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PINK PARTY, requesting a favor

narlycarly — Fri, 27 Jun 2008 20:29:53 GMT

Maybe it's not meant to happen, but a dear friend of mine and a great DJ, has been hosting an alley stage at the Pink party for the last few years. It is the one place in a sea of fags that has great music consistently. This year somebody's ego was bruised and he was not allowed to have his stage. Another dear friend happens to live a half block up the street from this very alley. He has offered to host a party in his Apartment for a few of us and Blast some killer beats into the street for a few hours. Seems pretty simple. I sold all my sound gear years ago, and have left a few spotty monitors and a mixer, 1200's and a bunch of cables. I have been trying to find somebody to loan us a set of Mackie self powered monitors, (15") It seems that no body is willing to help. In the off chance that somebody wants to join our brigade of innocent rebellion. I would be happy to do all the lifting. The Pink party is from 7-11pm on Saturday, in case your in SF and don't know about it. We would probably need the speakers a little before 5, and could return them around midnight or the next day. Anybody willing?

End of Premium Membership

narlycarly — Wed, 25 Jun 2008 14:53:03 GMT

I finally cancelled my membership. I Gave a good six + months of payments and still can't see the benefit. Most days I can't even log into tribe. How about instead of trying to develop "premium services" they work on site stability. I'd be happy to pay the $5 a month if this site weren't so terribly slow and unreliable. Grumble......

No snow, but hey!

narlycarly — Sat, 08 Mar 2008 16:01:07 GMT

So from time to time when I am at my work posting blog entries in my head that are beautifully composed and thought out. They never make it to the computer. Lazy? Forgetful? Past it, I have already worked those thoughts for all they are worth to me? Sometimes I would like the feed back, other times I am not finished processing the topics. Some of these topics consume me. I'm sure we all have these moments. But it seems like I have too much time in my corner at work and I just want to stop the voices in my head. I often wonder if there is a point to struggling these human emotions. For me, salvation and justification has come in a new format. Besides the activities that I try to busy myself with, I have found that taking pictures of these moments in my life, and looking at them, is helping me to come to terms with a seemingly pointless existence. The "seemingly pointless existence" wake up, go to work, go home, sleep, repeat, go out party on the weekends, monday, repeat, friday repeat. It can seem like your going nowhere, doing nothing worth while. But when I look at something as simple as a captured moment in time on screen or in frame, it reminds me that we all affect and effect each other profoundly. I guess not having a camera though most of my 20's I forgot how much I have done, and often the memories I latch on to are the ones that are my demons. On that note. Here is a series of photos from Snowfest weekend. http://www.flickr.com/photos/82333431@N00/sets/72157604068648706

Ski/Ride Tahoe

narlycarly — Fri, 22 Feb 2008 15:45:18 GMT

I'm over due for some real blogging, but I'm too lazy to sit down and do it. I also have some great pics from my trip to Silverton, transported, and stuff that's locked up in my camera. Anybody that wants to go skiing this or next weekend, or if you already had plans to go here's my itinerary. Sunday (crack-0-early) drive up ski Kirkwood and drive back. I have room for 1-2 more in my truck. March 1-2 Squaw. I have room for a few in my truck. I haven't done much planning for lodging. Don't know the weather either. Might stay with a friend, might drive the Airstream, might use the therma rest and fold the seats down. I would like to drive up friday and back sunday eve.

DO YOU SKI!

narlycarly — Mon, 14 Jan 2008 05:36:14 GMT

Ok were not talking a "blow" reference here. I'm talking about those white slopes covered in that frozen debris that falls from the sky. I need skier/boarder buddies. I am a very confident skiier and snowboarder. I'll drop into anything and make it down, not always graceful. I like to have FUN, get there early ride until I'm tired, then get a beer and some food. I'm usually willing to drive. If anybody is of this mindset, please chime in. I know there is a huge community of snow sporty people in the bay area. I want to commune with some of you. Lets play in the white stuff, during the day time.

Re-CAP +1

narlycarly — Thu, 03 Jan 2008 04:17:29 GMT

Ok so this year has been one of the better one's in about 30 or so. I know I keep telling people that this has been "the best year ever" but my X-mas present wasn't in a wrapper this year. I got to spend 8 days with my son, in ski country, doing what motivates me the most. I'm not a huge fan of cold weather, and I could be blissful in any tropical environment, but I freaking love skiing and snowboarding. REALLY, I'm serious. I spent 8 days being a ski patroller at Ski Cooper, and 9 days of that was me and the boy being goofy, tired, waking, eating, driving, BEING - boy and dad. It was freaking awesome. Just before I moved to California I was living with the boy. It was the best and worst time in my life. I was so happy to have Aidan living with me, but his mom and I have deep conflicts, and we mesh poorly. At the end of the scenario we all had to move out of the house, which put me in a great depression as I was watching my life in Boulder unravel to a vagabond shamble. The driving force of these last couple years has been his face in a picture (circa 1 year old) deep blue eyes staring at me when I wake up every morning, Even when I was living in my van in Boulder, trying to figure out how to piece my pathetic life back together, those blue eyes were the only reason I woke up in the morning. Don't Fuck Up!

Sticky fingers and greedy eyes.

narlycarly — Sun, 16 Dec 2007 01:49:46 GMT

Some people spend their life working hard for the things they enjoy, others have selfish abandonment. I guess it helps support the economy.. But in a very inhumane manor. I was greeted this afternoon to a back seat of broken glass. When the glass broke a few item flee'd my compartments, including the ever popular iPod and the cords, chargers, etc. A leather man, and a mini mag light. Although annoyed I'm able to replace these items. I suppose I can thank the villain for putting the first scratches on my new truck. Bending the window frame and scoring the door panel. I can also thank the ass cracker for making my day that much better. I have been trying to sedate my anger by being exceptionally friendly to those I interact with. We will see how long I can keep it up. Merry Holidays, Hug your neighbor.

A good day in the Haight

narlycarly — Fri, 14 Dec 2007 22:40:05 GMT

I am recovering from the Rave plague and took the day off from work. Well I tried to go in late but they wouldn't let me in the door. So at this point I have loaded myself with enough cough, cold, sniffly, sneezy, body ache, etc. chemicals to keep the drips, leaks, and squeaks at bay, feeling awake and ready to not go home and rot on the couch. I went to the mission to retrieve my Nalgene from the gym, highly frustrated with the non-availability of parking, I decided to go to the Haight and try to get a silly sweater for a holiday party that I am attending. Well the thrift stores are often more style oriented that gag oriented. I couldn't find my santa embroidered puffy sweater. I did however score some sexy new threads. I scored a super stylie vintage sport coat, a neato quazie constructed zip up hoodie, and a vintage polyester bell bottom pant.

Ice cream, Apples and Birthdays

narlycarly — Sat, 08 Dec 2007 06:07:16 GMT

So, I hate to use the term, but TGI(mf)F. Wow! This year has been exhausting and exhilarating. I have a few hours before I officially turn 31. And of course there is some time to reflect. Sf is and has been very good to me. I am happy to be here, happy for the friends I have made here, and the ones I have retained since moving. I have grown very much this year, and look forward to the days getting longer so I can sneak out of winter depression. Last month was pretty hard, but I had to keep reminding myself that it was because the days are getting shorter and your not in Colorado anymore where it's sunny 300 days out of the year. Ice cream. I have been searching for the perfect plain Chocolate ice cream for about a year and a half. Ben and Jerry's did a decent job, but still not there. I just found this other ice cream that will (for now) go in my top 5, PJ Madison, Ramona Chocolate. It's a boarderline Gelato. but the dark flavors are almost right. Great with raspberries. Not yet my ideal, but I have tried so many and been let down too many times. Any suggestions would be great. What I am looking for is a dark chocolate, bitter:sweet, seductive and yummie pint of heaven. Apples. We all know a fag loves the fruity apple store. They have the techno toys that get me off. I love my iPod, iBook, and the iPhone is pretty neato too. I recently had an annoying disaster with my iBook. The battery suddenly lost it's ability to hold a charge over 20 minutes. It's always been great with battery life. I decided to go in and see if they needed to reset something or tell me to buy a new battery because the computer is a few years old now. To my delight the cute Genius bar tech looked at me smiled and said, "I think your battery is under the free replacement defective program" Sure enough the serial number proved it and I was given a brand new battery. I was even wished a happy birthday! I dunno what I am doing this weekend, but I think I will end up at Fat City on Saturday. I hope to see some of you there. I am likely to show up late so I don't have to stand in that annoying line.

Seasons Greetings... or are they.

narlycarly — Sun, 02 Dec 2007 00:17:49 GMT

The one thing I have noticed about this Holiday rush time of year is that people tend to loose patients and are often only thinking about their end goal or task at hand. It's supposed to be a time of year to spread thanks, good will, cheer and humanity. Every year I find that these traits are being lost in the commercialism of the season. I had an excellent day helping a friend, having lunch, even sitting in bridge traffic for an hour, people were merging, and there was even an occasional turn signal. I was listening to some killer tuneage on the stereo, smiling dancing. Then I got to the toll, said thank you to the attendant and didn't even get a wince. Oh well whatever. Drive in to the city get off on 5th. Now now body is merging, giving an inch, cuttting across all lanes, as usual. I needed to get a few things at REI. the place is a zoo because of the holidays. I ease into the parking lot, there is an attendant directing the flow of traffic. I followed his directions and had to do a loop then he found a spot for me. I had to back up to fit because the guy next to me took a rather larger berth than his toyota needed. But trying not to be the quintessential SUV whore. I readjust to best fit into the 3/4 spot and still give him room to get into the car. As an asshole in his BMW SUV flies into the parking lot at 30 and ignores the attendant and almost cleans my rear bumper. I honk but it's useless. I go into REI shaking a little, shop around for a second but I'm still upset over Ass-monkey #1. Leave REI. Drive to TJ's (knowing full well it's going to be a zoo) I needed a few things at BB&B, then some bubbly at TJ's. Calmly wait for the traffic to ebb and flow, as it usually does, it takes a minute to let people shuffle there, so I never try to hurry that expedition. While waiting for cars to back out and shuffle on the top deck a guy pulls around me and 2 others to get in front of me, consequently blocking all trafffic flow onth upper deck, and getting no where. I get out of my "SUV" and ask him why he thought it was necessary and I was probably a bit heated by now. He rolled down his window, rolled his eyes and rolled his window back up. I got back into my truck and let it go, what ever, I'm trying to have a good day here. Still sitting in stopped traffic a car next to us pulls through and out the other side. Ass-monkey # 2 backs his car up into me and pulls into the spot. I was furious now. And started screaming at him. He didn't seem to mind that he had hit my car, and said "how typical, and asshole in an suv" To some extent he was right, I probably didn't need to harass him the first time, but I was dumb founded that people with this impatient and self serving attitude could call me an asshole. Luckily for him I was in the new car and not the Van, or I would have pulled some fried green tomatoes shit on his little VW cabrio. I looked him in the eye as he walked off and went to TJ's. I really wanted to key his car, but not willing to have that karma on my head. I left the parking lot as soon as I could get out, with out running any of my errands. I was so mad I was shaking. I realized then that it is going to take some intense self discipline to drive an SUV again, when the world thinks your the problem. I beg any of you to think a little bit about the people around you, remember it's a season of goodwill, not ill will. Smile and say hi to a stranger. Let the asshole go in front of you, and don't forget to breath.

Firsts

narlycarly — Sat, 01 Dec 2007 04:48:59 GMT

I have done the unthinkable and spent a considerable portion of my income (well not all at once) on a brand new vehicle. I know your all going to harass me about my carbon foot print, but I have done considerable research and made the best choice with in my budget. Am I happy? That would be affirmative with a yelping "fuck yah!" Top ten decision making factors. 1) the van is old, rusty, "FOR SALE", and a gross polluter 2) I sold my Audi and Vw 3) I bought an Airstream (a travel trailer) that weighs 7600 lbs fully loaded. 4) I ski often, even known to wear a red coat with a white cross on the back (the need for 4x4) 5) I like having room for friends 6) Didn't want a pick-up (NASCAR!!!!!!!!) although I have always wanted a place to put a gun rack, I have no guns, - - - - yet! 7) 5.7l Hemi with cylinder deactivation for improved fuel economy and a catalytic converter and computer engine management to reduce fuel consumption and emissions (the van has non of the above mentioned features) 8) Lifetime BUMPER to BUMPER warranty. (not just power-train, for $2700 more I got the whole deal) no milage or time run outs. 9) It has a sunroof and a cup holder (that is truly able to hold a beverage) infact it has 8. 10) I could finally afford it....... So call me a carbon creating bastard if you must. But ask yourself, would you condemn me if I bought a newer van, or a pick up, or is your car not as much a problem as mine. Does your Hybrid have an environmental impact, and who is bearing the cost. Fuel mileage is indeed a factor, but in the larger scheme of things, we can all play a roll in our carbon foot print. I think I spend my days doing a lot to improve mine and others, being an auto mechanic. I fix peoples cars and make them leak less oil, pollute less, run more efficiently every day. I recycle, when ever I can. i pack it in, pack it out (ok, no gay jokes here) when I camp, rave, squat, or reside. I try to shop local, eat organic, and shut off lights when I'm not using them. I avoid Walmarts and chains unless it's a dire helpless moment. (I do buy soap, and various other toiletries at target, and I have been seen at Ikea) But in closing, life happens, we can't be perfect, it's NOT POSSIBLE. I am very excited to have my first new car, and I wanted to share my moment of happiness with some of you. Merry New year, Happy (insert vague holiday greeting) I'm getting a Christmas tree this year! Dammit!

Soft and Cuddly

narlycarly — Sun, 18 Nov 2007 02:25:38 GMT

So I have taken a weekend off from the insanity of this dark city. Trying to find some self time, think, do errands, play with the kitties and download a shit ton of music. I have had a sonic crush on the band Teddybears Stockholm for a couple years now, but recently found they popped up in iTunes. I downloaded the album and was surely pleased to find different versions of the tracks that I already had and to hear more of them. I highly reccomend them for a listen, or even the $10 to purchase the album. Kind of electro pop, but not too in your face cheeze. Think Iggy Pop, infact he has vocals in some of them. In the same night I have added a slew of Le Tigre to my collection and I am seeking the album "love love love" by "glass candy" partly because a past lover/crush that is also seeking it. I have found a few random songs and a website, but of course no "immediate" purchase availabily online. I did find an older album via sharing, shhhhhh. I don't want to wait for a cd in the mail. Lame - well say what you will I am a creature of technology. Should anybody have some reccomendations that don't involve a stricktly techno base, I am open and seeking audiophonic inspiration. P.S. I love Techno (umbrella term) and all of it's sub genres. I am trying to stay well rounded.

Toast!

narlycarly — Sat, 17 Nov 2007 02:25:46 GMT

I'm not a huge fan of the Bob and Tom show, but I ran across this great short by Haywood Banks. http://youtube.com/watch?v=2TzSayiVPAI

Did that just come from your ass!

narlycarly — Wed, 07 Nov 2007 04:06:42 GMT

OK so I'm assuming that anybody that breaths air has farted at least once in their life. Often I go climbing after work. Tonight I was doing my last route and it was one I have done prior, but it's still a bit of work for me, contorting and lifting yourself. Tonight some girl was watching me grapple up the wall. I had 2 moves to go on the way up and had to dyno to the next hold and I let out the most glorious "braaapppt" and completely gassed out the cove we were in. I almost fell off the wall laughing, but I held on to the end and then climbed down. As I was leaving I was wondering what she thought, if she thought I was embarrassed and running out of the gym to hide in my home and poop, or it was time I had been there long enough and it was my last climb, or if I had to run to the bath room and check to see if I pooped myself. Or maybe she was asphyxiated by my gastro-intestinal prowess.

Breath, Sleep, Relax!

narlycarly — Sat, 13 Oct 2007 14:25:11 GMT

WOW! Talk about 4 months of complete insanity. Not that there are a lot of free moments to be spared in this city, but the weeks leeding up to Burning man, moving, and all the other trips, festivals and obligations, were about to over whelm and sink me. The gauntlet has been passed, and the calm waters of the bay are slowly lapping at my sides. I am sitting in my bed thinking of the dubious tasks I have lined up for myself this weekend and appreciating the time I have to get them done. But not feeling a deadline. I just got back from Europe and had a very enjoyable first trip to a very rich land. It was crazy to be looking at and being in buildings that were older than our founded country. Interacting with people that have many of our nations traits but in a more genuine demeanor. It was a whirlwind tour of London, Amsterdam (barely), rural Holland, and back. I am very much looking forward to next time, but also ready to enjoy being a local for a few months. Here are some pics. http://www.flickr.com/photos/82333431@N00/sets/72157602346187409/

Travel Help or suggestions for Europe

narlycarly — Tue, 25 Sep 2007 14:34:37 GMT

Here's the deal I am again arriving on a deadline and doing everything at the last minute. I am Flying into London in a week. I need to get from London to Berlin to Amsterdam to London in a week. I was thinking of flying vs trains because of the time crunch. I could however take a train from London to Berlin because that leg of the trip is pretty open, By Friday I need to get to Amsterdam in a shorter period of time and then Monday night I need to get back to London for my return flight. Does anybody know a good travel agent or a website that offers cheep CHEEP tickets. I will fly with Livestock and risking my life... well shit some of you know me by now.

Zeitgeist

narlycarly — Thu, 13 Sep 2007 14:17:31 GMT

I just downloaded and watched this last night. Part 1 was fascinating. Part 2 and 3 were as I suspected but still a good watch. I don't need a movie to tell me not to trust my own government. But the power of 1 is diminutive force, at least on the Blue collar level. http://www.zeitgeistmovie.com/ It's about 2 hours long, bit torrent it and burn a DVD watch in your living room. Or not.

Fog layers

narlycarly — Sat, 16 Jun 2007 02:02:55 GMT

Complex and uncontrollable Beautiful and dismal Fluffy and overbearing Rushing and calming It's amazing how a simple process of condesation and airflow can change a mood, make or break for the better or worse. I am sitting at my window watching downtown San Francisco be enveloped by a thick layer of fog, yet I can see blue sky above it, and it's still perfectly sunny on my deck. The Transamerica building is shrouded in a veil of grey. Not even 10 blocks away it's gloomy and dreary, as if the world was ending. Being a person that is highly succeptable to mood swings with season changes and weather patterns, I felt my Friday glee slip into a funk as soon as the city stopped glistening. I have nothing to be sad about this afternoon, at least not anything more than the usual dull roar of fires that I cannot quell at this time in my life. I have a one big problem I guess, there are so many things I want to do tomorrow and I don't know how I am going to fit them all in. That is happy stress though. Tonight, we dance! Come fog, stars, rain, hail or amphibians falling from the sky, I am going to shake this booty, be merry, sweet, kind and friendly. The fog has thickened to the point where Atlantis (downtown) is under water. It's still sunny on my deck. See you at Shine!

Cast Iron Skillet

narlycarly — Sun, 03 Jun 2007 16:00:33 GMT

Anybody that cooks can probably appreciate my terror this morning. I have a very old (30+ years) 6" round cast iron skillet. It has been seasoned to perfection, to the point that it's more non-stick that the top of the line teflon coated omelet pan. I made myself an egg yesterday morning and left the pan on the stove. I went to make one this morning to find that had left the stove on for 24 hours. I almost started bawling right then. I turned the stove off, inspected the pan, it somehow still had liquid oil on the edges. I definitely cooked off at least 15 years of seasoning near the middle. Thank my new kitchen for having a high end gas stove that truely does have a simmer setting on the range. I can only imagine how bad this could have been on an electric stove. I am in the process of reseasoning and making very sure the stove is off. PHEW!

Great night, Happy Morning, Sad day

narlycarly — Thu, 24 May 2007 05:19:54 GMT

I had such a great Tuesday night. I went climbing again, finally after deciding my toe was better enough. I fire hooped a stint. Went to Trannyshack for the Bjork night, got hit on by a hotty. Got a cab and the driver ended up being my friend Philo. I woke up with out a hangover. Got to work and the shithead that was making my job annoying finally left for good. I went into the office to talk to the boss but THEN I got a phone call. Normally I wouldn't think too much about a phone call, but the area code was a reckognizeable one from my old home area. I answered it to hear a wobbly voiced version of my friend Rick. It didn't sound like him. The second sentence out my mouth was "don't say it" third, "please I can't hear it right now, please tell me something good" He said he couldn't do that. He told me that a good friend of both of ours had been killed in a car accident. I spent the work day shaking, angry, sad, melencholy, and all the usual feelings. It didn't really sink in until reading some e-mails and posts from friends. Then seeing the news clip with his car upside down in a ditch. I'm still in shock, I can feel my heart racing, and face cracking on the verge of bawling. It's not the first time I have had to accept this situation. I have had many. Chris was such a stellar human being in so many ways. He's been a close friend for most of my life in Colorado. I can't explain how his opinions and acceptance have shaped my life. But I am greatful and honored to have had him in my life. It's funny how death makes your worst problems trite in comparison.

Intuition or Inexcuseable

narlycarly — Tue, 22 May 2007 01:33:23 GMT

People say the dogs are a better judge of character than humans. After 30 trips around the sun I have had some good encounters and unvaforable. Often some of my worst enemies have been my best friends. But sometimes your best friends are the ones that can screw you over the worst. I feel terrible about judging somebody before I even got introduced. Often I would just laugh it off, but this time if may have been sheer jealousy or envy. I am going to try to make an effort to not repeat this act. I find my own action inexcuseable and wish I could apologize in person. To the girl on Hippy hill, I am truely sorry. I don't know your name or if you heard my comments. I hope that you did not, but none-the-less I don't have any resonable excuse and I hope someday I have a chance to meet you again.

The Sun is back.

narlycarly — Thu, 19 Apr 2007 02:51:31 GMT

I am a creature of daylight. I shine brightest when I can see as far as the earth curves by natural light. My three favorite light sources are the Sun, the Moon and lightning (electric eals are cool but cold blooded slithery things creep me out) The best part of spring is the promise of summer. For me that means less depression, more activity, happier thoughts, better moods, less road rage and forgiveness. It also causes me to spend every last dime I have. Luckily this time I have a few more dimes than this time last year when I a was selling everything I owned to pay off the heating bill and living out of my van. I did actually like living in the van, it was much easier to stop collecting crap and widdle down to the things that you actually use from day to day. This year my spending habits are a bit more goal oriented. Although as usual I am having trouble focusing. I bought a small house on wheels, I'm preparing for the big quake in SF. When my house is leveled I have a back up. But for those that know me well, I'm full of shit, but leave me to my justifications. They have got me to the ripe age of 30 with out being beaten to death or murdered by society. <<back to topic>> I am finally almost on board with the IRS. I actually have an accountant that filed my last 2 years taxes and is working on getting my last big fuck up organized. At least this time I think I have the money saved up to pay them off and be debt free. So...what to do with out looming financial ruin? I put an order in for a new truck.....yes, I was going to sell the "Super Raver Party Van" and buy a new modern 4x4 SUV gas guzzling leather appointed road castle. Then I had a realization.... I think I can actually buy a house this year. I know I have said this before, but it's a real possibility this time. Change of Plans. I canceled my order, or rather never acutally put a down payment on the Durango. I will wait another year. I think the van can haul the Airstream to BRC this year, if I am nice to it and stroke the shifter. (some of you are laughing right now) I am likely to buy a house in either Tahoe area or Colorado ski country, use it as a vacation home/rental. So for those of you ski/board junkies, I like beer, foot rubs, meals, blow jobs, wine, and a few other things (of course cold hard cash is great) So I am going to try to quell my spring spending and start saving for the menial down payment on the biggest debt I have ever had. Wish me luck! And I will let you know when and where the house warming party is. To all I say happy spring to, I mean it with the very nerve ends I have left. It scares me to be in such a good mood, but SF has been such a positive life experience so far. I hope you can all find enlightenment and learning sooner than bitter. People always talk about being able to manifest the things you need in life, and the things you fear. I guess it helps to focus on the positive and stop fearing life. I'm finding this ever so real the more time I spend on earth.