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about me
I am 48, happily married, with a daughter and grandson. Have been an over the road truck driver which I loved, and a nursing assistanct which I hated. My life hasn't gone anything like what I dreamed of when I was a kid, and reality is sometimes just too hard to deal with.
I kn ow, It's been a while.
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There hasn't been alot going on this past year. I got a job and lost it, got banned from a game I was a moderator of, and took on another game to mod and another one I thought I was helping to build.
My websites are no closer to paying off tha...
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Doctors
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Sometimes I guess it isn't good to share a Doctor with a loved one. Today Hubby and I both had appointments. I thought when I made my appointment, it was just to make sure I kept getting my prosac and celebrex, but the closer the time got for t...
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No one Really Cares
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Okay so I am down today, and I realize that while I can come on here and rant and post and maybe feel a little better, no one really cares. I could very easily drink and drug myself into oblivion and there isn't anyone truly close to me that care...
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Oh Well
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Ryan, It didn't work, next time I'll know to take more. I am not happy that I woke up, I am not happy that it didn't work, and I still don't want to be here. But guess God has other ideas. But NO you weren't wrong, it just didn't work. LIke I ...
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One more Reason
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Haven't gone to the store in days, haven't really cooked a meal, tonight my daughter went to town, got her and her son something to eat, and never even bothered to ask if my Hubby was hungry. But I am supposed to live for THEM?
There hasn't been alot going on this past year. I got a job and lost it, got banned from a game I was a moderator of, and took on another game to mod and another one I thought I was helping to build.
My websites are no closer to paying off than they were when I started them.
I had a job working 14 hours 2 days a week and lost it because I have a bad attitude toward Authority.
BUT what is really messing with my head is the fact that I have a guy on the internet that I have had a rel...
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Sometimes I guess it isn't good to share a Doctor with a loved one. Today Hubby and I both had appointments. I thought when I made my appointment, it was just to make sure I kept getting my prosac and celebrex, but the closer the time got for the appointment, the more I realized I really needed to see him. I have had a 30+ weight gain since the last time I was there, and I am retaining bodily fluids so that my rings don't come off by themselves and I have to use soap to remove them at all...
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Okay so I am down today, and I realize that while I can come on here and rant and post and maybe feel a little better, no one really cares. I could very easily drink and drug myself into oblivion and there isn't anyone truly close to me that cares. I am just so tired of all of it, feeling this way, wanting to live, wanting not to live, the ups and downs are really tiresome for me, and I know that everyone around me feels the same way. When I feel like this, it makes sense to just stop livi...
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Ryan, It didn't work, next time I'll know to take more. I am not happy that I woke up, I am not happy that it didn't work, and I still don't want to be here. But guess God has other ideas. But NO you weren't wrong, it just didn't work. LIke I said, I've never actually tried before.
Wed, February 28, 2007 - 5:31 AM
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Haven't gone to the store in days, haven't really cooked a meal, tonight my daughter went to town, got her and her son something to eat, and never even bothered to ask if my Hubby was hungry. But I am supposed to live for THEM?
Tue, February 27, 2007 - 4:16 PM
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