The solstice comes...and so does the light...

Bubbling over with energy, giggles, and heart tickles ::grins::
Smiles bursting forth, spontaneous laughing combustion...today is a fort building day!

The Solstice nears, and with that the light begins to return...makes sense that I feel so bright today.
What is it that inspired me so?
You. And Me. And playing and pausing and kitties and love-ter. <3

When is the last time you took a moment, a minute, an hour, a day to do absolutely nothing...AND LOVE IT?!

When was the last time you felt energetically charged, inspired, vested with all your creative powers of your world?

When was the last time you giggled endlessly?

SHOW ME! For laughs, for giggles, just because...it would be fun to see :)

Push the pause button on the "should's", on the "have to's" and be content in the blissful nothingness. Millions of opportunities abound. Adventure awaits!

These moments are as magical as you make them! ;)

AND...it's healthy dammit!
Proven studies about the effects of laughter, proven for smiles, and, I'll go out on a limb here...I'll bet for playfulness too ;)

Here is your virtual permission slip to skip out...
You can tell whoever you need to that...today...you have strict orders from your Health Coach to play, then...GO DO IT!

You tell me how healthy you feel at the end of that. HA!

For more playful silliness...tune into you! =D

Questions 4 U, Help 4 Me...pleeease w/organic awesome-ness on top ;)

I'm addicted to health courses ;)

Part of my class project is to go out an pole people about their struggles with health (cravings, emotional eating, food allergies, energy levels, overall optimal health)...to be more specific. There are 10 questions to this survey, and I would love Love LOVE the extra help.

100% confidential - you can give me an alias to use or you can ask me to keep it anonymous. You can trust me...seriously. Also, if you feel open and don't mind sharing your struggles and journey with everyone post here, IF NOT please just copy the poll below and send me your answers via private message or to my email: you.r.alive@gmail.com

If you decide to help out just answer the questions with your Chief Health Concern in mind. THank You THANK YOU in advance for helping me out. =D

So here goes:
Remember all of the questions are being asked in relation to whatever health concern you list below…
Chief Health Concern - your most prominent health struggle out of the following: Cravings, Emotional Eating, Food Allergies, Low Energy, Feeling Healthy: _________________________

Gender:_____

Age: ______


1. What are your greatest fears?


2. What frustrates you the most?


3. What are your greatest desires?


4. What’s the one thing you want?


5. What are your “wounds”?


6. What keeps you awake at night?


7. What do you spend your money on with regards to health?


8. What are your strengths? Weaknesses?


9. What will help you achieve their goals?


10. What publications do you turn to for help, information, health tips?

what do you do when...

you get anxious knots in your stomach about something you have no control over and hurts a lot?

i really am curious. how do you handle those types of situations in your life?

i'm dealing with that right now. i wish that i could just change my perception, and that it would be changed on deeper than a mental level. at the same time i feel like giving in to something i don't want is settling. wondering, if'ing, worrying...enough. if i go with it, if i'm totally ok with it...i'll free myself from tons of pain...at least in this situation.

...unless...i decided to leave the situation and not settle for what i don't want.
babbling
babbling

really i just want to hear how you handle such situations in your life...

: )

it's been a while...but about time...

coming to the point in another cycle where i'm peaking my head out and checking in
and i miss you...this...my community

have you ever gone through a period where
you're persuing a path and
and at some point while blazing the trail you realize you don't feel connected
look around and realize you haven't been staying connected
and you've lost touch with that *feeling* that prompted you to traverse this path in the first place?

ever feel like
in some ways you were more connected than you are now
and you try to utilize the tools and lessons that usually center you to no avail
slip into a form of lost foggy depression with spurts of optimism
feel bored, apathetic about your spiritual connection
looking for something to spark or
slap you upside the head with consciousness?

(are these the longest questions ever?) ;)

this recent ascent from the abyss has been slow and has a different taste
i assume the aftertaste will linger in a way i've not yet experienced
it's been so frustrating having no interest in introspection
resisting observing my mind, actions, etc
finally i feel like i'm coming back

i'm coming forth to "flash" you all
expose myself
reconnect

i'm not sure how many of us keep up on each other's blogs now a days
but i'm hoping you all do :)

so to those of you that catch this
hi *warm loving embrace*
i do miss you ;)

i think of this community and the special life changing connections i've made here
and i value you and our special connection...

<<*love*>>

Happenings of 11 minutes 39 seconds

human grids intersect by "chance"
i feel like a metaphor.
did someone plan that?
looking through glass windows...
why are there so many candles left unlit?
kids at play.
i walk on clouds beneath my feet.
shadows filter the sun,
the breeze obliges and they dance playfully.
slow down.
feel as lilliputian alice.
these 10 steps of a new world.
square plot nature walk in the city.

barriers...

"in that moment when things are silent...and you are enjoying the simplicity of your senses, you may feel the urge to dismiss it or enjoy it for only a moment...not fully savoring the fullness of what's before you. don't leave. when you hit that barrier wait just a few moments longer...push through the uncomfortable feelings and the thoughts of reason that dismiss it as anything else. wait...and see how your world opens..."

-Nonamae Agape-

*giggles*

nature is a seductress...

i was out in the still darkness of the light rain and thunder
watching the palms blow silently
there's something about watching them and not hearing the rustle
as i stood there letting the soft thunder roll through me and remind me i'm alive
i wondered how long it had been since i connected and enjoyed these moments
and i noticed the feeling to "get back to work"
the thoughts like "you've enjoyed this enough" or "what are you still doing here?" and "you've seen this all before"
i was about to turn and go back inside
but that switch in my body was disturbed
and my body decided to stay while my mind protested the way a child does when they can't have what they want
that moment wasn't as powerful as my mind imagined it should be or had been
but...i know that with time it grows
after i knew i had gone beyond that barrier where i had become accustomed to the bad habit of turning away
i felt satisfied enough to walk inside
but the drops of rain dancing on leaves poked at me over and over
i had to see it again
my mind only half afraid now
said "what if it's not that special" "you know you can't recreate a moment like that" "you have so much to catch up on"
i smiled...
and walked back outside...

Giving back to such an amazing community would give me such joy...

YAY! I’m finally in the process of opening my businesses! Wholistic Sentience and Wholistic Synergy...these sister companies will probably meld at some point in the future. These companies are a work in progress and are small now but I can see them expanding rather quickly.

The goals of my companies are to move forward in spreading awareness in all things global and local that affect us, and all things that inspire us and propel us forward on our path. To raise consciousness about sustainability, human rights, animal rights, and spirituality. I want to bring the celebration of life into all aspects of each individual that I work with. I’ll be hosting retreats, hopefully inspiring adventure, and supporting people through their health and lifestyle goals. My goal is to facilitate people on their paths of healing in every aspect of what that means: spirituality, physically, emotionally, mentally, with all relationships, career...overall balance. If we can bring people to a place in their life where they are more fulfilled and aware we will see lasting changes. How can our world move towards real and lasting change if on the microcosm we don’t nurture these qualities. My view at this point is that even if we were to make positive changes on a global scale...how long would they last if we didn’t have more balance on an individual level?

I’ll be posting more detailed information about the businesses as things develop. And I’ll be sending out a monthly newsletter which will include articles related to my business of course, but I also see it as an arena for connecting and building community and spreading consciousness. I have been so deeply touched and changed forever by all of the wonderful connections I’ve made here on tribe. I want to share events/workshops/articles/projects/music/performances/classes from this amazing community, and post them in my monthly newsletter. It would be my absolute pleasure to share these experiences with the people that I end up working with, and I mean this with all the warmth in my heart. This newsletter is part of my goal to reach more people, to expand awareness, and to build our global and local community.

I have been touched by so many here: Hoopnotica, Katie Kay and mz. Dangerpantz, Michael Divine, Hoopalicious, Goddess Alchemy Project, Fire Groove, Lucent Dossier, FMG, Lightening In a Bottle, troops like Sirena Serpentina, the whole Burning Man community, Sobey and all tribal elven communities up north, more tribal family in the deserts of NM, Rafael, Rayann, and so many beautiful individuals that I couldn’t name them all here...I have been so inspired and felt so much love from afar. Now I wish to share your shining beauty with more people.

As I sit reflecting on even the smallest conversations I’ve had here, and on the profiles alone that have inspired me to move forward and the support I’ve recieved to continue growing...I feel so much more than the word blessed could ever mean. Thank you all for being lights and I’m telling you now that even if you never felt you were a light or have no idea how you’ve touched me...that you are and you have indeed, no matter how small our connection.

Please let me know if you have an event coming out you’d like to share, an article which you’d like to reach more eyes to raise awareness about anything, if you’d be interested in writing and occasional article specifically for the newsletter it is MOST welcomed, if you have classes coming up which you need to get the word out for, if your business is fairly new let me help you spread the news, you get the idea...I want to help build lasting transformative connections.

The first few months of building the newsletter will be a bit small, but as it grows I hope that more and more of you allow me to include you in this project.

Lets step forward together in connecting and reaching out to expand awareness. If you have any projects you’d like to team up on, ideas, or suggestions, or would like more details and have questions...please let me know. I’d really like to develop a network of amazing people to refer people to for different services, events...etcetera .

I know we all don’t have time to read each other’s blogs, so I will be taking the time to contact a lot of you individually : )

I’m really excited about this new venture and I can’t wait to hear from you and get this moving. Thanks for taking the time to read such a loooong blog ; )

*radiating light*
manifesting humanity’s inherent state of love

this moment

the moment often arises in the midst of the fog
where you find you've been drawn to a glimmering shimmering golden light
it beckons you closer, and though you can't feel it's warmth...you sense it
the memory of what it feels like is what keeps you, warms you and embraces you as it draws you in

the bassy beats
the mellow tone
the siren's deep song
they were all agents of spirit

i feel it...me...
vibrating, numb-tingling running through my veins
expansion from conscious thought
i feel it like a butterfly fluttering just above my skin
sensations of flight fill me
sending chills through my body

i won't label this feeling
i've learned at least that much

*may you all experience this at least once today*