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My journal these days is kept here: jazzpup.wordpress.com - it contains my journal entries from late 2005 here at Tribe through the journal I started in 2007 at LiveJournal, through the present.

Tomorrow is D-Day

So tomorrow's the big day....I go in at 3:45 to get my results from the final blood panel, and I hope with everything I am and everything I have that the results are favorable...that I do not have to go back on blood thinners and give up so many things that are dear to me for the rest of my life.

Thank you all for the good energy and understanding you have been sending my way...step by step, I'm pulling myself out of the dark abyss, but it's seeming to be a difficult climb.

Here's to the result I crave tomorrow, and continued improvement in my effort to rejoin humanity!

Call for Queer and Kinky Sensual Performers

International Ms Leather (IMsL) 2008 presents: "Seduction" -- An evening of burlesque, strip tease, lap dancing, drag, and more!


Thursday, May 1st, 2008
9 p.m. - 1 a.m.
Holiday Inn, Golden Gateway
San Francisco, CA

Formerly known as the "Lap Dance-a-Thon," this year's "Seduction" will be an evening of sensual entertainment targeted to raise money for IMsL's chosen charities as well as the title travel funds.

We're currently seeking the following fun and sexy types of performance acts to donate their talent to the cause:

Sensual Dance Troupes
Erotic Strip Tease
Burlesque Acts
Drag Kings
Drag Queens
Belly Dancers
Go-Go Boys, Bois, and Girls
Lap Dancers
????????

If you'd like to donate your time and passion to this exciting and sensual event (as a performer or a volunteer), please contact Jazz at: slave_jazz at yahoo dot com (email address edited to avoid spam bots) with the subject line: "Seduction". Please include a description of the type of performance you can offer, how many numbers you'd like to do (with an approximate length of each), and a brief resume of your performance experience (venues in which you've performed) and/or references.

Please note: we will not be able to include fire performances or full nudity; if you have any questions about this policy, please don't hesitate to ask!


And please don't hesitate to pass the word on to appropriate forums!

The Hardest Part of Love

"The Hardest Part of Love" from Children of Eden

NOAH
Oh father please don't make me choose
Either way it's more than I can bear to lose

Oh this son of mine I love so well
And all the toil it takes
I'd give to him a garden and keep clear of snakes
But the one thing he most treasures is to make his own mistakes ohhh
He goes charging on the cliffs of life
A reckless mountaineer
I could help him not to stumble
I could warn him what to fear
I could shout until I'm breathless
And he'd still refuse to hear ohhh

But you cannot close the acorn
Once the oak begins to grow
And you cannot close your heart
To what it fears and needs to know
That the hardest part of love
Is the letting go

As a child I found a sparrow
Who had fallen from the nest
And I nursed him back to health till he was stronger than the rest
But when I tried to hold it
It would peck and scratch my chest
Till I let it go
And I watched it fly away from me
With its brightened self resolve
And part of me was cursing I had helped it grow so strong
And I feared it might go hungry and I feared it might go wrong ohhh

But I could not close the acorn
Once the oak began to grow
And I cannot close my heart
To what it fears and needs to know
That the hardest part of love

FATHER
Is the letting go

NOAH
Is the letting go

FATHER
And it's only in Eden grows a rose without a thorn
And your children start to leave you
On the day that they were born
They will leave you there to cheer for them
They will leave you there to mourn ever so
Like an ark on uncharted seas their lives will be tossed
And the deeper is your love for them
The crueler is the cost
And just when they start to find themselves
Is when you fear they're lost ohhh

NOAH and FATHER
But you cannot close the acorn
Once the oak begins to grow
And you cannot close your heart
To what it fears and needs to know

NOAH
That the hardest part of love

FATHER
And the rarest part of love

NOAH and FATHER
And the truest is part of love
Is the letting go

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