IF

If the universe were yours and mine alone...
If our hearts didn't know the feel of pain...
If our world didn't know the sound of war...
If hatred was replaced by love...
If the sound of angels' wings was heard by all...
If laughter filled your world and mine...
If summer's magic never ended...
If moonlight strolls were mandatory fare...
If first love never grew old...
If children never lost their innocence...
If all knew that God was their best friend...
If mother earth could breathe pure air again...
If only you knew what I know...
that...the if's aren't if's at all...
that in one glorious, magnificent span
of time, when the earth stands still...
each momentous rippling change
upon rippling change...
Then & only then will all mankind know
that love is all there is, ever was, or ever will be.

Shari 1994

Taken from: www.sharibillger.com/

I polarize in order to explore,
Stabilizing wakefulness.
I seal the output of space
With the lunar tone of challenge.
I am guided by the power of life force.
I am a galactic activation portal...enter me.

Guide: Serpant
Challenge: Night
Compliment: Worldbringer
Hidden: Star

White Northern Castle of Crossing – Court of death, power of descending

Red Root Race - The initiators. Key note: birth

Earth family: Blue Night, Yellow Star, Red Skywalker, White Mirror

SignalKin – Unravel the mystery Solar-plexus receive

Truth Clan - White Chromatic

Tone: 2, Note: C#, Name: Lunar, Function: Challenge

Find out your Mayan type here: www.starroot.com/cgi/daycalc.pl

There are 23 letters in your name.
Those 23 letters total to 112
There are 8 vowels and 15 consonants in your name.

What your first name means:
Shakespearean Male 'King Henry the Eighth' Sir Nicholas Vaux.
Greek Male People's victory. St. Nicholas is the patron saint of children, sailors, and pawnbrokers - Santa Claus is based on this saint.

Your number is: 4

The characteristics of #4 are: A foundation, order, service, struggle against limits, steady growth.

The expression or destiny for #4:
Order, service, and management are the cornerstones of the number 4 Expression. Your destiny is to express wonderful organization skills with your ever practical, down-to-earth approach. You are the kind of person who is always willing to work those long, hard hours to push a project through to completion. A patience with detail allows you to become expert in fields such as building, engineering, and all forms of craftsmanship. Your abilities to write and teach may lean toward the more technical and detailed. In the arts, music will likely be your choice. Artistic talents may also appear in such fields as horiculture and floral arrangement, as well. Many skilled physicians and especially surgeons have the 4 Expression.

The positive attitudes of the 4 Expression yield responsibility; you are one who no doubt, fulfills obligations, and is highly systematic and orderly. You are serious and sincere, honest and faithful. It is your role to help and you are required to do a good job at everything you undertake.

If there is too much 4 energies present in your makeup, you may express some of the negative attitudes of the number 4. The obligations that you face may tend to create frustration and feelings of limitation or restriction. You may sometimes find yourself nursing negative attitudes in this regard and these can keep you in a rather low mood. Avoid becoming too rigid, stubborn, dogmatic, and fixed in your opinions. You may have a tendency to develop and hold very strong likes and dislikes, and some of these may border on the classification of prejudice. The negative side of 4 often produces dominant and bossy individuals who use disciplinarian to an excess. These tendencies must be avoided. Finally, like nearly all with 4 Expression, you must keep your eye on the big picture and not get overly wrapped up in detail and routine.

Your Soul Urge number is: 9

A Soul Urge number of 9 means:
With a 9 Soul Urge, you want to give to others, usually in a humanitarian or philanthropic manner. You are highly motivated to give friendship, affection and love. And you are generous in giving of your knowledge and experience. You have very sharing urges, and you are likely to have a great deal to share. Your concern for others makes you a very sympathetic and generous person with a sensitive and compassionate nature.

You are able to view life in very broad and intuitive terms. You often express high ideals and an inspirational approach to life. If you are able to fully realize the potential of your motivation, you will be a very self-sacrificing person who is able to give freely without being concerned about any return or reward.

As with all human beings, you are prone to sometimes express the negative attitudes inherent to your Soul Urges. You may become too sensitive and tend to express emotions strongly at times. There can be significant conflict between higher aims and personal ambitions. You may resent the idea of giving all of the time and, in fact, if there is too much 9 energy in your nature you may reject the idea. You may often be disappointed in the lack of perfection in yourself and others.

Your Inner Dream number is: 4

An Inner Dream number of 4 means:
You dream of being a very solid citizen that people can depend upon. You strive for organization and predictable order. You want to be recognized as a person with a plan and the discipline to make that plan work like clockwork.


Taken from: www.paulsadowski.com/NameData.asp

Now many will ask how do we awaken into full unified perception and articulation ?..... but this is not a simple answer ..... it is likened unto telling a child how to ride a two-wheel bike .... but this is as you know from your own experience difficult to instruct, but the child from much practice and failures eventually learns by innate nature how to balance and
ride the bike.

if you were to ask each child how it is done, they all would tell you a differing technique of how they achieved to ride the bike, none were the same experience learning as the other .... although similar from a distance, but not from internal fields of perception.

this is the great plan, the saviour so to speak of all physical universes and living sentient species, the human projection was to free those enslaved, but became enslaved in the process itself. you are a new design model, a new species, containing all elements of
physical and non-physical ..... the first species to walk a bridge between matter and non-matter, the visible and non-visible simultaneously .... it is through you and your retro-viral design which will spawn a new heaven and earth so to speak .


The human stream of conciousness and physicality was a unique thought seed which manifested itself in the physical. It's purpose was to be a free will and free choice beings who were impartial to STS (service to self) and STO (service to others) modes and free to remain in the balance or move across side to side ......... but also to embody the all-that-is for purpose of creation and expression and experience.... to have a foot in heaven as well as earth so to speak...

note: just as STS beings can be detrimental, so can STO ..... both can be extreme and never resolving and pendulum always swinging from STS to STO ....... it is known thought that the STO way of being is used as a way of how you should express in ....
you are always told, to be in service of others, serve, serve, serve ....... but this is in vain, just as is STS way of being-ness.

you see STS beings will always tell you to be in service of others ........ cause ultimately it is them you are serving.;o))

so you must find a balance and you must do as your hearts wishes .... otherswise you will be expressing the desires of others and not your own.

-> Blue & Raphiem

The witnessing soul is like the sky. The birds fly in the sky but they don't leave any footprints. That's what Buddha says, that the man who is awakened lives in such a way that he leaves no footprints. He is without wounds and without scars; he never looks back -- there is no point. He has lived that moment so totally that what is the need to look back again and again? He never looks ahead, he never looks back, he lives in the moment.

All beings are from the very beginning Buddhas. It is like water and ice: Apart from water, no ice, outside living beings, no Buddhas. Not knowing it is near they seek it afar, what a pity!

You are a Buddha. But remember you are not a Buddha in any special sense. Everybody is - So don't take it in an egoistic sense that "I" am a Buddha. Don't make it ambitious, don't go on an ambition trip. All is Buddha. Life is Buddha, being is Buddha-hood, existence is Buddha-hood.

All that you need is just to be silent and listen to existence. There is no need of any religion, there is no need of any God, there is no need of any priesthood, there is no need of any organization.

The whole world is a cyclone. But once you have found the center the cyclone disappears. This nothingness is the ultimate peak of consciousness.

All that this world needs is a good cleansing of the heart of all the
inhibitions of the past. And laughter and tears can do both. Tears will take out all the agony that is hidden inside you and laughter will take all that is preventing your ecstasy. Once you have learned the art you will be immensely surprised.

Life is not a tragedy, it is a comedy. To be alive means to have a sense of humor.

If you are absolutely without mind, just pure consciousness, time stops completely, disappears, leaving no trace behind. - osho

You are a non-physical consciousness that is experiencing physical reality.
You were created in the image of The Creator, your essential essence is unconditional love and the experience of ecstasy is your birthright.
You are here on Earth at this time because you chose to be.
The highest purpose of your life is to be yourself to the best of your ability and live each moment as fully as possible.
You always have free will and the freedom to choose.
Anything you can imagine is possible for you to experience.
You attract your life experiences through the interaction of your strongest beliefs, emotions and actions.
Excitement is the physical translation of the vibrational resonance that is your true, core natural being. Follow your excitement!
You are naturally abundant and your choices are always supported by Creation.

There are only Four Laws in Creation:
1. You exist.
2. The One is All and the All are One .
3. What you put out is what you get back.
4. Change is the only constant... Except for the first three laws, which never change.

There is actually only one moment in Creation. Everything you experience is the same moment from a different point of view.
You create the past and the future from the here and now.
You are an eternal being and while you may change your form, you cannot cease to exist.

Everything you experience is another aspect of yourself.
You are loved so unconditionally by Creation that you can even choose to believe that you are not loved.

Taken from www.bashar.org