coming to the point in another cycle where i'm peaking my head out and checking in
and i miss you...this...my community

have you ever gone through a period where
you're persuing a path and
and at some point while blazing the trail you realize you don't feel connected
look around and realize you haven't been staying connected
and you've lost touch with that *feeling* that prompted you to traverse this path in the first place?

ever feel like
in some ways you were more connected than you are now
and you try to utilize the tools and lessons that usually center you to no avail
slip into a form of lost foggy depression with spurts of optimism
feel bored, apathetic about your spiritual connection
looking for something to spark or
slap you upside the head with consciousness?

(are these the longest questions ever?) ;)

this recent ascent from the abyss has been slow and has a different taste
i assume the aftertaste will linger in a way i've not yet experienced
it's been so frustrating having no interest in introspection
resisting observing my mind, actions, etc
finally i feel like i'm coming back

i'm coming forth to "flash" you all
expose myself
reconnect

i'm not sure how many of us keep up on each other's blogs now a days
but i'm hoping you all do :)

so to those of you that catch this
hi *warm loving embrace*
i do miss you ;)

i think of this community and the special life changing connections i've made here
and i value you and our special connection...

<<*love*>>