The Fanta Sea

Vacations - Time OFF, Lunar Eclipses, and Honolulu Hawaii

obsidianbutterfly — Thu, 31 Jan 2008 03:32:49 GMT

I realized it has been 7 years since I've had a real vacation. You know the kind where you get to leave the state, take a break, go with the flow, and explore! A year and a half ago I went and listen to a time share sales pitch and they tried so hard to convince me to buy a Time share, when the only thing I was there for, was the free trip... a Free Trip to Hawaii... whoo hoo! I have waited for a year and a half for this trip and finally it has come through. So next week, I'm Hawaii bound. I was there in 2000 in Kauaii for a while and never wanted to leave...This time, I will be in Honolulu. Maybe I won't leave! Yes it's only for 3 days, 2 of which are coming and going.. I really don't care. I'm just excited to go! On Wednesday of next week, there is an annular solar eclipse and that makes me want to do fire in Hawaii on the beach during the eclipse. Oh! I realize, but then that wouldn't be a break. 7 Years of energy, 3 days of time....What will she do? If anyone has any suggestions on nature or sacred spots that are not tourist attractions and I could visit in the one full day I will be there, please let me know. There is nothing I hate more than being a tourist. I like to explore unique sacred places that are not visited by all. Is there really such a place that still exists on an Island? Also, if there is any fire family, I would honestly be interested in meeting up on the beach and getting a chance to meet some fire dancers on the island. I'm not sure yet if I will bring my fire poi with me. I wasn't planning on it until today and I'm not sure if I want to take them and then have any problems and lose them because the airport confescates them. I can't afford to buy more right now and have shows the following weekend. Love and light - sequoia

Zuda Yoga in Sacramento

obsidianbutterfly — Wed, 26 Dec 2007 21:11:24 GMT

Interesting experience with a local yoga studio here in Sacramento. 2 weeks ago, a friend call me and told me she found a wonderful yoga studio that she had been going to. She is new to yoga. I am not. She informed me that they offer a deal for first timers with that particular studio where you pay $10 and you can take as many yoga classes for 10 consecutive days as you want. You only pay $10 - what a deal! I don't normally find good studios and am picky about where and who I learn yoga from. However, for a deal like $10 for 10 days I can check it out and see if it is the type of place I would consider going to on a regular basis. So Last Tuesday, I went down and signed up. I have been taking classes every day since then and experiencing different teachers styles. The studio is co- owned by Bill Bill Prysock who also teaches classes. When I went in I was given a schedule. I didn't pay much attention to it, of course my own fault but at the bottom it read 2008 schedule. I was following that schedule and last Friday showed up at 4:30 to find only the owner Bill there. He sort of rudely advised that I had looked at and followed the wrong schedule that class was at 5:30pm and that if I couldn't come back it means I lost that day of classes. Understandable. $10 for 10 days does mean that they are giving away about $150 worth of yoga classes. However the 2007 schedule was posted no where and being quite new to this studio I felt like it wasn't entirely my fault. When I signed up, the lady gave me a schedule and told me they were the class times. I posted it on my reridgerator and had been going accordingly. I was not able to go back at 5:30 this particular night. I was let down because I had been looking forward to it, however easily moved past it. I went Saturday afternoon and Sunday morning. Monday, Christmas Eve, They had told everyone to go online to look at the schedule. So in a midst of guests and errands and family things, I logged on to check out the schedule and saw that they were offering a class at 4pm. Perhaps I looked at it wrong. My friend was in town for the week and wanted to take advantage of the deal as well. Her family lives in Sacramento, she grew up here, and lived here until a few years ago when she moved to the coast. She enjoys the style of yoga that they do, and figured that if it is a good class, she could come when she was in town. Plus she would be able to take advantage of the 10 day pass. We walked down to the studio on Christmas Eve to go to a 4pm yoga class, arrived at 3:40pm - again to find only the owner Bill there. He opened the door, I said we are excited to do yoga, we are a little early, he rudely replied yeah 45 minutes early. So I said huh, I thought class was at 4pm. He said no 4:30pm and proceeded to show me on the computer and asked me if I was the girl who couldn't get the time right at the other class. Meanwhile his dog kept trying to stick his nose in my butt, Bill thought that was funny and started chuckling. I was a little irritated. I was sure that the night before the schedule said 4pm, again probably was my error, but I had an earache from walking in the cold. He turned My friend and I away to walk back home in the cold with no yoga class. I ws a little frustrated but we decided to come back at 4:30pm. So after all of that, on Christmas Eve, we went back down there. I walked my friend up, Bill sort of acted either like he wasn't happy to see us or didn't remember us, sort of cold and disconnected to the fact that we were obviously determined to come take a yoga class on Xmas Eve from him. I introduced my friend, said she is new and would like to take advantage of the first timer deal. He said ok. Asked her to fill out a disclaimer and sign in. He then began multitasking and sort of forgot about her while he signed up another new person. He then rang her up and said $16. At which I replied and said that she wanted to take advantage of the first timer deal. He said oh, where do you live, she said Aptos and Sacramento. he said it's only for people who live in town. That is their policy - which they don't have posted anywhere. So I asked my friend if she still wanted to do it. She said yes. So she pulls out $10 in cash and a credit card to pay the other $6. He looks at her and rudely replies, we don't do that here. She said take credit card? He said no split up the payment. He said it's their policy. So I was now getting to a point where this I really didn't feel like learning from this guy. After walking down in the cold once at the wrong time, being violated by his dog and laughed at, turned away, then treated as though he didn't appreciate my friends business and was unwilling after seeing how much we had went through to make to make it work.,.. we left. We had to stand their and put on our shoes, he didn't try to stop us and say wait, we normally don't do this but will this time or even try to explain any further. It was though he simply didn't want to be there and in turn didn't want us there. So he lost my friends business, lost my continued business, and put himeself in a spot where I will be sure to let people know about my experience with Zuda Yoga and the co-owner Bill Prysock. Thank you for reading

VyogUEa - what happened to Yoga?

obsidianbutterfly — Fri, 16 Nov 2007 00:30:00 GMT

Yoga according to Iyengar is union, communion. It means to join or yoke, to concentrate one's attention on. It is the union of our will to the will of God, a poise of the soul which enables one to look evenly at life in all it's aspects. The 8 limbs are the means of attaining yoga. The first are ethical observations. Ahimsa is non-violence, loving yourself and others, gentleness, justice, no pride or fear. Satya: is truthfulness, being true to your nature Asteya: not stealing, not keeping for yourself when others lack, it is a gift to be simple Bramacharya: moderation, in all things, of body, mind, and speech Aprarigraha: non poessessiveness, not hoarding, I have all that I need, feeling no loss. I have been a subscriber to Yoga Journal magazines for some time. I have found them to be accurate, informative and helpful in a lot of ways. I was thumbing through the last issue and something caught my eye. It was a bright silver shiney watch with diamonds or fake diamonds in it! I thought to myself, what magazine am I reading. I turned to the front, sure enough it was Yoga Journal. Not that yogi don't wear diamond watches. It was a little message under neath the watch that said it contains a chip that will help you to better resist the effects of external fields given off by cell phones and an asteriks. Next to the asteriks, it reads based on reported wearer experience in small letters and then in slightly bigger letters: Available at Saks Fifth Avenue. This is a full page color add. So I thought to myself, why would Yoga Journal want to place adds in their catalog for Saks Fifth Avenue. It seems to directly contradict some of the ethical observations. Non violence, Saks sells Fur and supports that environment. Am I to assume that I will next be able to buy by yoga mat lined in fur? For a small $800. Who is the market that Yoga Journal is speaking to? Folks that shop at Saks Fifth Avenue, buy diamond watches, and aren't really interested in the message that is available to us through yoga, Self Love and acceptance. Simplicity, moderation, non violence. I turn to the cover of the magazine, better back bends, a yoga makeover, boost your brainpower, peak performance, estee lauder. I feel like I'm reading a Glamour of Yoga magazines. Rather than learning how to accept myself, I'm learning natural ways to instill the feeling that I'm not ok, that because the diamond watch has a chip to repel external fields in based upon user experience that makes up for the fact that the stores in which you may buy it support the fur and animal cruelty market. So I thought I would spend some time and write them and just share how I felt about it. Someone sent me a canned response telling me that someone else would be in touch with me in 2-3 days. 5-7 days went by and no response. I emailed back. Someone emailed and said thank you. And for me to let them know if they could be of any more assistance. I responded and asked if they read the email, and he told me someone else would be in touch me shortly. No one has acknowledged or responded as of yet. So I've cancelled my subscription. I know that it's not a huge deal, but it's more about the principle. Yoga has become a fad. Something people do. But the message is being lost and all that is left are the postures. The postures lose alot of their power if the meaning and message is missing. I personally feel it's necessary to support things that embody the full message and meaning and not leave out important parts of the bigger picture. They are a business though. And that is fine. They can make their choices and do whatever they feel. It just saddens me because they are a popular magazine. and I'm sure that their message contributes to shaping yoga and how people respond to it. When I see that type of mentality takng over yoga teachers and studios, I realize how brainwashed by those subtle message people have become. I hope a more well rounded yoga magazine emerges. One that embodies the full message in balance. There are plenty of businesses who do good things for the environment that probably would have been a better choice than the diamond watch add. Perhaps there is a magazine that will emerge that will suport those people and those businesses that do observe the 8 limbs as a whole; including the ethical observations.

VyogUEa - what happened to Yoga?

obsidianbutterfly — Fri, 16 Nov 2007 00:25:04 GMT

Darkness

obsidianbutterfly — Thu, 01 Nov 2007 00:32:25 GMT

The Darkness The Shadows and creepers in the night These Ghostly figures fill up my sight! A dancing pumpkin with eyes of burning flames Sits at my door step waiting for the rain In the hallows of the earths sunken light the sun sets upon this darkness feasting for delight

The Ring of Fire

obsidianbutterfly — Tue, 13 Feb 2007 02:41:43 GMT

Introducing...

How do you let go?

obsidianbutterfly — Fri, 09 Feb 2007 23:51:11 GMT

So my question of the day, is How do you let go? how do you release in your life? I'm not talking about throwing out the literal garbage. I'm talking about places that take up mental, emotional, and physical space in your mind that really serve you no purpose. What is your process of identifying those spaces, knowing without a doubt that they are things you need to let go of and then actually releasing them. I will share a little more with you. I have a small apartment. My boyfriend and I have lived here for going on 4 years, maybe 5 years. Time slips by me. When we moved in here, we had my Shiatsu massage mat, 2 sleeping bags, his computer and music stuff, my art, some Dharma books, 2 plates, 2 forks, 2 spoons, 2 cups, 2 knives, 2 lamps - basically I was a true Dharma bum and didn't have many posessions. It felt great! I felt great. I was light, travelled light, lived light, and was full of light. We were given alot, couches, chairs, etc. We have bought alot, a bed, some rugs, a couple bikes, etc. I create alot. I have blew up in the art world. I have over 100 large paintings in a small one bedroom apartment. Many of which are unfinished projects. I have a books - some I read, some I think I will in the future. Clothes, I have so many clothes - I wear most of them. Old Journals - what do you do with old journals? Why would I want to keep them? I don't plan on reading them, but there is so much of my life stored up in them. Of course my past life. Lately - I keep feeling overwhelmed, chaotic, confused, full of clutter. I keep going through spells where I will dig through my clothes and be like I need to get rid of things and clean out some space. But then I go through them and don't really find anything to get rid of. I think, I need to have an art show and sell some art, so I set up the show, then develop attachment to the pieces and some how unattract potential buyers of my art. Books - I think, " I haven't read this", I start reading it and then start reading that one and then pretty soon I'm reading like 10 books at once and feeling overwhelmed. This is all new to me. This is all a feeling and a phase of my life that I have not experienced, usually I'm realtively focused and able to differentiate between what I need to do and what is taking up space and needs to be released. Usually I'm someone who is able to let go of things and has around me just what I need as I need it. My life usually feels like a river flowing. Fluid. And that feels balanced to me. I have started to feel like a ball of glue. I'm just rolling around collecting mass. My body feels tight, full, stiff, and inflexible. My mind is overwhelmed with chaotic unattached thoughts and my space feels full of murkiness, full of clutter, full of stuff. What the heck is going on and how do I transcend it? I'm not looking for advice from you to me, I'm looking for personal experiences from people who have really had a struggle with this in their life and how they went about getting things to flow and feel light, spacious, flexible,and peaceful again. My question, is how do you know what you are holding on to and what to let go of when you are feeling that way? Do I get rid of a bunch of my physical stuff, or is it some mental thing going on with me. Or some phsycial thing in my body? We got rid of our couch and it helped alot. Now our living room has more room and feels great to me. I sometimes miss the days of when all my posessions would fit into my VW Bus and a backpack. Where have those days gone? Perhaps I'm holding onto an ideal of how I have been in the past and trying to mold myself to fit into that now. When it no longer applies... Anyways, I would like to hear your responses and experiences with this. The name of the piece of art I'm attaching to this is called Root Balance. That is what is going on with me. I'm digging up my roots and building a more sturdy foundation. The symbol in the middle is the Root Chakra symbol. I have infused it with rays of Red, the color of the Root. love and light - as always! Peace! sequoia

Manifesting Your Dreams and releasing at Burning Man

obsidianbutterfly — Fri, 19 Jan 2007 01:48:39 GMT

This New Year's Eve I planted a seed. The tree that is growing is a Wishgranting Tree. I invite anyone to contribute to it. I posted a topic in the Obsidian Butterfly tribe at http://obsidianbutterfly.tribe.net/thread/eaae185d-3bc2-4307-819e-0b795183c79a go here and contribute your dreams, hearts desires, goals, what you deeply need to be complete, whole, balanced, and full of FIRE; and pass it alolng. Anyone and everyone are welcome to participate. I will be taking this tree to ART shows, some festivals, and a few performances that I'm at this year and asking people to contribute to it. Then at Burning Man, we will release the dreams into the air in the form of smoke to be sent out into the universe. It will be a project that began growing December and will be released in August. Infinite number 8 - there infiinte possibilities. Remain open and follow your heart....

Listening to the Wind

obsidianbutterfly — Wed, 27 Dec 2006 21:21:32 GMT

Today is a windy day, I can hear the leaves scraping accross the cement as they dance all around I can hear the trees as they creek, bend, and snap with each gust This morning, I took a walk in the wind... Listen to the wind today... What do you hear?

Happy Wynter Solstice!

obsidianbutterfly — Thu, 21 Dec 2006 23:48:16 GMT

Happy Winter Solstice! What are you doing today to celebrate or honor the solstice? As the Dark Snow Moon descends chaos and confusion and the madness will never end Wynter has given her subtle cold glare The long months of barren trees we stare from now moving forward the light will show you the way just stay present and pay homage to the darkest day

What's Your Heart Telling You?

obsidianbutterfly — Mon, 18 Dec 2006 09:09:40 GMT

Where is your heart taking you? What are you desiring in the depths of your being to manifest over the next year, for the rest of your life, what do you crave for so deeply that you are almost blinded by anything else? What do you wish to transcend? To embody? I know for myself, I will be putting all of my focus, intent, and energy into my hART and supporting all of those who are on this path with me. My hART is beating to a creative beat and there are vibrations eminating from me that are taking me beyond the stars. I feel like I have been in a cave for about 4 years, hibernating and frozen. I am starting to feel my self thawing, I'm starting to feel the light, and I'm starting to vibrate. Once this ancient tree gets groovin again, I will shake from the eternal depths, and my momentum will last for infinity. I am curious, where are you at? What is it that you crave in your heart more than you crave for anything else right NOW? Paint me your picture. The time is NOW to start deciding what you are and what you will intend. Intent is everything. There are no exceptions and no rules. What your heart desires is what you owe to all of humanity to give. Share yourself. I'm working on a show for New Year's EVE. I would like to take the wishes and dreams of anyone who shares and create a Wish Granting tree so that our dreams manifest and our hearts become divinely happy. I know that time is short, if you are interested, or know someone who may be interested in participating, please send them my way as soon as time properly allows. However, share with me even if you don't wish to participate. I would love to hear. Love and light - sequoia

Page 6

obsidianbutterfly — Sun, 17 Dec 2006 10:01:47 GMT

There was a Mystery on 6th it was a half torn Page there were Strange sounds in the night From below a Chemically induced Delerium turned to holy at 5 and from above the one's that we can not see moved furniture around at the time of hollows eve meanwhile we played human checkers on the black and white checkerboard floor After hours of spinning and a playful stare I decided to put popcorn in your dark dreaded hair now you don't want to play with me anymore so you leave and scream I'm a bore while a green stir fry brewed in the bubbling inferno of desire Drink this said the balded cheshire glug glug it all goes down what is this? sweet sugar and everclear said the clown Now- There's a Cat on the roof and a Ghost in the tree things have got just a little bit crazy for me after a bottle of moonshine and a drink from the green fairy a Whirling dervish brutally Stabbed a human sized spider and I'm growing weary it's living and dying in my room, I'm afraid of aracnids, dam it, where's the broom? tap tap tap on the goatskin drum a starry eyed sequoia slowly slips into the hum I'm looking at his head while it goes pop and proceeds to float to the top the greenhouse hash tripples the abundance of the grass I'm only partially believing because my body is grieving and what exactly am I seeing? I'm passed out and it's only 3 oclock Knock Knock there's a dark wind blowing Precious's hair is standing on end I can hear the bats blowing and my tears are steady flowing Who enters the domain of my womb? Who enters this 1906 room? while mystery floats above and the downstairs sorrow drowns itself in lost love I gaze into the abyss the other world of what most do not see my dreams turn to hollow and I steady grit my teeth as direction turns to water there are people passing by I can't belive what's caught in my eye There are 200 vampires laying in my bed I'm burning up, I have no body, and I'm losing my head stop cracking my egg, as I scream from the core I can't take this crazy trip no more I'm leaving from here, tomorrow I will flee living on a ley line I've got to be free 6 months later and where do I stand I find myself on the corner while all the culprits magically appear back on the land what is this power the power of a house it never leaves my mind, from dreaming to rouse and with my warrior sorceresses, I gleefully espouse and This is my story of living in that house. Just turn to Page 6 of the book You will go crazy and you will look What you behold will be your hook!

Tree of Light

obsidianbutterfly — Wed, 15 Nov 2006 22:51:33 GMT

the Tree of Light beautiful and bright a copulation of opposites Giving root to sight Like man and womyn forever intertwined a dance of confusion giving birth to the divine She is the essence we all wish to know she is our bodies through love we will grow and when the cycle comes full force she is what we will return home to the tree of light so beautiful and bright giving peace to our heart and wisdom to our site.

Pet her - she will PURRRRRR!

obsidianbutterfly — Mon, 23 Oct 2006 21:09:17 GMT

Here kitty kitty!

Destruction Reigns

obsidianbutterfly — Sat, 14 Oct 2006 03:44:49 GMT

Where serendipity serves no purpose or right there is something provoking this tenacious fight like cats in the alley gone angry and mad uproaring and deluded this makes me so sad She is Learning to abide and casting out her shadows in stride it's the journey of the imperceived that she will forever grieve in her heart where the pain so deeply resides she is frozen in time her soul beside alone in a world where no one will realize blinded by her confusion she is paralylzed as the destruction reigns down I look around to what I see there are infinite wounded souls craving to be free

Paradise

obsidianbutterfly — Mon, 02 Oct 2006 04:19:49 GMT

Paradise exists as Dusty Sand Full Moon high Drumming Rhythms And Fire Flies Paradise exists As Spinning over water Reflecting high and lo Burning Water Nymphs In the placid moon glo Paradise exists As a Dance of desire to sweetly admire holding intent and subtly moving with fire Paradise exists Playfully and in no cent The Jolt of perfection With no descent

April's Fool Masquerade Ball

obsidianbutterfly — Thu, 30 Mar 2006 03:38:13 GMT

Wombyn Fire!

obsidianbutterfly — Tue, 29 Nov 2005 23:05:58 GMT

There is something that I crave for! Something in the depths of my being. The craving stems from a fire or a rage that burns in the deepest darkest center of my femininity. I can't quite place it, yet I know it so well. I'm not sure what I seek, I think I know, but I don't really know. It is like the true hunger behind the hunger. Or that feeling when you are hungry, but you can't quite place for what. And you eat something and it didn't do the trick for you. Right now in this moment in time, I have an overwhelmingly deep sensation of this. I can smell it, I can taste it, I can feel all around it; I simply am not allowing myself to place it! It enrages me. I can feel it pulsating through my experience. I feel powerless to it. I am Blinded by it's wrathful nature. I know what causes it. I just don't know why. And I don't know what to do about it.

Fallen Angel

obsidianbutterfly — Tue, 08 Nov 2005 16:42:27 GMT

Fallen angel shows no signs a deviant reflection of her absent mind she is caught in luminosity yet shines in the light yet silently surrenders her soul to the night.

Delerium

obsidianbutterfly — Mon, 07 Nov 2005 17:14:38 GMT

Delerium Is all around! Stagnant and still I feel sick in the depths of my belly A hidden game of lies and deceipt There is really not much more to say!

Into the Forest..

obsidianbutterfly — Tue, 18 Oct 2005 01:46:35 GMT

on the forest floor Where little creatures never bore with A beautiful and flightly fairy friend of mine we danced and drank merrily until just before morning time We celebrated the moon goddess , so big, bright, and full we danced and danced, and played in the night for with her there is never a lull we did as though we always do two fairy creatures one green, one blue how very fun it was to dance and play with her she is my flighty fairy friend who lives on the forest floor. and into the forest I went Such a short time spent yet until next time many blessings to this sweet little fairy friend of mine!

Randomly Spinning

obsidianbutterfly — Sun, 02 Oct 2005 08:18:43 GMT

Randomly Spinning through Space and time A gem of delusion to ease my mind No worry, no way only another passing day Momentlessly drifting my whole life away

Nothing Here! NOwhere! Just Listen!

obsidianbutterfly — Mon, 22 Aug 2005 15:28:02 GMT

Listening to the silence I hear nothing resembling the sound of everything In nothing, as within in everything, a place of nowhere to go and nothing left to do I am still, yet moving faster than I ever have before In my speedy stillness I wait and realize that with nowhere to go I am forever NOW Here! In a place where nowhere turns into NOW Here, I listen. I am that which I am and nothing more nothing less. I have no quests or proceses or grand things to figure out. I simply am. What I will be is what I am. And all that I seek I have already become. Time has disolved into the waxing and waning of the moon. A cycless cylce through a motionless time. After so much has changed I realize that everything is the same. We are already now here. Just listen! THere is nothing here and nothing there.

Sweet and Profound

obsidianbutterfly — Wed, 10 Aug 2005 23:19:25 GMT

You waited to show up and then you found something so sweet and utterly profound A gem, like a jewel in the mid day sun the warmth of the perfect heat sharing your suttleness is mysteriously sweet there is nothing that can compare not the vastness of the day when twilight hits not the motion of the sea or the way the river drifts A gift to me to share with another something so sweet and utterly profound a blessing of light, the jewel of sound

Words from the SUN

obsidianbutterfly — Thu, 28 Jul 2005 22:05:31 GMT

It's HOT, It's radiant, It's stagnant, It's still. It's your choice to move or stop You own the power of your will. It's easy to get caught in the brightness of day Don't let the fire direct what you say. Every little thing you do Every little thought you think Creates your reality and forms a concrete link. Be the power you seek to find Be the being you create in your mind It's no mater if it's fantasy or true Your thoughts, words, and actions are what create YOU! The SUN gives the energy for love, warmth, and compassion it also burns you out and takes away your satisfaction. Remember to take refuge in the shaded area too, For too much of anything and the light you will surely lose.