...now i try to be amused:

RS 11-9 show

nux_vomica — Sun, 11 Jan 2009 22:39:11 GMT

xtc - respectable street the vapors - here comes the judge sham 69 - hurry up harry the boomtown rats - someone's looking at you electric six - pink flamingos the mutants - furniture (live @ savoy tivoli) the leather nun - pink house erase errata - rider frightwig - vagabondage avengers - i believe in me x-ray spex - warrior in woolworth's the feederz - mothra clorox girls - le banana split the dickies - banana splits the knack - heartbeat devo - pink pussycat 101'ers - keys to your heart L7 - drama art by maciej-gador http://beinart.org/artists/maciej-gador/?GID=923

respectable street goes cowpunk...again!

nux_vomica — Sun, 04 Jan 2009 19:11:21 GMT

http://www.awesomeville.us or click on the respectable street icon via that page to go to my podcast, today's show will be posted after one. xtc - respectable street dash rip rock - if you see kay hickoids - there stands the glass hank williams III - crazed country rebel dead milkmen - rastabilly the bloody hollies - delta heart attack cramps - sado county auto show nine pound hammer - shotgun in a chevy big boys - gator fuckin' the crosstops - holiday in your bun cadillac tramps - drivin' manic hispanic - big chorizo whiskey avengers - road rage amazombies - gotta ride offenders - i hate myself ejectors - social debate ghoultown - la noche diablo really red - hang 'em high vandals - ladykiller art by ben tolman, http://beinart.org/artists/ben-tolman/?GID=684#

healing creative blocks?

nux_vomica — Tue, 16 Dec 2008 06:33:00 GMT

is there something to learn from creative blockages? is it something asking to be healed? as children we are incredibly creative beings, and it is our childhood that is the root of all of our significant interactions with ourselves and others. today i have been doing all of this soul searching over creativity, childhood, and healing the artist within. this is what i came up with this morning: "we can only find our balance by revisiting the paths of our childhood, connecting again with the things that inspired and enraptured us as well as the things that tore us away from those moments of clarity. you don't have to have had a perfect, or even good, childhood to remember the things your soul yearned for, the creative expressions that felt the most natural, the exuberance of imagination and fantasy. some people have the gift of being able to tap into that and stay with their muse most if not all of their lives, becoming amazing artists of one capability or many. some struggle to quiet the critical voices of parents, friends, peers, and find a way to express themselves in even the smallest ways. i have found as time goes on in my life and i look back at what i loved to do as a child, though i may not have seen the pattern during the between years, my soul's primary desires are apparent in what capabilites i have developed, while the things that didn't fit with that primary drive never got off the ground. it is these things which do not fit that so many feel forced to employ for their fundamental survival, crushing and shushing that inner creative voice; the crappy jobs in cubicles, the poor relationships with people who have no desire to grow. i believe this is the source of psychosis. we all crave that source on some level, and the further we deviate, the more we compromise, the crazier we feel. i feel like i have been struggling to tap back into my creative drive and not allow myself to be distracted by all of the other things i feel need doing, including other creative projects. there are so many things i want to do, so many ideas, and i need to start one at a time. i can't read every book on my shelf all the way through simultaneously, or make a quilt and a dress and a afghan at the same time. but how much of this is a deeper block, that needs resolution on a deeper level? it's almost another form of psychosis. shit, maybe it's all psychosis. that would be a relief! for me, those voices of criticism and abuse from childhood seem to really play a role in this block's existence, always thinking 'why bother? it will not be as good as *that person's*' or, 'it has been done and done better.' like all of those times i 'fucked up,' things that didn't have to be an ugly scene if my parent had been a patient or compassionate person, things i was hit for daily when i was a kid, are going to somehow come back if i fuck up again, so i should just have ideas and think about what i WANT to do but never do them, playing it safe, cause what is in my head can't be attacked if it never comes out. creativity is a healing process. the more i let myself fuck up and get it wrong and do it over and actually have fun with that, the more i will return to my souls' original blueprint for this time around. i'm ready!!! really! so sick of this other shit! i want all of these ideas to come out of my frackin' brain and be in the world for better or for worse." i realized after writing this that because i tend to sabatoge myself with all of these ideas and no place to start, i should start by working on the little things: mending hems, adding trims, fixing the bits. once all of the mending is done, i won't have *that* excuse anymore. then i can move onto finishing the projects i started over varying degrees of time, or just get rid of them. THEN, i can work on the new ideas and not be distracted by all the little things pulling my energy in different directions. does that make sense? i don't know if this will work, but, it's worth a try, right? how do you process and break through blockages? what are some of the issues you might have that you find hinder your ability to move forward with your dreams, however large or small they may be?

respectable street 11-noonish today

nux_vomica — Sun, 07 Dec 2008 18:50:58 GMT

http://www.awesomeville.us xtc - respectable street madness - bed and breakfast man adam and the ants - antmusic elvis costello - oliver's army the boomtown rats - wind chill factor minus zero 999 - boys in the gang the kinks - rats siouxsie and the banshees - hong kong garden gang of four - i found that essence rare buzzcocks - oh shit wire - 12Xu sex pistols - problems sham 69 - sunday morning nightmare toy dolls- florence is deaf the exploited - hitler's in the charts again blitz - someone's gonna die tonight the adicts - straight jacket discharge - drunk with power i'd like to have put together a better brit set but time is short, i do not have a ton of storage and i am still working on replacing the music i lost last summer. it would have been done by now except that i have a life, and it requires much of my attention. i will work on getting mreo underground and obscure brit punk. hope you enjoy!

11 AM sunday...respectable street

nux_vomica — Sun, 30 Nov 2008 18:28:45 GMT

www.awesomeville.us or go to the show pic on that site and click on it, it'll take you to my podcast which you can dl and subscribe to. xtc - respectable street the mutants - war against girls the feederz - avon lady flamin' hellcats - datin satan d-day - too young to date the specials - little bitch fishbone - lyin' ass bitch slits - allergic 999 - inside out xtc - all you pretty girls the judy's - all the pretty girls the adolescents - LA girl CH3 - stupid girl deadbolt - scary voodoo girl the damned - so messed up the pagans - she's a cadaver misfits - she frankenstein drag queens from planet 13 - she's a man verbal abuse - metal melissa the pissa

safe and sound

nux_vomica — Mon, 03 Nov 2008 16:10:38 GMT

so, here we are! staying with dave (MDC) and already, within 24 hours, we have three places lined up. we're going to see the third today. i will be canceling about eight meet-ups. the first two places are with really amazing women who are accomplished activists and artists. on track! the third, however, is $350 for the whole top of a house, two bedrooms and a sitting room, and i would be the house manager. no deposit to move in. the person handling the rental is this guy magnus, who i had completely forgotten about...he's a rent and artist activist. he is in real estate and his goal is to help artists rent to own their own houses in the alberta arts neighborhood. it looks like this was a perfect time to move here, and if this place works out, we would eventually manage a house (to own) in the alberta arts district, which is where i REALLY want to be. always have. so we are amazingly blessed in the support and opportunities coming our way, and i feel confident that within 48 hours of being here we will be moved in to a great new home. i am SO ready to get started on my creative ideas and projects, and i can't wait to get downtown to the library and powell's books. thank you, portland! you're gorgeous and wonderful!

Sarah Palin: Alaska's Dead Wolf Pups Demand Justice!

nux_vomica — Mon, 22 Sep 2008 15:38:39 GMT

Target: Alaska Governor Sarah Palin Sponsored by: Care2. com This summer, Alaska wildlife agency personnel staked out a known wolf denning site – a practice that is illegal under Alaska law – and, using helicopters, gunned down 14 adult wolves from the air. When they landed, they found 14 helpless pups in the nearby dens – infant wolves just weeks old – and methodically shot each one in the head. 28 wolves gunned down in all. Due to a loophole in federal law, Alaska is the only state in the U.S. where a few hunters still use aircraft to shoot wolves or chase them to exhaustion before landing and shooting them point blank. But the practice of "denning" – the killing of wolf young in the den – is prohibited even under Alaska law. This killing of 14 wolf pups disturbs even longtime hunters in Alaska. During her two years as governor, Sarah Palin proposed a $150 bounty for the severed foreleg of each killed wolf and introduced legislation to make it even easier to use aircraft to hunt wolves and bears. But it's time that Governor Palin call for a thorough investigation into the killing of these 14 wolf pups, and bring any Alaska employees who acted illegally to justice. Governor Palin presents herself as a pro-ethics reform politician. Please sign our petition to hold her accountable to her promises and send an email to your friends to spread the word. edit to add: the care2 website is experiencing difficulties so try again later if you can't get through. ******** SIGN PETITION HERE: http://www.thepetitionsite.com/takeaction/968322162?z00m=16756153

respectable street is finally back!!!

nux_vomica — Sun, 31 Aug 2008 20:15:32 GMT

http://nux_vomica.podomatic.com/ XTC - black sea the zero boys - drug free youth the clash - hateful toy dolls - my baby is a battleaxe afflicted - summer of love deadbolt - go tell alice agent orange - someone to love crass - poison in a pretty pill the pagans - real world circle jerks - murder the disturbed agnostic front - rage discharge - anger burning best of punk and disorderly - fuck the world black flag - rise above the exploited - dead cities dils - class war dickies - i'm ok you're ok corrosion of conformity - mad world wire - in the art of stopping television - see no evil the mutants - new dark ages devo - S.I.B. (swelling itching brain) public enemy - fight the power the exploited - troops of tomorrow big black - stinking drunk the weirdos - happy people tears for fears - mad world flipper - way of the world frankenstein drag queens from planet 13 - rambo naked raygun - rat patrol the adolescents - creatures dead kennedies - winnebago warrior

moving to bay area/subletting treehouse

nux_vomica — Fri, 23 May 2008 15:09:29 GMT

devlin and i are giving notice at our treehouse...it is possible we would move back if we found a subletter till spetember. please keep your ear to the ground for us about a good place in the bay. our treehouse is $400 a month, very gorgeous, remote and peaceful with good community and community spaces. gas prices are going to go up to $6 a gallon at the end of the summer and i just don't want to pay out that much for gas and live so remote over paying the equivalent in rent and living close to things i can do and my friends.

flying by the seat of our pants we DO IT AGAIN!!!

nux_vomica — Sun, 13 Apr 2008 20:39:36 GMT

and it kicks ass. don't act so surprised. http://www.awesomeville.com

happy fluffy clouds of puppy farts

nux_vomica — Sun, 06 Apr 2008 20:09:18 GMT

http://www.nux_vomica.podomatic.com/

ranty punk rock bitching: DEAL!!!

nux_vomica — Sun, 30 Mar 2008 19:57:36 GMT

http://www.nux_vomica.podomatic.com/ new show is up. freak out. :|

SUPER IMPORTANT for greater bay area:

nux_vomica — Thu, 27 Mar 2008 15:31:54 GMT

planned exended spraying of toxic biological chemicals (beware santa cruz, alameda, san francisco and points beyond!): Side effects range from vomiting and flu like systems, to male and female reproductive cycle disruption. One child nearly died from the exposure, and some people have developed asthma from being exposed to this chemical concoction. It is cause for alarm that a chemical being labeled as harmless and "safe" even in minute doses, causes severe health effects in some people. The government is racing to cover up and hide the dangerous health effects so that they can continue their aerial spray plans this summer. Your attention and action on this subject is needed in the most important way. http://www.indybay.org/newsitems/2008/03/12/18485250.php and did you even know rent control was being threatened in san francisco and los angeles? i know, it's already so atrociously high (the apt i rented in the TL for $700 4 years ago goes for $1450 now! can it get any worse? YES IT CAN!!! paris is cheaper, i checked): http://www.indybay.org/newsitems/2008/03/26/18488736.php

next steps for the book:

nux_vomica — Tue, 25 Mar 2008 15:57:21 GMT

i am coming to the city april 10-13; i am already getting totally booked up for fun stuff to do: nights, thurs: dire's band, razorblade monalisa; fri: anti-nowhere league; sat: shadow puppet theatre with angelique, who will also be helping out with the book and so we have palavering to commence. friday maybe i need to meet up with carey in bernal heights to look at flyers, mike tsongas and rach-o to talk about old times and inspire some stories, then over to the east bay at some point (maybe after ANL, to stay with my friend kiki) then spend the next day with joe %$&#ing judd and anathema device (yes? get back to me asap so i know for sure!) sorting through old fliers and pictures, i also want to meet up with jvmatucha that day for more of the same. i think saturday will be my east bay day and then back to sf for shadow puppets sat. night, then hopefully i have somewhere to stay in the city that has really good internet connection so i can just roll off the couch and do my show at 10 AM sunday morning. after that, i am certain i will be more than ready to head home and collapse. if i can fit in a sticker-spree in SF i will do so. we got the awesomeville.us stickers and though i only got 30 i hope to make good use of them, since the flyer campaign really upped our listener stats BIG TIME. jayed and i will be coming down to the bay area together later in the month or early may to meet up with max wolf and vic vale, and hopefully getting together with bambi of the ex-mudwomen in petaluma on the way back up or down or maybe just another day. that will probably be a one-day thing, unless we figure out places to stay. that's it for now...at some point i will make it down to one of portia's parties, whenever that is, and i want to hang out with my old friend (ancient) charisse. i'm sure there will be much more on the table in the future, so i want to be sure i get all of this managed so i don't end up not getting to it at all due to being extra busy. oh also in the mix is possibly some stuff (definitely pics, i am waiting to hear back from kenny and should probably email again, we are old friends) from sally or kenny of the mutants, a piece for the LGBT punk section from ginger coyote, and i am waiting to hear back from john (contact through cinthea) who has a ton of pics and fliers as well. we also want to talk to ron turner (last gasp) who is a friend of jayed and mine, so maybe if we stay 2 days in the bay we can get to that. *whew* let me know if you brainstorm anyother things for me to do or people to contact. we need stories and pics from the vats, too.

strap it on head down the lonely highway...

nux_vomica — Sun, 23 Mar 2008 22:44:33 GMT

i have the weirdest and worst song stuck in my head right now. "i remember finding out about youuuu...." and that's like, all i know of it. great show this morning, download at http://www.nux_vomica.podomatic.com/ must. nap. THUD.

is my barf-day

nux_vomica — Mon, 17 Mar 2008 15:49:23 GMT

yep yep. make me old school punk cd's or send me them as mp3's on my email. that is all. oh i am 39. st. patties day b-day...think of me when you tie one on. and then again when it is coming back up.

safety pin through my heart: mosh pit of love

nux_vomica — Sun, 16 Mar 2008 20:09:45 GMT

toiling midgets, wasted youth, cyndi lauper...somehow, it worked. this is my favorite show yet. it will make you want to pogo, mosh, hang your head and cry; perhaps simultaneously. neat trick.

new old school punk zine!

nux_vomica — Tue, 11 Mar 2008 21:30:26 GMT

some of you know that i (julie generic) did a zine called weird weather some years back. it was mostly my own stuff, sort of a purging of all of the things i wanted to say and of course my art. it was well received, and i did several prints of both issues. now, i have a new idea, and i am really excited about it. name i want to use is Heart-Shaped Bruise. this zine will be both a requiem and a revival of ALL old school punk/goth stories and art, focus on SF bay area. the idea is to get writing, interviews, art etc., from people, alive and dead, who made this city a mecca of demented artistry during the years that punk thrived. i also add goth because i feel the two go hand in hand these days, since a lot of present-day goths were old school punks; back then, too, the lines were not so finely drawn. we will not be covering rivet, industrial, or any of those current manifestations of popular underground music because...well, it covers itself and i am not a huge fan (i do listen but not with the same passion and sense of connection). what you can do to contribute: * ideas for the title. * art: got old flyers, pictures, photos? collage? anything that relates to the topic. * RIP page(s): photos, music, art of people who are gone; or just a memorandum for someone you miss. * writing: stories from your personal experiences on the street, in the clubs, with the bands, being there and what was going on with you in general. * who's doing what now: bands, people, pets. * ideas for issue themes: the farm, the mabuhay, the on broadway, powell punks, skate scene (jaks of course!), the early deathrock scene, scenes in different cities like chicago, philly, etc. * contact page: who you are and how to get in touch so you can perhaps connect with old friends who are NOT dead yet. * any other ideas you might have: brainstorm with me! please see whatever profile i have up on whatever server you are reading this from for a contact on me....i have used the same email for 10 years. or yahoo id = thriftstoregoth. i will also be looking into creating an online format. i have basic web design skillz but need more insight in general as to logistics of servers and financial demands.

the super stealth mission:

nux_vomica — Mon, 10 Mar 2008 18:04:14 GMT

http://nux-vomica.livejournal.com/ go to the lj to view and read. tribe is sorely lacking in the versatility of its bloggage so i am not going to bother re-writing what i posted in any way; just link.

i lie...right to your face...

nux_vomica — Fri, 07 Mar 2008 04:32:40 GMT

not because i want to, but because i have to, because you hate me.... i need to own some antonio banderas movies. desperados, on the netflix list again... speaking of BAD ASS...if you haven't seen Dance With The Devil, you have not lived! rosie perez is really hot and tough as shit. it has a low netflix rating cause people do not appreciate santeria psycho fetus haulin' semi-driven' devil worshippin' preppie kidnappers. it's a shame, really. just watched the first season of 'weeds,' that's some silly shit....i hear the second season is even better so i look forward to that. saturday we are coming down, in time for misskittywhore's show at pirate cat where we can sit by and make her giggle (i hope), then lunch fo sho and off to pacifica after digging up some nibbles for the scene. misskittywhore, how does that little sushi place we went to before so long ago on 16th and valencia? i might have to chew out some trachea of it's too hipster heavy but good times will be had regardless. besides, raw flesh is raw flesh: trachea, fish, who cares? I miss you san francisco, and i realize: i never really wanted the east bay. no, i wanted YOU all along, my beloved SF. please forgive me. sunday: shop shop shop. fabric. http://www.punknews.org/ seems a tad mainstream but i suspect there are redeeming factors...saw a pic of fat mike and he isn't fat anymore...wonder what they call him now...nancy? oh yeah my friend jill just emailed me from austin to say that naked raygun is playing there next week. we used to listen to them ALL the time....reading reviews, it seems like they may have lost the old HOT THUMPING HARDCORE style they had...but don't they all eventually. when i die and go to the big mosh pit in the sky, they will be there and we will ROCK. just thinking of the songs makes me want sex. you want the people to need the people to want the people to love you you need the people to show the facts instead of they don't want you.....

torturing drunks and babies: the anti-religion show (yay sunday!)

nux_vomica — Sun, 02 Mar 2008 22:36:34 GMT

http://www.nux_vomica.podomatic.com/ make clicky, go listen to this week's episode.

TA-DA!!!! a celebration of UNCOOL

nux_vomica — Tue, 19 Feb 2008 17:32:23 GMT

now everyone on my friends list is someone i know and care to bother with, or...someone i don't know but care to bother with. i sure wish tribe had a better system for removing friends though, that took forever and i had to look at every profile twice so my brain is smothered in 'hippy mama/papa/alienfucktard loving goddess woo woo fuckity fuck.' BYEEEE! tribe just be's like dat i guess.

my streaming radio show

nux_vomica — Mon, 18 Feb 2008 00:11:43 GMT

i am doing a live streaming show at www.awesomeville.us every sunday 10-noon PST. if you miss that you can catch it up at http://www.nux_vomica.podomatic.com/ if you were wondering, that is one of the many things i have been up to. thanks to everyone who has patted my head and held my hand through the first couple episodes. on a matte crash, not much to say right now. making a quilt. downloading zim. OH YEAH...you guys don't know i have internet now! yepyep. technology finally makes it to radical ridge road!

compassion rant

nux_vomica — Wed, 14 Nov 2007 21:45:45 GMT

i personally do not feel it is my job to alleviate anyone else's suffering without their express permission and cooperation. even then, it is not i who alleviate the suffering, i am only holding the space for them to find their way back to healing, which is the dominant perogative. i love this topic because i think that it is compassion which heals, and forgiveness which remains in judgement; one cannot forgive if one has no judgment in the first place. i truly believe, from my own experience, that to hold those who have caused harm and pain in compassion is where we heal ourselves, though they themselves may not find healing in this lifetime. compassion just allows in empathy without needing to judge or change. it is by healing our tendency to judge that we also allow healing for ourselves, and ultimately, we do others a disservice to claim to be able to do this for them. a couple months ago i dreamed of my mother, all her teeth broken out from a bad relationship, addicted to cigarettes and marijuana, alcohol, codependency, you name it (and she is). she was telling me how horrible everything was, how awful her life was, how she wished she had done things differently....and instead of revulsion or anger, which i am accustomed to feeling toward my mother, i felt nothing but compassion. i had an enormous healing from this dream, because i completely saw her with my heart, and not from my own pain. i saw how much pain she was in, and i could not blame or be angry for the things she had done to me. i realized she did the best she could with what she had, and i was responsible for how i handle what i was given to work with (which i have known, but it had a whole new dimension after this dream!). how can we be angry with another who is in pain? all acting out and aggression comes from a being who is experiencing pain. to be present with the pain of ourself or another without reacting from the ego is the lesson of compassion. when we respond to another (or ourselves) who is acting out from pain with our own reactions, we are only acting out upon our own unhealed pain. so where we react to the pain of another shows us where we are still working on our own pain, and through compassion we heal not them, but ourselves, and allow them the space to heal their own instead of being locked in an abusive cycle of action/reaction. in other news, i 'borrowed' all these cool hawaiian flower mandalas and i am going to make them into a screen saver. how cool am i? yes. way cool.

techgasm!!!!

nux_vomica — Sat, 03 Nov 2007 00:56:04 GMT

i just bought a fully loaded fabulous HP pavillion laptop, 20 months old, winXP, officepro, 1 gig ram 100 gig hd, built-in wireless (i didn't know they DID that!!!) 15 inch screen laptop!!! it burns dvd's and cd's, has a good game card and all drivers and whatnot i might need to play games like WOW (not that i would get it, i don't even have internet at home, but we can play other games now...the old computer would seize up when i played spider solitaire!! i mean yes, i do rock that game, but really. life after 64 ram is all about the pants wet with pee.) $500. i am scared of the laptop. what if something *happened* to it? but i guess that since i took such good care of my last, old one, i can trust myself to behave with the new hottie. now i am waiting for the call to pick up the dvd player and vcr. then, a tv for movie viewing and so dev can hook up his gamecube. i feel so techie. it's exciting, there is now officially NO reason for me to leave the house. oh yeah, except for, life. now to head to whore foods for my hair dye and then to SF to hang out with <lj user="mskittywhore"> oh and the phone is back on, i now have an LG flip phone that has already saved me from missing an appointment. so that is good. i hope i can play this on the comp (still shy after the 64 ram), but i got this hilarious game set in the tenderloin of SF, you are stuck in a bar and escape by turning into a cockroach and apparently it is a great game cause it got an award for best action game 2004 from some falutin' PC mag. it was that or super solitaire. which i know would rock, but i am trying to expand my horizons, now that i *can*. am i going to turn into a gamer? crazy crazy world. omg omg omg, i can dowload music and BURN IT TOO!!!! i feel the powah. i understand if noone actually read this post, i just needed to vent the joy.