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A Wish : part 1Mon, February 25, 2008 - 10:15 AM
every time i see a baby i turn into a puddle of "Awwwwwe n' Sighhhhh"s
how i've spent twenty some odd years
dodging those swimming seeds only to crave one
just the magic one
to synergize with me inside my fertile womb bombastic.
an ex said ten years ago
that if i'd ever want to have children
he'd help me to conceive.
tho' just when i gained enough determination to ask,
he flipped the script before i even put words to the inquiry..
a friend, one sweetly fine specimen of a beautiful man,
would be oh so choice
only we're all too hesitant
on account of interpersonal/professional relations
as well as dis-ease that's possibly genetic
and that part of me that says ask anyway
lays defeated by a more cautious air..
"why is it so hard to get hold of some sperm?"
i blurted without restraint one day.
a friend replied
"i've got sperm and i like you kaya. i'd be happy to give you mine."
his girlfriend and i turned to him in shock and fell silent.
"((that's sooo great but you're so so young and
i don't think you realize the profundity
of your spontaneous offer))" i thought to myself.
really though, i just couldn't see it
even when i tried to.. y'know?
Cally told me that a friend proposed with abandon
"i can help you two!!"
i imagined the surprised look on his wife's face
when he made such an exclamation!~
well after halfway wrapping my mind around the possibility,
i excused his exuberant expression of generosity
knowing it was more the wine that did the talking
rather than his clear mind.
i know i'll be mama in a year, maybe two.
i feel it in every ounce of my being.
i know i'll be a phenomenal one too ready to take on all challenges with great care
this feels for certain.
now i only wish i'd know which man to ask and/or to say Yes! to...
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whoever he is
it will be divine
your calling....is real
the earth....can hear
a year or two you say.....
then you will have a new name......
i support you and will help in any way i can.
i love you too sister~
and i can almost feel the overloading joy of hearing my new name coming from little one.
i pulled the ace of cups card today and my emotions are on Full so don't make me break out with the Kleenex!~
|AND not only is it new moon but its in Pisces, so the emotions are in full force! Hear them ?mwah!|
phenomenal mama...these things happen organically, like flower from fruit from seed.
I applaud you for putting out this powerful declaration in such a powerful time. Intention and trust!
your friend is right: the Goddess Earth, she listens when women offer themselves...
when the time is *just* right, the perfect seed will appear, take root, flower and bloom.
and what a Mama you shall be.
lovelovelove so much deep pure love.
I add my magic to your own...in perfect time, may it come to Be!!!
<>open to it and bring it on...i know i am in love. and so shall you be............................
what an adventure!
(and to tell these stories once to your child and roll on the floor from laughter)...
|Oh honey I feel ya. Baby-envy is pretty harsh right now, especially with all the newly conceived and lately born running about! Everyone says, "it's just not the right time for you" or "someday...." *sigh* Hang in there, and you're not alone are the best solace I can offer.|
|I totally understand your desire to be a parent, it's a strong drive when the alarm clock goes off!!!! I was thinking, if you want to be a parent, you don't necessarily need a sperm donor, unless you are deadset on it being your genes. Adoption is a wonderful option and there are so many children out there in the world already who need a loving parent like you. Yeah, it's a crap shoot but it can be just as big a crap shoot when they're your own. Better for them, better for the environment, maybe even better for you. Just an idea....|
I have been sick sorry I am late!I dragged myself out of bed, against doctors orders to check to see what I have been missing! WOOOOW!
I am so excited, what a lucky child this one will be! I cannot wait to see. Beautiful and loveing Kaya and Cally, my blessings of parenthood I send to the!
Oh yeah and a few things to keep on hand for the lifetime of bliss, asperine and bandaids! LOL! You'll love it!
<>when you are ready you are ready.....the universe in its own infinite wisdom will conspire with you to make this dream a reality...................
good things on the way.......................
the art here is Dave McKean's interpretation of the Moon tarot card.
all the way hypnotic isn't it?
to me it captures a woman's surrender
her belly reflects the moon
becomes a vessel for a life force other than her own
this is my wish
~ and thank you everyone for casting good wishes of your own! ~adoptions bridge and foster love,
i've seen this in my sister with her kids.
it's inspiring, definitely worth considering~
i asked cally about her thoughts on adopting..
she said it's wonderful!
still, she wants to see me pregnant.
(i love the way she thinks)
by the way thanks ivy, for watching out.
no doubt your powers are finely tuned! ;-)
stephen i'm sad to have to scratch you off our list but i do understand...
skadi your daughter is beauty-full
and your new pictures are so love infused,
they really do bring me to rejoice!
Excited for youI am so excited for you!! I I look forward to your fullfiling your dream of becoming pregnant or parented-- however it is supposed to happen --by way of pregnancy adoption or both even. I am so excited for you. And I would love to throw you a baby shower. Luv Glitter
Tic toc Baby clockI want to come to the baby shower..........yes i agree with the ten others or so A lovely mama shall you be/\, You are so wonderful Kaya LOVE you!