there is a smile that i have. not always...but a lot. it is sort of a sideways smile. i think it comes from my mother, mostly because i have never seen my dad smile at all really, but sometimes i see shadows of it in her. it involves serious eye speak. it's the one thing about me that others mention over and over...it's "that" smile they say. THAT smile. like i know something they don't. like i'm hiding something. like i have secrets to tell.