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Niema

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joined on 09/07/05
last updated 06/13/08
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seedlings

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rain

springtime
:::::The first tease. A blush.
A rush of warm and melt; gushing past on the sidewalk.
the first green.
. Peeks in a grey now white now blue no still grey sky.
Like a kitten at a can-opening concerto - Curious, but afraid of the sudden sounds.
The year's first real sunset
I mean with the cloudkissedgold
. Like the cheeks of the first person you kissed on a cold recess in sixth grade.
Sparkling with the promise of youth.

The first warm nights. Dreaming
of young lovers
Real or imagined
In the deep places

Hoping the Sun will rise on a warmer day.:::::




ginger
:::::The first geese fly
. Harbingers of Autumn
. Sun setting in a long, soft sky.
Gently the Summer leaves
. One element at a time.


. The first tears fall
. Harbingers of Ending
. Love ebbing in a long, soft goodbye.
. Gently my lover leaves
. One piece of me at a time.


We do not mourn Summer for long.
Autumn, in all her finery, quickly enraptures us. I will adapt to the cold, quiet nights. And embrace my spacious bed.
Retaining the warmth, like the lingering taste of ginger, until the fire burns me again.

Though this singular, soul-searing season leaves us now;
Summers, lovers, shall be welcomed forever.:::::




yurt
:::::I know not if it be before or hence,
But in one life you and I
live together in a yurt we have built in the wilderness.
. Wild free ness.
I know not where, or when;
But I know the why.

We are as old as the rain
As pervasive and permanent as the wind. And as perennial.

These hands have seen many houses
These bodies have built many dances.

I know not before or hence.
But in one life we are together in the wilderness:::::




love let her
::::::You are a poem
a composition
an exposition of the revelry
a piece of the mystery, revealed in each flick of hair in each turn of phrase, a play of shadow and light.

just as no sun can reach every leaf on the tree,
so can no one
illuminate all of your crevices and curves but each question brings me closer to the truth I see in you feel in you,
it whispers out in your undertone.

I extrapolate as we penetrate the darkness with our voices, the places where we meet become event horizons.
Divinity means 'sees no division' this life a revision, of our history, our hierarchy, our pedagogy. I ask and you only say
"more light, please."

You are a poem.
Created anew each time I turn the page take the stage, say yes to the mystery and not the assumption with just enough gumption to know when to tell me "no, not yet, we will learn more when we are ready."
The heady presumption of falling in love is nothing compared to the constant discombobulation of a life lived in exploration - this theory, this question, this magic, this veil-lifting exercise - now that we know who we are, what do we do with our power?

let me be your composition,
tear down each of my constructs and let each of my limits be a word, in no particular order. Each of my glances a clue, each of my prayers a step closer to the mystery of you.

You are a poem!
a play of forms and swirls and color and shadow and light giving just enough to make me figure it out. Asking that I grow each time I listen to you, demanding that I pay attention because I only get to hear you once in this magic 'now'.

You say "We are just flowers unfolding," and I wonder
how do I reach your stamen without corrupting your petals?
I am no bee. My poetry is too coarse, too obvious

I want all the light all at once, to dissolve in your ocean, to be so overwhelmed by a single ecstatic breath of your atmosphere that I loose any illusion of separation and become a million stars in your sky.

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It was warm in my garden today.
The head list of things that need doing, not the least of which was watering that bit of Earth and plantlets and small trees. But honoring the Moonday in the Sunlight by sitting, and breathing, and being.

Grateful for what is, praying for grace and necessities, grace being the greatest necessity in the time when there are more blessings than time.

Dreaming of Maui

Feeling wanderlust prick my skin and pull my heart. I feel I will heed the call of adventure just when I get established here, but I wouldn't ahve it any other way.

Hearing the wind-chimes and dogs and traffic, so grateful for the fleeting warmth. Wondering if I should start on my chores, but the soft ache in my womb keeps me still. Reminds me that I am human and woman, and here for a reason. Asks when I 'll replace this one woman show with a partner play, when this ache will be one of ripening and not emptying. Asks, or maybe that's my mind, if I'll find him in time for all this bleeding to be worthwhile, or if I'll be done some years hence having fulfilled every promise but this one.


Then I am reminded. The tomato blossoms, like this community, like I, need their nurturance to bear their promised fruit. The list of things to build a Temple I sometimes fear will betray, or perhaps that's just the fear of not being in control of something I am so vested in.
Making home in a momentary space, making space in a momentary life, making sacred in a momentary city - it's all training. and it's all worth it.

It's easier to keep hope alive when in sunlight. Being in the grid again weighs on me. counting pennies weighs on me. pretending I don't need a lover weighs on me. but even with the bleeding,
I
Feel
Light
today.

The freedom of hopeful surrender, again. All I can do is give up. Give 'up' to my heart, and the day, and the light.
And water the garden.


namaste
Tue, July 8, 2008 - 10:07 PM permalink - 1 comment
 
riding a bicycle in San Francisco is a whole new experience. the hills, oh, the hills. the challenge of making it up, and the terrifyingly giddy free-fall of coming down. the exhilaration and joy. the power from within. and fluid strength.

studying this past weekend with my amazing teacherbrotherfriend, to be a guardian, to awaken energetic sensitivity. Being so frustrated, again, by my senses that are feeling based and not visual based, as my other explorers described fantastic visions and all I could say was that I saw purple. The overwhelm of feeling so deeply, and not being sure where I end and the Universe begins, and how to process all that information and be healthy with it.
but breathing, and being, in the now. working towards total action and total stillness. staying out of ego and in universal. Being blessed by sacred family connections, and for a few moments, tasting my true nature. By the end, a surprising amount of healing had occurred, for myself and others.

Again the feeling that I am so close to waking up fully, I can see the surface above me and I hope I have enough breath to reach it. But of course, there is nothing to achieve.

I like to think that all of this matters, that I am a part of something amazing and that we truly are holding sacred space and healing the world through who we are and what we do. But we can't know, is the thing, we just have to wonder, and trust, and vibrate with truth and sing our love songs are one-songs and be.

So I ride my bike as fast as I safely can. And I give all that I am able with each class I teach. And I seek out moments to sing, and share poetry, and participate in ritual, and feed my friends, and facilitate healing.

today I resisted the temptation to get some desert from the store. and I worked on the Temple, and myself.

I made my whole roundtrip this afternoon without having to get off the bike for a tough hill even once. And whatever may be happening in our world, Galactivation or transformation or whatever you call it, I can only take it one breath, one moment, one revolution at a time (the wheel will continue to go 'round) and trust that when my moments arrive, I will be ready.


namaste
Tue, July 1, 2008 - 2:33 AM permalink - 1 comment
 
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Soul Revival with Rob Brezsny and Friends ( events » nightlife ) Soul Revival with Rob Brezsny and Friends!
08.08.08 9pm-Late

Generously hosted by: ANON GALLERY
285 9th Street @ Folsom/ SF


Special Features:

A Benefit For Temple Pantheogenesis at Entheon Village

9-10pm Happy Hour Gallery... read more
event starts Friday, August 8, 2008 - 9:00 PM
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sunshine

"I find one vast garden spread out all over the universe. All plants, all human beings, all higher mind bodies are about in this garden in various ways, each has his own uniqueness and beauty. Their presence and variety give me great delight. Every one of you adds with his special feature to the glory of the garden."

:::Anandamayi Ma



"Like the monk in his or her monastery, we can find ways to make our affection visible and felt. We can be affectionate toward our friends and neighbors and in such simple ways sexualize the neighborhood. We can be outrageously affectionate towards our lovers and spouses and thus give the world the model it needs for living from the heart. We can nurture our affection for animals, things, and places. All of this affection brings into human community a vision, a point of view, and a philosophy discovered in our most sublime meditations and readings. It is the anima soul to the animus intellect, the heart-spouse to the mind-lover, the visible body to the hidden spirit."

:::Thomas Moore, "The Soul of Sex"






"Can you find another market like this?

Where,
for one seed
you get a whole wilderness?

For one weak breath,
the divine wind?

You've been fearful
of being absorbed in the ground,
or drawn up by the air.

Now, your waterbead lets go
and drops into the ocean,
where it came from.

It no longer has the form it had,
but it's still water.
The essence is the same.

This giving up is not a repenting.
Its a deep honoring of yourself.

When the ocean comes to you as a lover,
marry, at once, quickly,
for God's sake!

Don't postpone it!
Existence has no better gift.

No amount of searching
will find this.

A perfect falcon, for no reason,
has landed on your shoulder,
and become yours. "

:::Rumi
:::Translation: Coleman Barks "The Essential Rumi"




"The national murder rate will plummet when 'The Hedonistic Midwife Channel,' a new cable TV network, begins to broadcast live childbirths 24 hours a day."



"Evil is boring"
and


"The Universe is conspiring to shower us with blessings... Figure out exactly how the Universe, by providing you with abundance, can improve the lot of everyone whose life you touch. Seek the fulfillment of your desires in such a way that you become a fount of blessings"
:::Rob Brezsny, "Pronoia"




"Even, After all this Time,

The Sun never says to the Earth
'You owe me'


Look at what happens with a Love like that.

It lights the whole sky.

:::Hafiz

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January 21, 2008
Truly a Supernatural being sent to this little island to share her love and light~~~~I am so humbled by her beauty that all I can do is reflect and honor it.
I love you, sweetly, Aloha
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this little flower

Gender
Female
Age
28
Location
about me
I am a cosmonaut. A lover. An artist and intellectual. Yogini. healer. daughter of the Earth. and a clown. I am constantly awed by the beauty of life. I have experienced many times how the Universe is constantly conspiring to shower us with blessings. I am actively destroying my umbrella.


I began teaching yoga, taught myself to ride a bike, went to Burningman, and met the most amazing community of
artists/lovers/warriors/revolutionaries/superheroes
all within the past few years; I feel as though I have just been born. Am being born every day.

I, and you, we are creating this world with every thought, every wish, every breath. I am exploring life, co-creating, with as much compassion, grace, and love as I can. Turning my fears into strengths. And I dance and sing every day.


I smell of smoke and sand
The lines of my life newly etched on my hands
Eyes that resemble oceans deep fathoms of space
I am a cosmonaut In every time and place.
I exist
Unique of all
discordant yet precious to the orchestra of light
I am here Expanding the edges Releasing all fear
You explore the reaches of your Uni - verse.
I'll sing my One - song in my multivoice until I find you;
our cacophonous souls creating harmony.
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