My Blog

a what now?

ohjennifer — Fri, 16 Dec 2005 17:28:47 GMT

So, Yesterday I auditioned for the vagina monologues.... and, uh, the ladies they love me! the pieces I'm doing are: -"Wear and Say" -"My Angry Vagina" -"Smell" I'm especially excited for "my angry vagina" - wow. In other news, I took a nap 2 days ago, but I haven't been sleeping. or eating, i ran out of dollars. only homework and gifts of the drug sort. and not smoking cigarettes. and falling in love with boys, or something, i don't know what's wrong with me.

it's 3 a.m. i must be lonely

ohjennifer — Mon, 12 Dec 2005 08:30:11 GMT

uhhhh without further delay, my uw-stout hottie pics are up at facebook, go take a look-see, & check out what i'm currently checking out: http://uwstout.facebook.com/album.php?aid=2006193 and yes, i do realize that i am completely insane and waste time in new, almost unbelievable ways. and yet, for some reason i am content to look at images of attractive people all day long... who knew? P.S. Milwaukee is looking better and better each day

such a bad girl, such a naughty girl

ohjennifer — Tue, 06 Dec 2005 14:58:45 GMT

i skipped class yesterday morning..... to make out with this boy. I'm not complaining. staying at school for winterm, 3 weeks of math and gym. woo? Suddenly, I am happy. I haven't smoked dRuGs in three days, just becuase. and today is day 2 of Jennie quitting nicotine. And Seriously, I've been giggling for 4 days. I couldn't tell you why. It feels like things are falling together.

working for the man every night and day

ohjennifer — Thu, 10 Nov 2005 01:18:50 GMT

So, my dream is to rent a house with friends here next year, where i can have puppy sweet and... other sweet things but, i feel as if i don't posess much of that key life knowledge. that knows how to pay taxes, change oil or go about renting a house maybe my goals are too low- and i think none are academic does anyone know if those self-help books about puting your life together are actually helpful?

that's probably all

ohjennifer — Fri, 04 Nov 2005 15:35:04 GMT

i went to this "faculty sketch off" that was like wrestlemania with easles and it was so hilarious it concluded with a drawing done by my art history prof. entitled: "sponge dong square pants"...

anti-anti-

ohjennifer — Thu, 03 Nov 2005 19:13:16 GMT

Well, I've dyed my hair brightish red (so we can both be saucy redheads) but, the rest of my day is free. and i will likely spend it going to a head shop, and other things similar to that level of productivity. that's why i think it would be great to be at least partly robotic. and that's why i love piercings-they make me feel more robot-like. i keep wondering: are letters/notes really an acceptable, viable form of personal conversation? i think perhaps the answer is no. battered wives in plaid vests accuse charles manson look-a-likes with southern drawls of threats on her life while the old man lays on the couch and plays with himself "i don't own a gun, just a bible" (a poem about the television series 'cops') i don't know what to call it

hey hey

ohjennifer — Mon, 31 Oct 2005 17:16:33 GMT

well, halloween party weekend was pretty good; mike, your party was the best halloween party i've ever been to and i invented a new drink: poison apple the recipe is as follows: 3 shots vokda fill with hard hot-apple cider i feel like this punctuation makes the most sense. and, being a smoker can save you-because you're outside, free as a bird. easily faded into the residential/city jumble. this girl told me the turqoise in this old ring was "good for the body" maybe, it's working. new brown cords, i know you'll love them jess. and mother dearest bought me a new winter coat. green. However, even though i went to bed at 8:30 last night, and slept 13 hours, i still feel as though i could sleep much longer. but, homework. the weekend was work-free. and I, should be a more responsible student.

blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah

ohjennifer — Fri, 28 Oct 2005 18:15:27 GMT

I'm going home this weekend, leave in less than an hour the ride home will be filled with overpriced coffee drinks, a few bowls, and clouds of cigarette smoke. then my daddy will pick me up from an undecided location. i miss rick and his hot ass. and his Jag. and american spirits. "I like wine" said the wino. These two girls here drink so hardcore, i'm impressed. poles of whiskey. chase with bud light. i just can't keep up with that. and i just haven't been able to get drunk lately- my mouth just won't drink that much. later in the weekend....

i downloaded some justin timberlake songs for my listening pleasure

ohjennifer — Wed, 26 Oct 2005 18:22:00 GMT

take me to minneapolis, bitch furthermore, i will not pay for everything. it is making me a resentful, innerly-angry person and i don't like it where are the hot drug dealers that want to date me at? on other news, i had some purple haze last night :) yum and i worked out for the first time in..... months? yesterday and i'm all sore. what i really need is a full body deep tissue massage. for free.

it's true, everything they say

ohjennifer — Mon, 24 Oct 2005 02:56:41 GMT

you're right, mr.geary i am a bit............hungry

vanderly vanderho

ohjennifer — Sun, 23 Oct 2005 23:24:34 GMT

Friday: 1. should have gotten caught for posession: alcohol and marijuana, smoking in the room fines (cigarettes and weed) 2. Besides the close call, i hosted a party in my room later that night. a coctail party. after going to my professors art gallery opening (i love him so much, he's really funny) and was really drunk at the gallery. don't worry, i told him about the party. 3. this girl 3 doors away from us fell on her face and got her 4th underage 4. while the party was going on 5. lucky girl. Saturday: 1. chilled all day 2. watched about 4 hours of law and order 3. went to bed at midnight 4. Most people started drinking at 9 a.m. for homecoming, most were passed out by 7 pm. I think I'm going to come back this weekend, if sam doesn't come here. and then come back for halloween too. party. edie. love. i'm excited.

a lighthearted comedic story

ohjennifer — Fri, 21 Oct 2005 17:46:59 GMT

well, before painting beads, josh and i decided against doing drugs. and listened to some, you know, Jimi all the while. and then we obliviously painted some beads. purple. while this was going on, a smoky weed-like smell wound it's way to the stairwell door, when the RA came and and freaked out and called The Cops to the room riiiiiiiight next to mine. luckilg, the girl is a doll, and everything was fine but they searched her room and accused her of smoking, when she'd been sleeping. So i feel kinda bad. And the RA (Danielle) said to her (Jenna) that she didn't think she'd been smoking, but she had to do something, and mentioned with suspiscion that "somebody is blaring bob marley" well, it wasn't bob marley, but...... So we were just sitting there, oblivious like angie to a struggling dog's plight, painting beads and chillin, while the cops were not even ten feet away. How stupid. cops are so dumb, i can't even believe it. But Man Oh Man, am I a lucky girl. If I have one thing going for me, it's luck.

one thing i can tell you is you got to be free

ohjennifer — Wed, 19 Oct 2005 18:21:00 GMT

decided that my time was better spent painting beads than going to speech cocktail party this weekend. hosted by yours truly. bought a lot of hemp, so that's what i've been working on my thoughts are occupied with those not present, it makes me want to write letters. to them. Had a lovely conversation with my design professor about politics. he liked my article. he's totally a pothead, i know it "I guess i have a way with words but they don't mean anything" is the text i'm using for my self-portrait.... made entirely out of text. we will see. QUESTION OF THE DAY: Who are these girls like? yes, t.a.t.u. no, i know they aren't real lesbians. ok, i'll give you a hint: 1. one's a saucy redhead and the other....................... is not a redhead

secretly, i love fashion

ohjennifer — Tue, 18 Oct 2005 20:50:38 GMT

Miers nomination is a disaster. Does the world just tremble in anticipation to fall apart? Sam might come see me this weekend. Really, one of the best things that I could imagine happening. I cleaned my room today. and bought a half gallon of wooden beads. now, i need more hemp. I'm considering giving a speech on the pros and cons of legalizing marijuana or, you know, euthanasia. it's all the same issue at heart anyway: whether people have the right to do with their bodies what they wish. Every weekend i end up trashing the room. there's paint on the carpet, my closet door is broken, it smells like a bar and the fridge is incriminating. in crime in eating. i considered turning in an application for a pizza place, and then i decided that i didn't want to get a real job. i have enough money saved that i don't need to, and i haven't taken a break from working since i was 15. oh, the days when peoples lives were entrusted to me. needless to say, i cracked under the pressure and quit.

genius....

ohjennifer — Fri, 14 Oct 2005 20:18:56 GMT

let's conceal the fact that we're smoking weed in the room BY PLAYING JIMI HENDRIX AS LOUD AS THE STEREO WILL PLAY IT

woooaah did you ever notice "days" rhymes with "blaze"?

ohjennifer — Fri, 14 Oct 2005 00:47:47 GMT

my chronic memory problem, and general lack of ambition and investment has taken it's toll. and so, i revert to dishonesty. it's okay, i got a date with some beer, pumpkin and a gentleman. and perhaps in that order. really, i could just go to sleep, but, there's a free INDIE show tonight: the hopefuls and ike reilly assasination. and i'm taking mary jane. I've been reading this history of lsd, called acid dreams, and it's giving me crazy dreams. i wake up and it's as though i haven't slept at all. Minneapolis was nice. The Walker was delightful. i love that warhol. and i've picked out my halloween costume. but it's secret. and elitist.

you can try and take out the colors on the surface, but we'll boil beneith

ohjennifer — Thu, 13 Oct 2005 00:51:11 GMT

they won't let me talk about freedom don't alert the masses, they already know you can't even talk about what it means anymore acceptance and ignorance

rah rah replica

ohjennifer — Sat, 08 Oct 2005 18:46:52 GMT

stealing music over the internet is the best thing i've ever done. 100 more songs to add to my collection of fantastic. including the latest mars volta, some jimmy buffet. incubus-science, chingy, eagles, bangles and more sublime. i remember the days when i didnt like sublime. these are much different days. Have you found that when your hair is in braids you lose the urge to shower? I do. And i lost my stout card for the second time since i've been here. but it's found. haha i'm a silly girl. it was by the field house? must have been walking...to a party... and dropped it.... ? i don't know either. last night was pretty fun, went to stillwater. i faintly remember people handing me drinks and someone yelling "Oh my god that was whisky?!? i thought it was apple juice!" in other words, college tends to make me laugh a lot. and crave baja blast mountain dew. yeah, taco bell, you know what i'm talking about.

100 photographs

ohjennifer — Fri, 07 Oct 2005 14:42:04 GMT

I couldn't do it, I won't put my hand to the ground I'll leave you standing here Before you let me down and the clock keeps ticking i swear it should have stopped by now there's a stone in my empty stomach and it slowly turns around i hate my ragged, distorted face betrays me, empty lack of grace i hide it with a cloud of smoke close the eyes and fade away

I just want you to know that I love you

ohjennifer — Wed, 05 Oct 2005 01:14:51 GMT

well, i went to that feminists for life meeting. the speaker lady was really nice, for the most part. i just don't know if i can write an article on it. -without putting in opinion -without making myself feel like a hyppocrite -without spending hours agonizing over word choice, quotes -without being called harassed by the general christian/pro-life public in other news, i just want to do drugs. and make out with sexy young people. i could even go for a drink right now. too bad i can't put that up my nose. i can't wait til i escape this god-forsaken room. which should be later tonight, I HOPE. Additonally, I haven't smoked in over a week and I can just FEEL the anger coming back. remnents of the person i used to be. the person that i don't want to be. Thoughts of violence. I bought two different mushroom earrings today. i love the lady who owns this vintage/record/thrift store here, she's awesome. and her dog is with her everyday and soooo cute. I'm a little disappointed in you, majority of those i know on tribe. get on the ball. that's all i have to say.

baddass for life

ohjennifer — Mon, 03 Oct 2005 17:59:45 GMT

so, we had to make these books for 2D design class with a collection of photographs that demonstrate each of the 6 principles of design. my theme was female nudity, obviously, and we set it to a classic story (cinderella). being the ridiculous human being that i am, i put this photo on the cover of my book. now, why is that so odd?

tonight

ohjennifer — Fri, 30 Sep 2005 03:16:10 GMT

i read some poetry at an open mike night (acoustic cafe) for the first time i feel like i'm flying, picked a pint mug of beer off a table on the way out tossed the lemon and took care of that it's wonderful, i'm so happy and for one time, there's an endless hope pervading my existence everything will be okay. no matter what. and nothing else matters

i know the truth but it doesn't know me

ohjennifer — Tue, 27 Sep 2005 04:34:50 GMT

i finally finished my article. maybe i'll post it? no... health columnists don't have too many fans, i would believe. my evening consisted of watching the doors movie and crying my best friend here doesn't even know if he wasnts to be at school, and i wonder if i'm a sellout. who wonderful goes to college? don't all the "real" wonderful people live life on their own terms? move to the desert, dream fantasies and write really beautiful things i couldn't do it, probably. just couldn't cut it in an unstructured world. she thinks about what she needs to do to become normal feeling, for once. for the first time. smoking weed is so much easier, and effective and cheaper. and safer. and more deliscious. and quicker. mental health is such a slippery little jewel. can't see the answers for the clouds don't worry, i'll just wait for you here, until i do something interesting and you feel the need to call me again and there's this things called jealousy and she keeps biting my throat - kills me slowly tell me how to get my feelings under control i think the sick me just wants wants wants, someone to be mine and mine alone. someone who i'd trade my soul for. and still i see these people, and those people they're with (that consequently i begin to hate, simply because they have something that i could love. might mean something, anything) and sometimes, i think there isn't enough love in the world to make me feel alright. and everyone that loves me i hurt. and then miss. when they go away. the reason i don't say so many words is because they just don't mean that much to me anymore, so i'll just wait and do. not both. because if you watch my face you'll know what i would be saying. that's real. i'm still afraid.

the beautiful people, the beautiful people

ohjennifer — Mon, 26 Sep 2005 15:56:29 GMT

so here i sit, braless laptop student/fiend desperately seeking non-crazy feminist group to join (femenists for life? Fuck That Shit(!!!), you're not a real feminist unless you support choice, in my opinion) otherwise its just a moral masquerade going to turn in my application at a bowling alley -i think i can make more money bartending than selling drugs anyway not that i would even Consider that as a career option hahaha its so dry here, Somebody needs to pick up the ball though (pick up the bowl?) this weekend was so crazy, and consequently i am sore. and have some viscious lovebites. at least i didn't come away empty handed. i was overdue. but seriously, weekends here are like warzones: Leave no person behind (people just get dragged into dorms- because they can't walk) beer cans and cigarette butts Everywhere littering the concrete.

she was a typical art student

ohjennifer — Fri, 23 Sep 2005 13:52:26 GMT

tried the magnolia electric company, left us in a state of limbo with broken ladders falling all around secondary salamander wait for the mistake they'll carry you down in their jaws we give back less than what we take natural greivances pool shook what wine remains and met the kids outside, the ones who would sell you the world convince them you're a girl and the warring widens from within