Plunk the Twanger :-)

What does it take to effectively guide change? Life in Portland has been so inspiring, in just the last year I've connected with more beautiful people and life-long type friends than ever before. I have a job that sends me to asia and central america, only requires about 10 hours of work per week all from home, and a six digit salary. I'm living in a mansion with three amazing roommates on 26 acres in north Portland. I'm growing at the core of my being, realizing the true mystical powers of humankind.

but something doesn't seem right....so last week, I quit the job, moved out of the mansion, and put the few things I own in long-term storage. Now all I have is a 35 year old VW bus with "plunk the twanger" across the bumper, and my dog blu riding shotty. We're going ridin....ridin all the days, through the ancient forests to howl at the empty sky and run naked with old gods, chanting hindu mantras in the cold mountain streams.

This will be months or years of tuning in to my body, of deepening our connection with the mother spirit, of never holding back. The Earth is dying and it needs to be healed, we are Bodhisattva and this is our call . It begins with healing ourselves and then those around us, so that we can really fill our role on this planet as conscious directors of energy. I think that maybe one step to guiding change is to clear the decks and make room for that thing you desire, then forget about it and stay busy developing creativity and compassion....but i dunno!!

Anyhow, the vision is here, the decks are clear, there is no safety net, and I have NO IDEA where this path will lead......so in the meantime....PLUNK THE TWANGER man ;-)

Reiki for Blue-zer?

Who is he? Well....it depends on you. If you look at him with total emptiness, he'll be different. If you look at him with ideas, those ideas will color him; if you come to him with a prejudice, then he will be that. He is just a mirror. Your own face will be reflected.

So it depends on the way you look at him. he has nothing to impose. There is just a nothingness, a mirror. Now you have complete freedom.

If you really want to know him.....you have to be as absolutely empty as he is. Then two mirrors will be facing each other, and only infinite emptiness will be mirrored.

So....Blu has a "ruptured cranial cruciate ligament". Conventional treatment requires a $3000 surgery (then another $3000 when the other leg goes.....which almost always happens). I hate to get started down that path.....so time to try a little energy healing!! Does anyone have any experience with enregy healing on dogs? Any suggestions on where I can take a receive a Reiki atonement in Portland?

Has this dream ever stopped?

AWAKE::::::::
Shake dreams from your hair
My pretty child, my sweet one.
Choose the day and choose the sign of your day
The day's divinity
First thing you see <<@?@>>
A vast radiant beach in a cool jeweled moon
Couples naked race down by it's quiet side
And we laugh like soft, mad children
Smug in the wooly cotton brains of infancy
The music and voices are all around us. Choose they croon the Ancient Ones The time has come again Choose now, they croon Beneath the moon Beside an ancient lake Enter again the sweet forest Enter the hot dream Come with us Everything is broken up and dances.

The Ghost Song - Jim Morrison

to dance and wander....never stopping

mother maui? Is that you??

"Rightness"

I spent 12 hours yesterday, sitting/running/climbing/skipping/dancing and tripping alone on a beach in deep contemplation essentially rewiring my brain. I was questioning EVERYTHING, and then questioning why I was questioning things so much.

What was it I was questioning?

I was questioning the concepts of "right" and "wrong", at the most microscopic, seemingly "obvious" level, as well as the impossibly chaotic level. It seems that the second we accept anything as being absolutely 100% "RIGHT"....we are essentially "wrong" in that we've accepted something as absolute, which means that when change happens (it ALWAYS does) we grasp on to our "rightness" and struggle against the change. I applied this to EVERYTHING that I experienced on the beach.

I guess struggling against change could be considered the ultimate human dilema. Always searching for what you think is right, what is comfortable, searching for that concept/feeling of being "home"...but then as soon as we think we've found "home"..."home" changes. When we see someone or something that seems "better" than what we are or what we have...then we label it as "right" and start to copy it...But then become UNHAPPY when "they" or "it" goes away or changes.

So now the ultimate question becomes: How do we make this logic work for us, and incorporate it into our lives? All I came up with is that we must go through life, essentially "bumping" things into what seems like the "right" direction at this MOMENT, then letting go of them and our concept of thier "rightness" completely, and quickly "bumping" the next thing. When something seems obviously wrong...then do what you can to accelerate it's change...BUT when something seems neither "right" nor "wrong" then leave "it" alone...because "it" must be balancing and that is exactly how it SHOULD BE!!

Bin Laden, Bush, and Ego

Unfortunately it takes a serious crisis to shatter an Ego and experience a mental paradign shift. The "collective Egos" of the USA and of the Extreme Muslim world may be the stongest that have ever existed!!

Bin Laden's statement today, the 911 attacks, the Iraq war, Bush's re-election: they are all horrible if viewed independently and with short sightedness. But we should all be EXCITED and HAPPY about this, because it means that during our lifetimes we will see fundamental change and a turn toward a more utopian existence.

These horrible events are exactly what is needed to shatter those collective egos, force all of us to question our realities...and MAKE CHANGE HAPPEN.

Bin Laden and Bush are equally as MAD because they both attempt to gain peace through war. But I don't think that either of them are incurable and they are both capable of change.

Teachers will appear!!

When you are truly ready to wipe away everything you think is true and get lost in the mysteries and infinite beauty of this world, "teachers" in various forms will suddenly manifest. And when you realize this and these amazing things happen, it gives profound meaning to life. My first teachers (that I recognized as such) appeared to me on my way to Tibet last summer.

I came into China completely unprepared with no plan whatsoever, but hopes of somehow getting into Tibet. I had no guidebook, no phrasebook (and I speak no Chinese), and never even had a chance to look at a China map. I had no plans of going to China at all until I reached Laos and suddenly felt compelled to continue north. Ten days later I crossed the border, caught a taxi to the nearest city (which I now know was Mengla) and stayed a night there. The next morning I went to the bus station and pointed to the chinese symbol on the big wall map that was north of Mengla. It turns out that city was Jinghong, and I arrived one day before thier biggest festival of the year: a 3 day long watersplashing festival. When I arrived in Jinghong, I got off the bus and just started wandering around this city of 3 million people (plus another 200,000 or so chinese tourists that show up for the big festival). At this point I had not seen another foreigner since I entered China. After about two hours of wandering, I see an english sign that reads "bamboo bungalows in nice garden", so I check myself into the last open bungalow.

In the bungalow next to mine are Mickael and Matthew, two 60ish year-old hippies/gypsies from Maui. They've each been to Tibet four or five times over the last 40 years that they've spent travelling all over the world off and on. Mickael is a sort of meta-physicist among other things, was at the heart of the Haight-Ashbury hippi movement and has dedicated his life (in a sense) to that truth. Matthew taught himself to be an artist, he makes three dimensional landscapes from various strains of bannana leaves (a few years too old to be labeled a "hippi", he was hiding in the forest of Uganda when the flower children began emerging). He grows these bannanas outside his 8 foot by 20 foot glass house on 100 acres of forest he has on Maui. Twenty five years ago he owned a bigger house, where he raised his family with kerosene lamps, white horses, peacocks, and a waterfall in the back as a shower....then for about six straight years there was a steady flow of Tibetan lamas living with him. He said they'd just show up on his doorstep with a suitcase and a translator; just some of his many "teachers". This opportunity to spend a month travelling across into Tibet on a nearly impossible road from Yunnan, China with these guys was an undeniable experience.

By hosting and understanding so many of these Lamas for so many years, these guys enabled Tibetan Buddhism to reach the west. Since then they have established monastaries in Hawaii, the first stop from east to west.

There can be no doubt of the amazing and mystical qualities that is the world around us....we simply need to begin striving toward a shift of consciousness before we can see it!!

If you have similar stories...please share!!!

We are love

I had a small breakdown on Friday, but...like a bolt from the blue, I understood completely that to embrace, understand, contemplate on, and eventually embody LOVE has GOT TO BE the motivating factor behind my existence. Trying to explain the concept of ultimate, true, unconditional LOVE is impossible. Like a fish trying to explain the very water in which it swims. At the core of our being we are LOVE.

It saddens me deeply that human nature is to search high and low for this seemingly illusive prey. Our conditioning and ego make it so so difficult to realize that WE ARE the very thing we're searching for...if we embody our love, we will infect our reality with it and love will suddenly and magically manifest itself in everything around us.

This is absolutely my life's resolution.