping in the lake once again.
Now i am slowly reassembling my office and trying to sum up all that happened here in digital format, so that next time the job can be improved upon even more. there is always space to learn and i have many suggestions for the future.
After 10 long months of being away from home, the end of this journey is in sight. I have so many mixed feelings about returning home. There is so much i miss, but i have really been enjoying my time away. I'm scared of the culture shock of returning to America. Portugal is a really nice place to be, the food, the weather, the language, the pace of life, I love it all....