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I am 48, happily married, with a daughter and grandson. Have been an over the road truck driver which I loved, and a nursing assistanct which I hated. My life hasn't gone anything like what I dreamed of when I was a kid, and reality is sometimes just too hard to deal with.

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Doctors (blog entry) Sometimes I guess it isn't good to share a Doctor with a loved one. Today Hubby and I both had appointments. I thought when I made my appointment, it was just to make sure I kept getting my prosac and celebrex, but the closer the time got for t... read more

blog entry posted Tue, October 16, 2007 - 11:46 AM permalink - 0 comments

No one Really Cares (blog entry) Okay so I am down today, and I realize that while I can come on here and rant and post and maybe feel a little better, no one really cares. I could very easily drink and drug myself into oblivion and there isn't anyone truly close to me that care... read more

blog entry posted Sat, March 10, 2007 - 9:58 AM permalink - 0 comments

Oh Well (blog entry) Ryan, It didn't work, next time I'll know to take more. I am not happy that I woke up, I am not happy that it didn't work, and I still don't want to be here. But guess God has other ideas. But NO you weren't wrong, it just didn't work. LIke I ... read more

blog entry posted Wed, February 28, 2007 - 5:31 AM permalink - 1 comment

One more Reason (blog entry) Haven't gone to the store in days, haven't really cooked a meal, tonight my daughter went to town, got her and her son something to eat, and never even bothered to ask if my Hubby was hungry. But I am supposed to live for THEM?

blog entry posted Tue, February 27, 2007 - 4:16 PM permalink - 0 comments

Ryan (blog entry) I can't tell you what you meant to me. All I can tell you is that you tried. Thank you and don't give up. For eveyone failure there is success too. Nice knowing that there was ONE person in the big wide world that cared to go the extra mile to... read more

blog entry posted Tue, February 27, 2007 - 3:09 PM permalink - 0 comments

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Doctors

Sometimes I guess it isn't good to share a Doctor with a loved one. Today Hubby and I both had appointments. I thought when I made my appointment, it was just to make sure I kept getting my prosac and celebrex, but the closer the time got for the appointment, the more I realized I really needed to see him. I have had a 30+ weight gain since the last time I was there, and I am retaining bodily fluids so that my rings don't come off by themselves and I have to use soap to remove them at all... read more

Tue, October 16, 2007 - 11:46 AM permalink - 0 comments

No one Really Cares

Okay so I am down today, and I realize that while I can come on here and rant and post and maybe feel a little better, no one really cares. I could very easily drink and drug myself into oblivion and there isn't anyone truly close to me that cares. I am just so tired of all of it, feeling this way, wanting to live, wanting not to live, the ups and downs are really tiresome for me, and I know that everyone around me feels the same way. When I feel like this, it makes sense to just stop livi... read more

Sat, March 10, 2007 - 9:58 AM permalink - 0 comments

Oh Well

Ryan, It didn't work, next time I'll know to take more. I am not happy that I woke up, I am not happy that it didn't work, and I still don't want to be here. But guess God has other ideas. But NO you weren't wrong, it just didn't work. LIke I said, I've never actually tried before.

Wed, February 28, 2007 - 5:31 AM permalink - 1 comment

One more Reason

Haven't gone to the store in days, haven't really cooked a meal, tonight my daughter went to town, got her and her son something to eat, and never even bothered to ask if my Hubby was hungry. But I am supposed to live for THEM?

Tue, February 27, 2007 - 4:16 PM permalink - 0 comments

Ryan

I can't tell you what you meant to me. All I can tell you is that you tried. Thank you and don't give up. For eveyone failure there is success too. Nice knowing that there was ONE person in the big wide world that cared to go the extra mile to help a friend, Hope that in the mean time, it helped you too.

I know you will read this when you can't find me anywhere else. Just hope your sadness and heartbreak will go quickly. And if I can, I will find you from beyond, and give you a big h... read more

Tue, February 27, 2007 - 3:09 PM permalink - 0 comments

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