I feel that I'm reaching an impasse in my life. There is a woman in my life whom I feel is like a soul sister to me, and that the resonating relationship that we have is beyond any sexual union. However I feel like very soon we are both approaching a fork in the road. One way seems a bit rockier, but I know where it leads, to the top of the mountain and the beginning of a stream, the other looks easy but leads down the other side of the mountain to a hot dry lake bed. I know where I'm going... We have only so much water to get us there. She wants to take the easy path to conserve the water, not knowing that it ends in a bad place.

For some time now i have seen my soul sister slump into a deep depression, becoming a slave to modern life. In her heart she know where the spirit lies, but is so consumed by fast food, consumerism, and the allure of the TV that she's following her misguided head. When I suggest that she get rid of the TV, or try to travel and experience more, suddenly I don't understand. She has children she has to think about... What seems to be missing is that the path shes walking down is taking those children to a very unfortunate place. In respecting their free will she's unknowingly depriving them of that very same thing by letting the mass media brainwash them in mislead them into a life of pain, suffering, and lonely disconnection.

Among our tribe we have far greater knowledge and experience than any public school and a sedentary life could ever impart upon those children(who I love as if they were my nieces.) But if she decides to walk down that other road... I feel that a great rift will be caused in the tribe, and I KNOW that our combined influence will be shattered, and the burden of walking up that hill will be all the more difficult and lonely for the few of us who choose that path, and those who walk down will vanish into the dust.

I see this woman waking up, I see the truth starting to flow through her once more. When I go over there the TV's off more, and she's starting to become excited and empowered in the world I am more hopeful than ever. Yet at the same time I know that fork is coming, its just over that next hill, or maybe the one after that, and if she's not ready by then, it'll be a sad day. Always i encourage her, encourage her to stretch, get an extra sip of that water, even carry the kids for a couple of miles so she can build her strength... but at a certain point there is a fine line between helping someone grow, and standing in his or her sunlight. With her presence our tribe is complete, and with her added influence her husband, children and many others will follow a path up the mountain to greatness...

What I am asking for here is not your advice(though I'm not rejecting it either.) What we need is your love, prayers, and support. Thank you my friends.
-Allen