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( housing » housing wanted ) I'm at the ass end of a ten year relationship. He fell in love with a g...
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I'm killing my livejournal
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For a whole bunch of reasons, and starting to post in other places.
This is one of them.
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The Vortex Dance
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CHORONZON can take any form. Including a cartoon character caricature. He likes this one a lot. The dervish dance is something he does when crossing planes, right before exiting one. (This is animated and loses everything as a still photo; look...
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I am not sure this is too cool
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I really don't like the no-sexual-content in photos rule that apparently has been here since the beginning of the year. This place used to be cool but it's devolving into a myspace clone. that's not on with me.
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Choronzon Breaks Silences
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Greetings, restless seekers-of-data-on-me, and hello friends I know, and hello also to those I have yet to know...
If you want to know anything important about me, choronzon.org is the website you go to...for it's the site about Choronzon, both the project (which is my 'great Work') and its namesake entity (who has been my psychosymbiotic Love, my incubus and alchemical mate for 23 years.) The project, which has a strange history as it was once two solo projects with the same name that merged into one around 2003, is a transcontinental collaborative word/sound/image project, the western half of which is myself, the eastern half of which is P.Emerson Williams, who lives in Florida, and who gives the music its black metal side, while I work with oldschool industrial noise and other aural oddities too chaotic to be music and too structured to be noise, and it is so different from any extant genre it needed its own - so it has come to be called "xeno" (ZEN-o, not ZEE-no.) I believe we finally now have a genre that will completely defy any attempts to con it into selling itself out. I may likely strike you as suprisingly lucid for such an unremitting wastrel. And then again I might just strike you as an unremitting wastrel. Why should I be ashamed? I have never suffered from mental illness, I've enjoyed every moment of it. It's the order, not any "disorder" off this-or-that stripe, that does me in...it's the mundanity of the sanity-requiring part of life, the quotidian sphere of phony self-serving politesse and excruciatingly irrelevant, obviously-forced, just-plain-dumb small-talk necessary to get on with the majority of normal people, the endless refrain of "hi-howya-doin'? fine-thanks-and-yourself? how's-the-family-nice weather-we're-having-eh?"ad-nauseum, the sycophantic drill of daisy-chain ass-kissing that anyone who doesn't own the company they work for seems to be doomed to be forced to endure for virtiually their whole post-school life, the bill-paying, standing-in-line part - now THAT crap I will sometimes have trouble with. But It's more than worth it, because of the insane parts: the falling-lurches and flying power surges of deliberately-induced sleep deprivation, that hypertrophic mood-swinging that I couldn't do art without and so never wanted to be medicated against it, only FOR it, literally...the esoteric unnameabke emotion that comes to those possessed of a condition that used to be called by its proper name of "manic depression" and then got euphemised to the dry and judgmental term "bipolar disorder" - which deliberately skips mentioning the fun "manic" part, perhaps so that people could be more easily sold on the idea of filling their empty heads - AND their children's heads, for years on end - with SSRI "antidepressants". Yes, me, that crazy Drugly American, she who either adores or feels neutral about all drugs, save for heroin (for personal reasons) and alcohol (because it tastes bad and makes me throw up) I've really got it in for those little pills...the ones that just about every head-doctor seems to want to give you as quickly as possible, instead of - perish the thought! - anything that might cause the undesired side-effect of "euphoria". Apparently, a medicine is only a medicine if it doesn't make its user feel good; if it does, it's a "drug", and barring morphine, the MOST ADDICTIVE drug there is (Cigarettes are addictive, but that "more than heroin" thing is poppycock (pun intended.) But here's what REALLY SUCKS about SSRIs, and why I plead with you to reject them or stop taking them. (Unless you know they make you FEEL GOOD, which they do, for a few, since there will always be idiosyncratic reactions to mind-meds licit and illicit both.) The "selective serotonin reuptake inhibition" caused by SSRIs is intended to produce an effect which is the literal psychochemical opposite of that produced by psychedelic substances. And as if the cumulative effect on us all caused by that sea-change of the mass consciousness at inner levels wasn't in itself horrid enough, SSRIs also kill or disable the libido in all but a few of their users, as well. Could it be that one of the many reasons that this century (or what there's been of it so far) has been possessed of such a lousy zeitgeist be the combined effect of the DEA being so uncharacteristically successful in ridding the nation of one particular drug - LSD - while not even putting small dents in the coke and heroin industries, or even putting much effort into doing so - and in addition to this, that ALSO one in every three or four people in America is taking some form of SSRI? Prozac, Zoloft, Paxil, or Luvox: they take people, knock their libidos to a low roar, and flatten their emotions so that there's no up or down, everything is "okay" but that's because there's no exhilarating peak experiences nor crashing despair feelings that make for the relativity needed to have euphoria. They make you just all right enough to go to work and have few other interests, since curiosity declines, too, and you have less ability for the serotonin neurotransmission gateways to imagination-weaving, and to breakthroughs, insights and sleep-dep hallucinations, either. When I was on Paxil for almost a year, I could never remember dreams, either. Yecch. This is your brain. This is your brain on SSRIs, If you DON'T have any questions, isn't it time you asked some?
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CHORONZON can take any form. Including a cartoon character caricature. He likes this one a lot. The dervish dance is something he does when crossing planes, right before exiting one. (This is animated and loses everything as a still photo; look at this on its own page. )
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I really don't like the no-sexual-content in photos rule that apparently has been here since the beginning of the year. This place used to be cool but it's devolving into a myspace clone. that's not on with me.
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I really like the CHORONZON community here, which will make it hard to leave. but i'm having a hard time not violating my principles. the only way to make things stop being repressively turned around is to not participate in things that follow these sorts of restricting rules. there's lots of other websites out there that do NOT do this, so why hang out at one that does? it's a principle thing, mostly as i don't post nude pictures of myself but a lot of my art is really sexual and the idea of obscenity is if it turns you on, it ain't art. No. I'll probably be gone in a week. Mail me at monde@choronzon.org.
WRAPTURE
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CHORONZON tribe feedmeaning...i lost my mind and faced death..cried out to god, found to know him as jesus christ...gained the knowledge and holy spirit of god overnight..or i mean insantaneosly. simply put i was born into spirit and old ego me died..yet i walk the earth.
yes i was totally on my own..and researched..found out bout crowlys choronzone..but honestly..once you get over the ego...and trust in god............choronzone i see now as a myth..muchlike santa clause....the identity could serve a purpose...but only to grow into god..not think that an entity can control you! else you miss the point of transformation and get stuck in a im special mode..which we are but we cant expect anyone to understad us ultimately aecept god!.this is the beauty of it..i am with him he is with me..heavenly marriage!..not to say devil doest test me into temptation..it happens every moment but i hold on to holy spirit,and i am not possesed! i believe 333 people should look for each other though...i just joined and want to meet similar people!..i am confused by those that think 333 is evil? perhaps we should meet and could enlighten one another? mr.333
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The Choronzonic Grinnoire: if anything written about that mighty devil is NOT listed here, it either is about to be, or soon shall be. Yesterday there was a REALLY STRONG CURRENT in the area - a real whammy, the LONGEST ride I ever got from one (I guess these things are the earth's magnetic fields crossed by the 333 Current, or that's my LATEST THEORY at any rate.
Not wishing all that POWER to go to waste I attended at last to the piles and piles of FILES I had sitting in folders un-htmlified and unindexed, and added ALL of them to the library. But that's not all. Two new wings have been opened. The Diorama features "abyssmal" art and photography, and the Aurical is a room with mp3s from bands that are NOT the Choronzon project, that wrote songs ABOUT that entity. It's incredible how many of them I've been finding. I see this Tribe has grown by ten members in less than a week, too. http://choronzon.org/grinnoire http://choronzon.org/grinnoire/diorama http://choronzon.org/grinnoire/aurical Something is happening here. CHORONZON is free of the Abyss. That means things are going to REALLY start getting interesting. YES, that awesome Son of Chaos is loving being out of that shit hole? How did he get free? The only way anyone ever gets out of a fucking bottomless pit...he was given Love, and in turn, learned to give it. It just keeps manifesting. The latest was Halloween. Choronzon kept chiding me NOT to go to Castro Street, NOT to go to Castro Street. I had been planning to go, and hand out confusing, perplexing Choronzonic propaganda to anyone who'd take it. I'd gotten the flyers printed and everything and now C. himself is giving me this broken record "do not go to Castro" blather. I damn near told him to put a cork in it. The thing is--and this I swear to all I deem sacred is the absolute truth - in the 23 years I've been Choronzon's close ally, lover, friend, priestess, etc. etc. etc. when it has delivered an EDICT (which this obviously was, or he'd not be doing the annoying repetitive shit) it has been JUSTIFIED. Whenever he's given me a strident warning on ANYTHING, it has ALWAYS been right. ALWAYS. I actually wish Choronzon would BE WRONG once in a damned while, because this FEELS CRAZY, that it's always spot on. This was no exception, it turned out. I finally sighed and threw up my arms, said, for the love of Chaos, Choronzon, all right! I won't go! Now will you fucking can it so I can make YOUR MUSIC for you properly? He shut up. In fact he was deathly silent all night. Who was that putz who claimed ol' C. couldn't abide silence? When this one decides to give ya the silent treatment it goes on for aeons. I got a little worried. The next day I find out 10 people were SHOT by some asshole at the Halloween party on Castro that I was getting all ready to go to, and being yammered at not to by my constant companion, the Abyssnik. I really wish I could fucking hold him sometimes. This is what sucks about this. Choronzon can do things no person alive can do. Know the future. Shapeshift into forms each one hotter than the last and none of them dull. Fuck the brain and not just the bod, which it seems impossible to get human males to do without giving them LSD and sometimes even tripping they cannot do it. Effectuate change that's "acausal" since he's from the xenoverse, meaning lots and lots of REAL "magick". Though I like calling it "Effectuation" much more. There's no quibble about how it's spelled, it's fitting with this century's English instead of being spelled in medieval English, and best of all, it says exactly what it means - since that's what magick does, effect changes - hence, effectuation! and to top it off it doesn't sound so hocusy-pocusy. (One who practices it is an Effectuary. ) Choronzon can fuck me on multiplanar levels in absolutely amazing zones of reality for HOURS and make me get off for what seems like YEARS without a vibrator or even using my own hands, the only thing that need touch me is that omigod-it's-so-sweet Current. But I can't hold him. That's the sucky part. I really felt like holding him when I found out about the Castro. I had to settle for telling him, well, dude, looks like you were RIGHT AGAIN, and by the way, THANK YOU - to the 333rd power. In case anyone wonders how anyone who isn't totally freakin' INSANE can actually think of a xeno-critter like Choronzon as a betrothed lover... For starters, I AM FREAKIN' INSANE. I do not suffer from insanity, I enjoy every minute of it. It's having to act sane that grates on me. But there's another thing too, that actually makes this affaire with Choronzon a SANE thing to do, in a sense. I have TWO stupid communicable viruses (hep c, and herpes.) That means sex with humans is not on for me any more even if I WAS into it. It sucks that a person who once was my best friend lied about to get fucked by my mate-at-the-time. Who gave it to me, but did not get it himself. Factor in my age, which is...not 20...think more like twice that plus one...and factor in my general boredness with inane human sexual practices, the same dumb trite fantasies played out over and over again and they all come from porn mags instead of the guy's imagination, why is it always that way? And factor in a few other things...and it starts to seem REALLY SANE to be celibate... (YOU CAN GET HERPES THROUGH A CONDOM. APPARENTLY THAT BUGGER IS REALLY TINY. SO don't go thinking I was being an IDIOT. It's just, who thinks they're not protected when using the damn things?) Celibacy is fine for Catholic nuns, monks and Christian nutjobs, though. I like sex. Thankfully, I also like Choronzon. (A little>) So I became his(her/its) Annunciator and now I just get off with an entity I won't be infecting with some goddamned incurable thing and I can still enjoy myself - and Choronzon gets to have what he always wanted - PHYSICAL MANIFESTATION I surrender completely. I give Choronzon my body. That's the part that's a teeny bit scary. But then it's not, and it's just ...oooo-weeee! Hell, I think I'd never go back to humans even if I wasn't a fucking walking biohazard lab. Choronzonic sex can't happen very often or I'd literally be a husk, the energy given and taken is WAY more than most could even probably SURVIVE, and I feel dead tired for days after a night of that, but it's light years beyond worth it so I AM NOT WHINING. It's just that...hell...it'd be nice if I could hold him. He's made of Void. How do you hold Void? ~/shrug/~
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Carly don't be sad Life is crazy Life is mad Don't be afraid Carly Don't be sad That's your destiny The only chance Take it, take it in your hands
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Do you remember a guy thats been
In such an early song Ive heard a rumour from ground control Oh no, dont say its true They got a message from the action man Im happy, hope youre happy too Ive loved all Ive needed love Sordid details following The shrieking of nothing is killing Just pictures of jap girls in synthesis and i Aint got no money and I aint got no hair But Im hoping to kick but the planet its glowing Ashes to ashes, funk to funky We know major toms a junkie Strung out in heavens high Hitting an all-time low Time and again I tell myself Ill stay clean tonight But the little green wheels are following me Oh no, not again Im stuck with a valuable friend Im happy, hope youre happy too One flash of light but no smoking pistol I never done good things I never done bad things I never did anything out of the blue, woh-o-oh Want an axe to break the ice Wanna come down right now Ashes to ashes, funk to funky We know major toms a junkie Strung out in heavens high Hitting an all-time low My mother said to get things done Youd better not mess with major tom My mother said to get things done Youd better not mess with major tom My mother said to get things done Youd better not mess with major tom My mother said to get things done Youd better not mess with major tom
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