i don't feel like blogging.

so then why'm i doing it?

cuz i want so much to capture my first few years in the bay area since my transition here has been so powerful.

this one will be short and sweet:

every week i spend about 3 days or nights with my newest lover, the persian. i still have the hots for him and he keeps finding all new ways to keep me satisfied.

this week, i was bored in bed and wanted to go for a walk instead. but we had limited time together so i wanted to spend it with him. it's hard scheduling around both of our busy lives plus we both have primary partners' schedules to consider.

he tied a blindfold around my eyes, one of my fave black and white bandannas. then he pulled out all kinds of goodies from my bedside table (i keep all sorts of stimuli in there - mental and physical!) many of the items he used were not intended for sensation play, but he made them feel so good on my body.

then he plopped little drops of strawberry yogurt on my body while i was blinded. that was fun! and he licked them off me. (trader joe's belgian chocolate pudding is good for this too - we tried both. mmmmmmmmmm)

he is so damn hot!

i just adore him. he makes me come so many diff ways.

sunday i worked the maker faire. i loved that event! technogeeky folks combined with crafty people, combined with greening advocates, combined with burner art - big shit that blew up!!! - and steampunk culture and of course, my fave snack, kettle corn!!!! and lots of great new music i'd never heard before.

that was fun!!!!!!!!!!!!

i worked play day with michaeltheassholemoderatorofbaos. i decided i actually like him in person. he's an ass online, (randomly kicking off anyone who he doesn't like from his very popular tribe and thriving on their confusion) but in person he's a sweetheart and very funny and interesting. go figure!

ha!

friday i danced with the shamanic cheerleaders (to celebrate national dance anywhere week) with my lover. they're making a youtube vid!!! hahahaha! we were so bad. my lover and i - i mean. the cheerleaders were great! what a great idea! cheer for progressive causes, not for sports teams, and incorporate yoga poses and shit into it! it was so funny and so much fun!

saturday, i was interviewed on pirate cat radio about the bay area bisexual network and kweer kuddles! that was sooooooooooooo much fun! got to meet the uberhot redhead from london who's producing the bilicious show at the lgbt center on june 7. (i'd gotten her on there to interview too. that all came about through my meeting scott moresi, a bi artist, at my kweer kuddle. i'm a good networker and i love to share collaborative ventures!) her way of speaking is quite delicious. i really couldn't focus on a thing she said cuz she was just so damn hot and the accent - well don't we all just feel that people with british accents are just a teensy bit better than americans????? really, no matter what you say in a british accent, it sounds stunningly brilliant!

i adore the deejay - lilycat.

i had a long chat with chester, their coffeemeister, at pirate cat cafe - it's in the mission at florida and 21rst. what a fabulous location!!!

then i walked the beach and just drifted with my thoughts.

chasing amy hosted an amazing fundraiser that night with strippers. ohmygawd. strippers up close and personal!!!! like one leaned over me and stuck her cooter in my face while she buzzed the girl above me with her boobies - what fabulous tits!

it felt a little weird to commodify women like that and at first the feminist in me was shitting a brick! but then, i saw how much fun everyone was having and the strippers said we were the best audience ever - it was all female - so i think they enjoyed us too!

still, i can't decide what i think about it. i'm torn. i wanna be sex positive but i also want women to always have choices about their work and for sex work to be an option for women among many other options, not one of the ONLY options for low income women. i noted with some concern that the only person at the party who was dark skinned was a stripper. there was diversity of color, ethnicity and age at the party though, much more than often seen at sex parties in the bay area.

damn, that amy throws a kick ass party! chocolate fountains, raffle prizes, hot girlongirl erotica on the flat screen. fun!

today i met with the owner/founder of the dance/improv troupe i've been hanging out with lately. i'm working on bartering for dance lessons. i have 3 left feet and she is really gifted! it's more than just dance/improv really - it's like a support group - we dance out our lives in front of each other. it's really cool! and it's way more healing than just meditation or drugs or just hikijng or talking or therapy. all of which i've used to self-actualize and to heal my pain. i hope she takes me up on it. she wants to set up another meeting with her cofounder and me. i think that's a good sign. i like her - she's very genuine. and she's very loving. and she's beautiful.

oh and get this!!! i had a bi-licious postcard on my coffee table - she picked it up and told me she was bi! and she's monogamous and married to a straight man! wow! go figure!

i'm so glad i got to meet her! i made her my fave southern tea recipe i got from my sister - fresh lemon, lots of sugar, sun tea and orange juice. mmmmmmmmmmm! (it's better if you also have a little pineapple juice but i was out.)

it's been another whirlwind of a week! glad to get this all down.

i've been avoiding blogging since i've been so busy i've hardly posted anywhere on tribe except for the freebooters tribe. so i miss a lot of my old connections. i just don't have time or inclination to keep it all up anymore. but it was a great first safe place for me to come out online and for that - i'll always be grateful!!!

speaking of coming out online, i started a facebook group for the bay area bisexual network. yay!!! i hate facebook compared to tribe. tribe is so much more visually appealing. but every nonprofit should have a presence there so i wanted to start up one and see who we'd get - and we got people joining right away who aren't even on our regular membership so that's great! there are some old codgers on the babn chat list who shoot down any new ideas which people have - one of the founding members warned me about this. but dammit, i think using social media to reach out to young audiences for queer issues is important! so i'm gonna do it! naysayers be damned.

i already met some really cool queer people on facebook which i would not have met any other way. so i'm glad i went where the people are!

speaking of which, i attended the web guild's social media strategy panel tonight. it was advertised on squid list - an awesome calendar and community of artists/techies/activists.

that was reallly cool! i met tons of folks who are interested in my work getting nonprofits to use social media to accomplish their missions! yayayayayayay!

and finally, i got almost all the stuff to my lover for my websites: i'm doing one for g rated projects and one for my x rated projects.

my biggest interests are:

greening of the world - offering environmental expertise to businesses and nonprofits who want to turn the tide on global warming!

social media's uses for social justice - endless opportunities abound!!!!!

sex and queer cultural events - creating them and sustaining them so we have vibrant queer community! yay!







hahaha! well i guess that wasn't short and sweet after all - more like long and laundry listy!

oh and my son used an apple program to make me a book for mother's day! a homemade book he created by uploading all these images of our family and writing his thoughts about it.

BEST MOTHER'S DAY GIFT EVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

plus he told me i was caring and thoughtful and the best mom in the world. you really can't ask for more!!!!!

ahm blessed!